I got a pishock, and a viewer helped code software to trigger the collar on specific words... it was a hassle to set up, but works surprisingly well.

And thank you. I don't imagine things are getting better anytime soon, but I'm surprisingly still alive somehow.

Shoutout to 3 am AE for forgetting how to spell "weirdo"

Next morning, and it's even worse. Might be forced to stay home and/or seek medical attention.

I wasn't prepared for trading today, gonna make some tonight for day 2.

I'm trying really fucking hard.

I can't do this anymore. I'm not okay, and I can't do anything about it. I'm tired and hurt and scared and I'm so fucking sorry.

I'm trying to

Crawling out of my nest to cook pasta in 3 layers just to brave the cold of the dreaded Hallway