thank you to Magma & the editors, Sohini Basak, & Tim Tim Cheng, for publishing this piece.

the first photo is of swimming in the pacific ocean in west coast fog.

it feels complicated to make art & wrong to share this - to create, to make good memories instead of finding new ways to hurt. but I find myself also wanting to share the raw, embarrassing feelings & the precisely crafted metaphor. both exist and guide me, overflow & strategic containment.

I feel this - there's a kind of loneliness now, a huge shift. I'm sorry too. I am glad though in this weird way, it connected us 💙

I'm so sorry for your loss. It stuns me, how deep this grief feels, how much I think it has and will change me. Thank you for replying and sharing. Sending you some care from afar.

thanks, Sam 💙

So happy you came across this, and so lovely to be in your company. 🥰

It was a great and timely reminder that our published work is out in the world making essential connections, even if we don't see it. Amazing to think of those books travelling to Finland. Also to see my poetry being taught in good company with @alycia.bsky.social and @reshmaruia.bsky.social.

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The image of you rotating through 5 books is my favourite

hard relate to this!