I'm so sad, I'm numb...
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Not really in the mood for this right now & if a bunch of dickheads come caping into my mentions showing their whole cracker asses, I'll just turn off engagements, but I just have to say...
It's really quite something that no matter what harm the GOP causes, even so-called DEMs blame DEMs.
It's really quite something that no matter what harm the GOP causes, even so-called DEMs blame DEMs.
a man and a woman are standing next to each other and the woman is holding a red light in her hand .
ALT: a man and a woman are standing next to each other and the woman is holding a red light in her hand .
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November 11, 2025 at 1:06 AM
Decided to watch today's episode of Kelly Clarkson... forgot it was Monday. Exactly enough time to watch it before kickoff, so the timing works out.
November 11, 2025 at 12:32 AM
Decided to watch today's episode of Kelly Clarkson... forgot it was Monday. Exactly enough time to watch it before kickoff, so the timing works out.
Got a call from a nonprofit (Vision First) to ask about cornea donation. I explained that she was totally blind in one eye and partially blind in the other, but she said if her corneas weren't the cause, they might be viable, so I said my mom would probably love the idea of helping someone see.
November 11, 2025 at 12:09 AM
Got a call from a nonprofit (Vision First) to ask about cornea donation. I explained that she was totally blind in one eye and partially blind in the other, but she said if her corneas weren't the cause, they might be viable, so I said my mom would probably love the idea of helping someone see.
Okay... I'd forgotten how funny it is when Scotty says, "I know this ship like the back of my hand," then proceeds to turn around & knock himself the whole fuck out on a bulkhead. Even now, it made me laugh... my mom always laughed at that part, too. There are some funny lines in this one.
November 10, 2025 at 11:45 PM
Okay... I'd forgotten how funny it is when Scotty says, "I know this ship like the back of my hand," then proceeds to turn around & knock himself the whole fuck out on a bulkhead. Even now, it made me laugh... my mom always laughed at that part, too. There are some funny lines in this one.
You know... politics would be one hell of a distraction right now, if I didn't hate politics so much & if people weren't running all over Al Gore's Motherfuckin' Internet™️ right now being the stupidest motherfuckers alive and absolutely daring me to get suspended, which might push me over the edge.
November 10, 2025 at 11:28 PM
You know... politics would be one hell of a distraction right now, if I didn't hate politics so much & if people weren't running all over Al Gore's Motherfuckin' Internet™️ right now being the stupidest motherfuckers alive and absolutely daring me to get suspended, which might push me over the edge.
I have kind of an odd question, but someone 'round these parts might just have the answer...
Anybody know where I can find a TARDIS urn? Looking for something in Who blue... this sounds crazy, but... like those YETI tumblers. My mom has a Doctor Who tumbler kinda like this she used CONSTANTLY.
Anybody know where I can find a TARDIS urn? Looking for something in Who blue... this sounds crazy, but... like those YETI tumblers. My mom has a Doctor Who tumbler kinda like this she used CONSTANTLY.
November 10, 2025 at 9:49 PM
I have kind of an odd question, but someone 'round these parts might just have the answer...
Anybody know where I can find a TARDIS urn? Looking for something in Who blue... this sounds crazy, but... like those YETI tumblers. My mom has a Doctor Who tumbler kinda like this she used CONSTANTLY.
Anybody know where I can find a TARDIS urn? Looking for something in Who blue... this sounds crazy, but... like those YETI tumblers. My mom has a Doctor Who tumbler kinda like this she used CONSTANTLY.
It wouldn't have made any difference if I'd called sooner. If she'd had her way, she'd have just laid there and died on the floor. She kept insisting she was gonna be fine and was sure she was gonna get back up... that she wasn't gonna die on the floor... whatever was going on was only temporary.
November 10, 2025 at 9:33 PM
It wouldn't have made any difference if I'd called sooner. If she'd had her way, she'd have just laid there and died on the floor. She kept insisting she was gonna be fine and was sure she was gonna get back up... that she wasn't gonna die on the floor... whatever was going on was only temporary.
I wanted to call an ambulance sooner, but she wasn't having it. She was still arguing with me... like... *while* I was on the phone with 9-1-1 she was in the background saying, "I'm not going to the hospital." They can probably hear her on the recording. Stubborn AF. Wonder where I got it.
a picture of a woman with the words i 'm her daughter on the bottom
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November 10, 2025 at 9:10 PM
I wanted to call an ambulance sooner, but she wasn't having it. She was still arguing with me... like... *while* I was on the phone with 9-1-1 she was in the background saying, "I'm not going to the hospital." They can probably hear her on the recording. Stubborn AF. Wonder where I got it.
