Like, yeah, I would love to be somewhat popular and have people adore me

But that sounds tiring

I would also love it if anyone who meets me can plainly see that I'm actually insane and prefers to avoid me so I don't have to ever bother with people pleasing again

But that sounds depressing

Oh, I currently don't have a project in mind. I just posted that to share an experience.

I'll still follow you back tho

Not right now, thank you so much for the offer tho!

Draw.

I usually write what I want to read for myself if I have a clear enough idea.

I won't lie. It's inconvenient in the moment, but sometimes I think about this and can't help but laugh

Like, the artist will ask me for specific references and I'm just there like "Uuuuuh, idk bro, I just want a fanart of these two characters that I ship with these vibes" and that's all I can give them.

Trust me, I feel frustrated with myself as much as they do.

My pain doesn't matter, my feelings don't matter

If it wasn't bc of a promise I made to the only living being that genuinely loved me unconditionally before he had to pass away, I would be gone now

I've let you cut me open, just to watch me bleed
Gave up who I am for who you wanted me to be
Don't know why I'm hoping for what I won't receive
Falling for the promise of the emptiness machine