My medical advice for OCD is to Go On A Walk

for years i told myself that transitioning then probably wouldn't have helped me anyway, i had other problems, it was too much to ask for, i might have wound up confused about whether i was making the right choice. but fuck all of that. trans healthcare for everyone, now and forever.

None of ur business!!!

It didn’t feel scary at the time because how I was living felt scarier. I think I feel that way now about oophorecotmy too. It’s an attempt to survive

I could have soaked both in vinegar but I was sick and didn’t really have time to do that or figure out a way to carry them. I also threw out a couple hundred dollars worth of shoes and several hundred dollars worth of books. It made me very sad and very averse to buying things for years

*infected

I also had a bunch of foreign money my parents left under my pillow from the “tooth fairy” and I left that on the speaker podium in the classroom because it wasn’t injected with mold I just didn’t have a way to carry it. The quilt and the stuffed rabbit went in the bin

I left them in a trash can on the 5th floor of major Williams hall which is where I led the first section of the class I taught on campus and would study at night because it stayed unlocked. My roommate drove me to campus around midnight and I stayed up there til the bus got there at 5am

Honestly idk how I was supposed to get out of Blacksburg with most of my stuff and no car. So like whatever. I wish I still had my childhood journals and a favorite stuff animal/quilt but such is life

I was also violently depressed and sleeping on a mattress on the floor for almost 2 months. So that’s a total of more than 3 months without a bedframe

I was paying rent just not to a landlord haha

My friend offered me her couch so I tossed my 4 years of accumulated stuff and moved to Fairfax for 3 weeks before moving to Richmond. It took me about 6 weeks once I was there to get a job, I got by with help from a different friends mom, an ex boyfriend, not being on a lease, and having foodstamps

That period ended very scary I was quite sick and had to move out of my apartment into an unfurnished sublet (carpet, heated, I got a sleeping bag eventually, roommate was a very chill Iranian cadet member student bus driver on winter break) and almost moved back in with my parents

I watched ATLA through twice during the 1-2 months I was quarantined. For the first time, I didn’t see it as a kid! Helped me get through those months I think partially bc it pulled some littles forward to deal with the brunt of it

It’s this one. Can also calm me down when I’m overstimulated. Both/and sort of situation