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AK_Hevonen
@ak-hevonen.bsky.social
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Diagnosed Autist, socially clumsy / clumsy socially. Just tryin' to get my art out. No 📱, no nerves.

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Such a long story, it makes grown men cry
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Off to work, if I vanish for a while, I will be back later. The way it is, must hurry to get things done!

#howIspendmyholidays #artist #wip #thomBrown #MatthewFoley #Dachshund #grateful

Some people are yellow, some people are blue, Hector is orange, how are you!
Photo of my workplace, showing three paintings in progress, blocks lying in a row next to each other. One reference photo on the lower left, my work utensiles on top. I am spoiled, I have TWO mix palettes!
August 20, 2025 at 6:40 AM
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WTF.. Here is Momma Bear From Hell, on her way to eat both!

#handdrawn #noai #humanartist
My didgital painting, hand drawn, in fantasy style. In front of a purple sky, in a forest scenery, a wild grizzly bear, jaw wide open and roaring, appears. Behind her is a green "swoosh", like a temporare vortex from Star Trek, out if which the animal seemed have appeared. It is partly metal, the right, half the face and snout and upper part of the head are made from a dark steel. The bear landed on a small concrete path, with an oil leak in the middle of it, one cannot tell whether it was there before of spills from the animal, as it ends between the front paws. From the viewers point of view, wild creeping bare branches seem to reach into the painting from the outer rims, trying to reach the bear, who roars at them.
August 20, 2025 at 6:32 AM
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And another one! Must do it while feeling emotionally ready. Given 2Mr Jason Isaacs in 2018. More in ALT.

#traditionalpainting #traditionalart #handdrawn #noai #jasonisaacs #bradpitt #JonBerthal #loganlerman #MichaelPena and that who claims 2be an artist while stealing fr other artists
Hand drawn painting of the film Fury (2014). Background shows a blue sky, brightening to a cyan blue in the middle, and some landscape with few trees. Next to those, a rider in Nazi-Uniform rides a bright grey older horse in a well mannered slow step. That uniform freaks me out, but that rider I admired. He and his horse were ONE. If a rider cannot to a proper walk they fail. Oftentimes, horses can be seen stepping wrong, lateral instead of diagonal, building up all the wrong muscles. Left upper side the face of Jason Isaacs, marked with scratches. Below him Jon Bernthal wearing a tank drivers helmet. Below him, Shia LaBeof, followed by Michael Pena, who is looking up, and Logan Lerman, peeking out of the window of an 1930s transpoter. Following the lower black to the right, the sillouette of the legs of Brad Pit comes to sight, he is leaning on the canon of the tank, maked with the name "Fury", looking down. His upper body is fully visible in color, uniform and all. On the cannon stands a smaller version of Shia LaBeof, his hands clutching a cap, while his eyes stare upwards to the painted half crested moon. I did report Nazis to Meta and Offices for over ten years. Real Nazis, not People with different opininons. Called for help when those Reichsbürger arose in 2012 = media, offices ignored me. I am but me. Not their social class. Took until 2014 until they woke up. What did they do then? Trying to understand them? Are you f#n kidding me?? First, where is your understanding for People with disability not matching your own class, and second - YOU, the media, played a big part in creating this whole mess we are all in now. Entertainment mattered more to you than rationality. Clicks and Likes seemed higher rated than the consequenes of Nazis being pushed upwards, atracting followers.
August 19, 2025 at 8:19 AM
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Inpsired by a conversation here, a photo of a bird of prey. A highly curiously eying my Canon Batelour. Taken through wired fence.

