Yeah I think it’s way worse than a lot of people understand

I still think I can fix this, but I know how delusional I sound and I do realize the most likely outcome is that this won’t be fixable and I’ll feel like an idiot in a few weeks

(He’s fine, in case anyone happens upon this thread.)

He’s probably just blowing me off but that assumption is also kind of unhelpful for different reasons

I hate that we live in a climate where I’m over here calculating “Yeah he’s Mexican but he was born here and he has lighter skin but also they’ve been abducting citizens and and and”

Just before 6 I asked for an update on his plans and he said “I’m still at work” and “today went weird” but did not actually give me any info on his plans going forward. I probably can’t let that slide and I’m MAD about it because I really liked him.

It’s not that big of a deal, just a really weird quirk that I’ve never seen anywhere else