Abyss Wood
@abyss--wood.bsky.social
We are a system, this blog is just a part of our regular journaling and our journey that we are willing to share. 🔞
Autistic and nonbinary as a whole 🏳️🌈 🏳️⚧️
(they/them collectively)
pls be kind 🌱
#didcommunity #did #pluralsky #didsky
Autistic and nonbinary as a whole 🏳️🌈 🏳️⚧️
(they/them collectively)
pls be kind 🌱
#didcommunity #did #pluralsky #didsky
well hello hi I was dormant for freaking years and then I just woke up and kinda became a host, what the actual f??? haha
*okey it’s more complicated but this way sounds much funnier*
Sorry, just trying to understand how to live this life now lol
— Steve
#did #didsky #pluralsky
*okey it’s more complicated but this way sounds much funnier*
Sorry, just trying to understand how to live this life now lol
— Steve
#did #didsky #pluralsky
April 7, 2025 at 7:17 AM
well hello hi I was dormant for freaking years and then I just woke up and kinda became a host, what the actual f??? haha
*okey it’s more complicated but this way sounds much funnier*
Sorry, just trying to understand how to live this life now lol
— Steve
#did #didsky #pluralsky
*okey it’s more complicated but this way sounds much funnier*
Sorry, just trying to understand how to live this life now lol
— Steve
#did #didsky #pluralsky
wanted to capture this moment: it’s so rare when I feel completely calm & content, especially while we are at work/around other people.
It was really rough week: major breakdown, lots of pressure, total dysregulation… but my partner and our support system helped a lot and I appreciate it so much
🧡
It was really rough week: major breakdown, lots of pressure, total dysregulation… but my partner and our support system helped a lot and I appreciate it so much
🧡
April 3, 2025 at 9:26 AM
wanted to capture this moment: it’s so rare when I feel completely calm & content, especially while we are at work/around other people.
It was really rough week: major breakdown, lots of pressure, total dysregulation… but my partner and our support system helped a lot and I appreciate it so much
🧡
It was really rough week: major breakdown, lots of pressure, total dysregulation… but my partner and our support system helped a lot and I appreciate it so much
🧡
third day in a row I’m here (not only me fortunately, or I’d die haha) and now I feel more stable and grounded in the body.
pros: more clear mind and we aren’t fucking soup
cons: everything else lol
//for the context: we have bipolar and I almost only present during depressive episodes//
1/2
pros: more clear mind and we aren’t fucking soup
cons: everything else lol
//for the context: we have bipolar and I almost only present during depressive episodes//
1/2
March 28, 2025 at 7:42 AM
third day in a row I’m here (not only me fortunately, or I’d die haha) and now I feel more stable and grounded in the body.
pros: more clear mind and we aren’t fucking soup
cons: everything else lol
//for the context: we have bipolar and I almost only present during depressive episodes//
1/2
pros: more clear mind and we aren’t fucking soup
cons: everything else lol
//for the context: we have bipolar and I almost only present during depressive episodes//
1/2
for no reason woke up extremely tired, blended and feeling down. It sucks because we have to get up and go to the meeting with our social worker and a new guide.
We slept well, even cleaned up the apartment in the evening, knowing it makes us feel better today, but nah, fucking roulette lol 🤦🏻
We slept well, even cleaned up the apartment in the evening, knowing it makes us feel better today, but nah, fucking roulette lol 🤦🏻
March 26, 2025 at 8:47 AM
for no reason woke up extremely tired, blended and feeling down. It sucks because we have to get up and go to the meeting with our social worker and a new guide.
We slept well, even cleaned up the apartment in the evening, knowing it makes us feel better today, but nah, fucking roulette lol 🤦🏻
We slept well, even cleaned up the apartment in the evening, knowing it makes us feel better today, but nah, fucking roulette lol 🤦🏻
have no idea why I’m here today. we started feeling low from yesterday evening or so, also had a very distressing dream about betrayal.
now at work, luckily doing almost nothing, but there are still ppl and coworkers around and it’s hard to pretend that I give a shit or act
nice
1/2
now at work, luckily doing almost nothing, but there are still ppl and coworkers around and it’s hard to pretend that I give a shit or act
nice
1/2
March 19, 2025 at 9:22 AM
have no idea why I’m here today. we started feeling low from yesterday evening or so, also had a very distressing dream about betrayal.
now at work, luckily doing almost nothing, but there are still ppl and coworkers around and it’s hard to pretend that I give a shit or act
nice
1/2
now at work, luckily doing almost nothing, but there are still ppl and coworkers around and it’s hard to pretend that I give a shit or act
nice
1/2
Really without planning anything we ended up in the nice restaurant with our partner and a friend, after the dinner we decided to drive down the cinema and now will watch the movie! I’m so excited 😄
#Ellie #didsky #didcommunity
#Ellie #didsky #didcommunity
March 14, 2025 at 7:48 PM
Really without planning anything we ended up in the nice restaurant with our partner and a friend, after the dinner we decided to drive down the cinema and now will watch the movie! I’m so excited 😄
#Ellie #didsky #didcommunity
#Ellie #didsky #didcommunity
Does anyone else always forget about the hobbies they wanted to take up and the things they wanted to buy?