#photography #birds #Zimbabwe #Africa #shallIofferitonRedbubbleyesorno
My photography of a Bateleur (Eagle) sitting on an artifical small pond. Nature-alike scenery created by the zoo, made of soil, branches, many weeds with a not so nature alike round concrete pond for water to bath in. In the middle of that sits the bird, black with a wide grey band across the folded in wings and the auburn top of his back. It's face and feet are bright red. The animal seems super interested in my doing ( leaning forward, as I am very short, zooming in between the wired net and fence, and focussing. Which alone, given old lenses (which I love!! For I waited 24 years) makes noise. And then the clicking of the little mirror inside the camera. Sure, if I was rich I may consider getting a mirrorless cam, yet things are the way they are. The noise can have a good affect by drawing an animal's attention towards me, yet when photographing zoo- or wildlife, I'd prefer them not to "look".
August 19, 2025 at 7:54 AM
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Some weeks ago #PBS broadcasted Sgt #KrisBattles & his art, we got in contact & his reaction was encouraging. Now I show them here, was afraid 2hurt someone w War PTSD but they wont see it, so I can, I think.
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#traditionalart #handdrawn #Veterans #service #reasons #tragic
Traditional painting after several photos by Dean O'Gorman, New Zealand actor, filmmaker and photographer, and kind Magiccon guest. Shows a barechested man, tired expression and closed eyes, his dark hair being wet from sweating. He wears military gear, parachute rucksack and utensile belt, his right arm is bandaged above the elbow. Behind him one can assume the shape of a crossed Jesus. In the middle a groupd of Vietnam soldiers lies on the ground, one black soldier using the satelite phone, carried by another man next to him. To this group's left a war horse with WWI gasmask and lowered head, all exhausted, stands, a killed soldier dangling from one of it's stirrups, covered by his own blanket or coat. Underneath the horse, a Dog, also in gas mask, stands, peaking through the horse's legs. The left side in the middle depicts a group of four WWI soldiers, Brits (helmets), all huddled up, trying to ave a break from the trenches and horrors. The lower part of the painting also shows a WWI scene of four soldiers and a sorrel war horse, carrying a covered dead soldier over it's back. The march through rough terrain, is must have been one hell of mudd and rats and lice and corpses and I really cannot understand how lightely people today refer to themselves as PTSD survivors when onyl having been told "NO", or through their parent's divorce without violence etc pp. PTSD is dead serious. You do NOT get it by breaking a nail or not getting what you want because you are lazy as shit. Sorry for my hard words. But one really must have seen "some things", been through "stuff" to get PTSD, real trauma. Most people try hiding it, and as one person here states clearly, they do NOT seek pitty, or gifts, or money, unless having a severe medical cause and live in a country where it is not covered by their insurance. Sorry. Across the painting, red poppies fly around, could also be blood dots. On top in red scratched "WHO", "WHAT", "WHEN, "WHY"
August 18, 2025 at 9:46 AM
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Thanx! But Im not being photographicly endangered = isolated.
Its more abt all autistic PPL I met struggling with it, while often get pushed into it.

Photo taken of @rutasepetys.bsky.social at Hotelroom by me, our 2nd meeting. She is highly photogenic & NT = perfect!
Photography of dear Ruta Sepetys, author, wearing a black femine cut T shirt, black trousers, having one leg crossed over the other while sitting on the rimb of a hotel room bath tub. On her upper leg lies a guest towel, helt by her hand, a wedding band on her finger, while she raises her right hand, holding up a remote control in jest. Her hair is shoulder long and blonde and she is smiling. Behind her is the tiled wall with the corner of that TV the remote control belongs to barely visible over her left shoulder / our right. In the lower left, the corner of the sink - cabinet can be seen.
August 18, 2025 at 9:13 AM
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with me, it was more like having a somewhat grim face, apparently. CONSTANTLY & fr all sides PPL would tell me, sometimes "nicer", most times not so nice, accusingly.. It made me feel very insecure, feeling like I dont belong anywhere.
I still suck at Photos. Prefer being behind Cam
My attempt of taking a selfie, I really do not feel good being in front of cameras. While LOVING the tech, as so many people with Autism do.
August 17, 2025 at 3:02 PM
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Worked so much, inspite the heat, that everyth is shaky, my fingers barely hitting right keys but I am also very grateful, satisfied. Tonight, 4 once, no nightmares, pls?

#Painting #humanartist #handdrawn #freestyle #fantasy #spooky #nights
Hand drawn painting I did some years back to deal w my every-night-sleep issues, plus my fascination w words, language. Shows a woman, lets say it is me, lying on a bed like structure, cleary restless, tossing to and fro. To both sides, spooky creepy creatures arise. In the middle, stretching down, a large window shows a full moon. The spooky beings on the left a more humanoid, holding tight to a sort of bed head bow, which could easily be broken. The creature on the left, however is a horse. The Night - Mare. One can not tell weather she attacks the sleep or protects the sleeping... Her hooves are split. All have yeloow eyes, and everything is held in a bony-blue ish white light. Well - Good Night, folks!
August 14, 2025 at 5:44 PM
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Must finally work now. If I do not, I get anxiety, for my entire plan is messed up then. Autism brains are mean a lot. Thank you to all who turned notifications for my posts on!