When I was talking to the nurse at the hospital last night, she found it absolutely remarkable that my mom had ZERO medical history whatsoever. They actually noted in her chart that she told them she hadn't seen a doctor since 1995. And I'm guessing she said it with what almost passed for pride.
November 10, 2025 at 9:10 PM
When I was talking to the nurse at the hospital last night, she found it absolutely remarkable that my mom had ZERO medical history whatsoever. They actually noted in her chart that she told them she hadn't seen a doctor since 1995. And I'm guessing she said it with what almost passed for pride.
I'm sincerely relieved I don't have to do any of that this time around. It's just me & my mom... like it always has been, pretty much my entire life. It was always just us.
My dad died when I was 5, but he'd been confined to a nursing home or the VA hospital from the time I was 6 months old.
My dad died when I was 5, but he'd been confined to a nursing home or the VA hospital from the time I was 6 months old.
November 10, 2025 at 8:24 PM
I'm sincerely relieved I don't have to do any of that this time around. It's just me & my mom... like it always has been, pretty much my entire life. It was always just us.
My dad died when I was 5, but he'd been confined to a nursing home or the VA hospital from the time I was 6 months old.
My dad died when I was 5, but he'd been confined to a nursing home or the VA hospital from the time I was 6 months old.
... was an exercise in psychological torture for me. There were constant demands for my attention and acknowledgement from people I'd seen, maybe, two or three times in my entire life; there as much to be acknowledged for showing up for her funeral, even if they didn't show up for her life.
November 10, 2025 at 8:24 PM
... was an exercise in psychological torture for me. There were constant demands for my attention and acknowledgement from people I'd seen, maybe, two or three times in my entire life; there as much to be acknowledged for showing up for her funeral, even if they didn't show up for her life.
It's an odd feeling of relief to know that I don't have to endure the social conventions of a funeral & all that... being surrounded by people... having to suffer through all the exhausting interaction on top of the grief.
I don't understand it... at all; never have. My grandma's funeral...
I don't understand it... at all; never have. My grandma's funeral...
November 10, 2025 at 8:24 PM
It's an odd feeling of relief to know that I don't have to endure the social conventions of a funeral & all that... being surrounded by people... having to suffer through all the exhausting interaction on top of the grief.
I don't understand it... at all; never have. My grandma's funeral...
I don't understand it... at all; never have. My grandma's funeral...
It's a good thing I'd gotten mom some Liquid I.V. a few days ago. I have a bad habit of not drinking enough water as it is, so at least when I remember to chug some liquid right now, it's that. It doesn't taste great, but I'm guessing I'd be on my way to dehydrated without it right about now.
November 10, 2025 at 8:12 PM
It's a good thing I'd gotten mom some Liquid I.V. a few days ago. I have a bad habit of not drinking enough water as it is, so at least when I remember to chug some liquid right now, it's that. It doesn't taste great, but I'm guessing I'd be on my way to dehydrated without it right about now.
Now would be a super keen time to have a Xanax... or two. The thing about Xanax is that you're still perfectly aware of what's going on, you just don't care to that point that you're in a catatonic spiral. Totally understand how people get addicted to that shit... especially miserable housewives.
November 10, 2025 at 8:04 PM
Now would be a super keen time to have a Xanax... or two. The thing about Xanax is that you're still perfectly aware of what's going on, you just don't care to that point that you're in a catatonic spiral. Totally understand how people get addicted to that shit... especially miserable housewives.
The day my mom found out she was pregnant, she stopped smoking and eating junk food. That was a big deal for her... like... a big deal. Right after I was born, she was asked what she wanted and her response was, "A cigarette and a Quarter Pounder with cheese & onions only."
I'mma go smoke now.
I'mma go smoke now.
November 10, 2025 at 7:46 PM
The day my mom found out she was pregnant, she stopped smoking and eating junk food. That was a big deal for her... like... a big deal. Right after I was born, she was asked what she wanted and her response was, "A cigarette and a Quarter Pounder with cheese & onions only."
I'mma go smoke now.
I'mma go smoke now.
You know what's funny... when I came home from the hospital last night, I asked the Uber driver to stop at the gas station so I could get a pack of cigarettes. I quit a long time ago, with a few exceptions (like when we moved in August), but here's the reason I did that last night:
November 10, 2025 at 7:46 PM
You know what's funny... when I came home from the hospital last night, I asked the Uber driver to stop at the gas station so I could get a pack of cigarettes. I quit a long time ago, with a few exceptions (like when we moved in August), but here's the reason I did that last night: