well hello hi I was dormant for freaking years and then I just woke up and kinda became a host, what the actual f??? haha

*okey it’s more complicated but this way sounds much funnier*

Sorry, just trying to understand how to live this life now lol

— Steve

#did #didsky #pluralsky

we are medicated & on grt and haven’t had strong depressive episodes for quite a while (last was around December 2024)

I hold most depressive symptoms and am able to cope and walk us through this, but I’m not social so it’s very hard for me to mask (+ I really don’t care haha)

2/2

— Ray. 🖤

for no reason woke up extremely tired, blended and feeling down. It sucks because we have to get up and go to the meeting with our social worker and a new guide.

We slept well, even cleaned up the apartment in the evening, knowing it makes us feel better today, but nah, fucking roulette lol 🤦🏻

Every time I want to blog I think about it for weeks, get myself ready, set all up… just to forget about it completely for a while and then feel stupid and insecure to continue 🙃

#didcommunity #pluralsky

I really try to understand the logic in switches and sometimes I succeed, but another time it looks like random.

What’s the point put me, insecure teen with social anxiety, front during the work?

So many questions, so little answers.

— Matt ❤️‍🩹

I hate having a phobia so fucking much! I know this is all just in my head but every time I see it I freak out, my mind starts spiraling, the body feels stiff and it’s hard to move. Fucking panic covers me all over and I can’t stay rational. I understand everything but just can’t resist.

— Matt ❤️‍🩹

Today wasn’t an easy day for us.

After the meeting w/social worker we spent 2h searching for our psy medication. Finally found it in one pharmacy but in a different dosage and they gave only one pack. Better than nothing though 🫠

Good night y’all 🩷

— Tommy (he/they)

#didcommunity

This is so stupid. I know logically that these strange noises were from neighbors or so, but I was so scared that someone got into our apt., it’s dark and I’m alone here.

I just freezes, couldn’t move, heard like cough, steps, movements… My kitten came, laid across the chest and purred ❤️‍🩹

— Matt

First time today had a proper conversation with Bar as myself.

I can’t really feel joy or so, but I’m really grateful, because most of the time I feel isolated both outside and inside haha

First time I felt seen, thank you for this 🖤

— Ray

I think one of my main problems — lack of motivation.

I have dysthymia, so I’m always lowkey depressed. I don’t suffer all the time, usually it’s bearable, but everything seems pointless and I don’t have a wish to do something really… Anyway I’m trying to do at least minimum we need.

— Ray