It helps, truly. Also bc my Redbubble is connected 2it, make only ca 200€ per year, but in my situation that's big!!
Example screenshot of four of my designs avaiable on my Redbubble account, link in bio. Richard Armitage on the Olive green T shirt, Official liscenced Fan art of Dune on the upper right black one. Second row shows one of my many Claes Bang Dracula Fan arts and finally a sepia photo of a slumbering horse on a grey shirt.
August 14, 2025 at 8:58 AM
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The fact that I only now, after months of being here, managed to get my Bio done, shows you how done I am...

#photography #animals #goats #exhaustion #autisticburnout
A sleeping goat with half long shaggy hair in beige, white and some sorrel red, photographed by me in 2009. With a tiny, borrowed Olympus Camera. They lied all curled up on a patch of dry earth - probably because it is warm from the sun - with grass growing in the back. Their adoreable head rests on their hind leg, lips cutely pursed, and I wonder if they dreamed about the carrot they just ate, as a very small piece of that snack is still lying visible in front of that very hind leg.
August 14, 2025 at 8:26 AM
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I love wolves. They are the better people. Too many humans blame animals for their own fault, just happening w our wolves in GER. It works in other Countries! #herdogs #kangal #CaucasianShepherd #dogs #wolves #herdprotection
Traditional painting of a wolf in winter, looking straight at you.
August 14, 2025 at 8:15 AM
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Congratulations, and thank you, truly, for actually considering those working hard but not getting anywhere. Not many able people do, sadly
Digital painting of how Paddington arrives at a poor family's place, instead a middle-, uppermiddle class cozy home. Done some years ago, during the Grenfell tower tragedy. It shows a sunset scenary, brutally broken by ugly high rises of the social housing kind and a few trees. On a concrete road, leading towards them, stand a small child with fuzzy brown hair, wearing a deep purple hoodie and drak grey jeans with sneakers. Next to the kid stands Paddington, in his blue duffle coat with his red hat, suitcase in one hand, staring up to the child in disbelieve. #poverty #socialclass #film #reality #society
August 14, 2025 at 8:10 AM
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3/ rage against the machine song, yet nothing was in the news. Are too many already growing tired of the news, as so often.. is it no more entetaining enough for them?? WHERE ARE THE PEACEFUL BUT EN MASSE PROTESTS?!

"Are you not entertained.."
My hand drawn digital art of Mr Russel Crowe in one of his most famous charactors. Standing with his back slightely towards us, he looks over his left shoulder, wearing the ancient Roman fighters amour made of leather and padding. On his right shoulder two white horses canter. Behind him billows clouds of green and blue.
August 13, 2025 at 5:40 PM
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CALPERNIA!!!! Why cant she be real, and maybe like me to be my friend.. 💜

#SoldiersGirl #LeePace #Transwomenarewomen #Transmenaremen #Transrightsarehumanrights
Hand drawn digital artwork of Lee Pace in his very first film role as Calpernia Adams in "Solder's Girl". Dressed in a super long Skirt-Vest-Mixture of outside red silk, inside black one, which she passionatedly swirls around her enormously long legs in big black boots - sorry for that nap, JET band - , she dances her way elegantly towards the T-shaped lower end of the club's stage. Which is rimbed with lights. Her face is lit from below, she lowers her eyes and has a gentle smile, a knowing smile, playing aroudn her lips. She also wears a tight neck decoration made of black rings. Repeating myself, again and again since years, but this film was BRAVE. Showtime had severe troubles finding a director, three skipped over board, so to speak, afraid to touch that "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" Army code, still active then. It was lifted by President Barack Obama.
August 13, 2025 at 5:11 PM
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I think it does, imho. Autistic too, w "past" (how much I was afraid of facing Prof Vogeley, in was 2010, & most people diagnosed here arnt fr where Im from).

Was quite an angry hedgehog during teen years, now I simply cant no more. Nobody believs it anyways. So why stressing out. I try counting.
Black and white drawing, hand drawn, of a long haired woman in a snail shell, trying to crawl forward. her right arm and leg are stretched out, the left arm and leg drawn towards her middle. Which may be biotechnically incorrect, I fear, yet was the best possible position I could do to make this look OK. Avaiable on my Redbubble shop, link in my bio, thank you. Very small artist. And Autist.
August 13, 2025 at 4:51 PM
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I hate it, actually. Just, ever since I had my experiences with Flying Monkeys, I am VERY careful (that is also why I only cautiously use the term Narcissism, it is a real pain in this world, in most cases NOT clinical, and should not be thrown aroudn lightly just bc 1 doesnt like some1 else)
Digital painting in an oval, background sky with clouds, piling up fromsoft whitish blue in the back, til dark black smokelike clouds in the front. Out of those dark clouds rises a pillar, sort of. And on it sits a typical Wizard Of Oz alike Flying Monkey. Wearing white pants, a dark blueish t shirt, a confederate - ish soldiers cap plus an evil grin. The monkey has red eyes. Its' tail is spiked with a nasty thorn, the wings leathery black with the same bonelike thorns on top. It has sharp, long claws, symbolizing all Narcissists skill to engage people (NOT everybody having such talents is a Narcissist!). Text says: Red Flag - Seeing an "Autist" angross people as Flying Monkeys. Lower lines: Actual autistic people lack that very ability to atract masses (unless being promoted), leave alone making anybody do their dirty laundry for them. That's called MANIPULATION. It definately outrules Autism.
August 13, 2025 at 4:20 PM
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HOW stupid must some kinda PPL be to block PPL by list? Without knowing, interacting? And if U knew the topic... unbelieveable. I crawled on the floor in agony from MH issues when they were still standing in mommy & daddy's selection shelf..

#flyingmonkeys #beware #think #yourself
Digital painting of my first attempts of doing so, over ten years back: human hands of different color (there is only ONE human kind, Homo sapiens), holding a glowing purple crystal ball together, their wrists connected by an electric blue scarf or large ribbon, binding them. Words are a quote of myself, barely visible (so much for me being none mental health affected... that story is so long it would fill an evening!), saying "Don't become the Monster You Try to fight!" And in white letters, on the lower end of the image, a quote by good Dr Martin Luther King Jr: "When evil men plot, good men must plan. When evil men burn and bomb, good men must built and bimd. When evil men shout ugly words of hatred, good men must commit themselves to the glories of LOVE" It is very hard to keep that at time, and I am definately not perfect, have my thoughts, but I also carry a large package I can not get rid of. In cases such as this, I try blaming it on their youth, yet some also are mere spoiled entitled brats, the next generation of freeloaders and troublemakers. HURTING all actually suffering from Mental Health issues. If that was not the case, I could not care less. But it is a "The Boy who cried Wolf" situation, that nearly cost me my life twice too.
August 13, 2025 at 3:44 PM
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Draw anything! Just splashes of color, lines, what ever. Discover shapes in objects around you, like when looking at a mug, you have a cylindric shape in total and an even circel on top, with a nice swirl for handle.
Check reference colors, like this by Fab Mod. DO NOT let anyone stop you. ART = JOY
August 12, 2025 at 11:23 AM
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(Imagine me saying so with that Jurassic Park Founder's voice)

"I really hate that man..."

Painting I did in 2020. One day, Trump will pay, I hope. He actually believes the Armed Forced r his personal Flying Monkeys! And - SLAVA UKRAINI
One of my very few Paintings been seen by people. Hand drawn, digitally, no ai. It shows the Star Trek character of Q, portrayed by Mr John De Lancie, wearing a TNG captain's uniform, a US flag draped around his right shoulder (left side from our point of view). With a gleeful face he stretches out his hand, in which's palm soars the bust of a screaming Donald Trump, burning in electric blue flames. Words show my artist name, AK_Hevonen, plus the title: "There's only one real Q!" I worked it out with Mr John De Lancie, rather, we worked two out. This one, and I hope it is OK to say so, was my idea, it refers to a scene of Star Trek TNG. When Q gets punished by the Continuum by having to be human ( well, he chose that over other options). When he gained back his Stae of being omnipotent again, he holds the calamarain in his palm like that, shrunk into a suiteable size. Naturally, that episode, "Dejy Q" - and how I love puns! - is about Q having to learn to be humble, not those poor creatures held by him. But it fits, in a broader meaning, especially since Trump and his TrumpPets use his name so often...
August 12, 2025 at 10:36 AM
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To ask an autistic person, an ACTUALLY autistic one, to be able to well adress people is like asking a person without legs to walk on their own.
Not my words, but those of dear Professor Gillberg.
@utafrith.bsky.social
Both my painting and drawing of Professor Christopher Gillberg, who is a very decent man. Painting on the left in colour, him wearing a dark suit with a light grey man's shirt, barely visible. While listening to somebody, he rests his head on his right hand, fingers curled up. He wears a probably pleassantly heavy metal man's watch. The drawing shows the very same, only in black and white, with a lined decoration on the left side.
August 12, 2025 at 10:10 AM
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Why do PPL so often address well meant words to hard working PPL, but not the actual lazy ones, who sell themselves as victims, r always fit 2 have fun, yet never to work, creating scenes bc they read up on what actual sufferes think..
You dont know my story. Im still standing. Against many odds
hand drawn digital painting, of my hand and upper arm, reaching out off dark and electric blue rimbed brush work, releasing some kind of star dust. The Star dust shapes into a claddagh ring, mirroring the one I always wear. The arm is ensnared by branches. Entire artwork is blue-ish, and a bit dark.
August 12, 2025 at 10:03 AM
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And well off people. Is this not one of our major issues in this world? Them vs Us? Will we ever learn and fix that...
TRaditional painting I did for my friends Ruta's friend "The Peace Dragon Project" project, Showing a large dragon eye, pupil reflecting planet earth as seen from Space. Purple-Pink background with a full moon in the upper right. Text in lower right to center says "NO person is either good OR bad, by religion, nation, color of skin, sex and sexual orientation, disability and else only. Until we grasp how we ALL are "individually-similar", we will never have total peace. Traditional painting, hand drawn, no ai. Back then I had no own computer, could not afford one, and therefore my painting got seen, yet interest lost quickly, as I was unable to "keep up" with what most people did then already... I am always too late or too early.
August 11, 2025 at 5:56 PM
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4/ criterias in their education or media wise. The answer was ALWAYS "No". Which is absurd, given that 80% of us do live in western poverty, often inspite working..).

Back 2 topic: Nonetheless I wonder how they manage to adapt like every month or two?? Do the apps get updated on such matters??
Digital painting I did some years ago of me and my supportworker no 2 (have three, as social jobs are payed poorly, they all work professionally in the field since ages and share helping me as extra income. Big mouthing Germany...). The painting is very dark, matching my situation, SORRY, I am OK, just need to let it out sometimes too, and that was reflected in this painting). It shows myself on the left, short and bigger, wearing deep purple clothings, and her on the left, wearing blueshing shirt and jeans. Being all tall and skinny. We must be one sight for the gods, I swear... Both of us look at each other, smiling. Behind us is a red glow of spooky something, and around us dark branches with glowing red dots and tips in them. Tim Burton Style, hand drawn, no ai.
August 11, 2025 at 5:45 PM
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AutismStory! Some thinx stressing me:

Changing products. WHY? So often too!
What abt old PPL, PPL w impaired vision, stressed parents hasting through stores.. am sure they too would appreciate some "stability".

Or this! New packaging = my 🧠=👀

Took me 2years 2share

#Photo #autism #shopping
Photography of one and the same product in different packaging. Its milk, in tiny portions, as I do not need much and can not bear much of it either. No energy to see a doc to have this checked out, am glad if I manage getting to my GP and Psychiatrist and AutismDoc, thank you very much... yeah, I know, I should have checked it out, but it has always been that way, I have my ideas and get them confirmed by experiences too, and it does not matter, not it my case. Don't trust people who claim fatique and alike everytime they are expected to do something, but are always fit and running for fun or chasing overworked med staff for they have paranoia and are hypochondric. NOT referring to missunderstood patienst, I was one of them for ages. They lay in ten-piece packs on my handpainted old table, a cute (purchased, not painted by me) cat Mini plate above them.
August 11, 2025 at 12:15 PM
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I painted a Bowie. Am painting more. So satisfying.
#traditionalart #traditionalpainting #DavidBowie
Vertical traditional painting, lying on simple wrapping paper I use to work on (on all fours, my condition, Autism and all, does not allow me working on an easel or table, I tried, many times. I am a work animal after all...). Inspired by "The Hunger", my first David Bowie movie, which made me wanna draw him immediatly. Which was new, back then in 1993, as I refused doing humans before. Even my first human, Christopher lee. Simpyl couldn't, wouldn't. plus some great old Black and white photographs of the man, I tried melting it all into each other with the colors of their love scene. David Bowie Forever. On top my utensils are visible, on bottom the black cap of my camera, on the paintings left one of my vegan brushes. I work vegan since over twenty years, once one saw how brushes are made, where from and such, one can no longer use them.
August 10, 2025 at 6:28 PM