I wonder how much of this is from amnesia, and how much from the mindset of “not wasting money”, "there is nothing of yours here" and imposed shame? 😂
#did #didcommunity #pluralsky #didsky
I wonder how much of this is from amnesia, and how much from the mindset of “not wasting money”, "there is nothing of yours here" and imposed shame? 😂
#did #didcommunity #pluralsky #didsky
March 9, 2025 at 9:40 AM
Does anyone else always forget about the hobbies they wanted to take up and the things they wanted to buy?
I wonder how much of this is from amnesia, and how much from the mindset of “not wasting money”, "there is nothing of yours here" and imposed shame? 😂
#did #didcommunity #pluralsky #didsky
I wonder how much of this is from amnesia, and how much from the mindset of “not wasting money”, "there is nothing of yours here" and imposed shame? 😂
#did #didcommunity #pluralsky #didsky
Every time I want to blog I think about it for weeks, get myself ready, set all up… just to forget about it completely for a while and then feel stupid and insecure to continue 🙃
#didcommunity #pluralsky
#didcommunity #pluralsky
March 2, 2025 at 8:04 AM
Every time I want to blog I think about it for weeks, get myself ready, set all up… just to forget about it completely for a while and then feel stupid and insecure to continue 🙃
#didcommunity #pluralsky
#didcommunity #pluralsky
I really try to understand the logic in switches and sometimes I succeed, but another time it looks like random.
What’s the point put me, insecure teen with social anxiety, front during the work?
So many questions, so little answers.
— Matt ❤️🩹
What’s the point put me, insecure teen with social anxiety, front during the work?
So many questions, so little answers.
— Matt ❤️🩹
February 23, 2025 at 8:31 AM
I really try to understand the logic in switches and sometimes I succeed, but another time it looks like random.
What’s the point put me, insecure teen with social anxiety, front during the work?
So many questions, so little answers.
— Matt ❤️🩹
What’s the point put me, insecure teen with social anxiety, front during the work?
So many questions, so little answers.
— Matt ❤️🩹
I hate having a phobia so fucking much! I know this is all just in my head but every time I see it I freak out, my mind starts spiraling, the body feels stiff and it’s hard to move. Fucking panic covers me all over and I can’t stay rational. I understand everything but just can’t resist.
— Matt ❤️🩹
— Matt ❤️🩹
February 20, 2025 at 12:39 PM
I hate having a phobia so fucking much! I know this is all just in my head but every time I see it I freak out, my mind starts spiraling, the body feels stiff and it’s hard to move. Fucking panic covers me all over and I can’t stay rational. I understand everything but just can’t resist.
— Matt ❤️🩹
— Matt ❤️🩹
Today wasn’t an easy day for us.
After the meeting w/social worker we spent 2h searching for our psy medication. Finally found it in one pharmacy but in a different dosage and they gave only one pack. Better than nothing though 🫠
Good night y’all 🩷
— Tommy (he/they)
#didcommunity
After the meeting w/social worker we spent 2h searching for our psy medication. Finally found it in one pharmacy but in a different dosage and they gave only one pack. Better than nothing though 🫠
Good night y’all 🩷
— Tommy (he/they)
#didcommunity
February 19, 2025 at 11:51 PM
Today wasn’t an easy day for us.
After the meeting w/social worker we spent 2h searching for our psy medication. Finally found it in one pharmacy but in a different dosage and they gave only one pack. Better than nothing though 🫠
Good night y’all 🩷
— Tommy (he/they)
#didcommunity
After the meeting w/social worker we spent 2h searching for our psy medication. Finally found it in one pharmacy but in a different dosage and they gave only one pack. Better than nothing though 🫠
Good night y’all 🩷
— Tommy (he/they)
#didcommunity
Another interesting dream with a completely different vibe, after awakening we immediately got whose it was.
Maybe we should write down them in our diary, because it’s too personal to post online.
— Matt ❤️🩹
Maybe we should write down them in our diary, because it’s too personal to post online.
— Matt ❤️🩹
February 16, 2025 at 7:56 AM
Another interesting dream with a completely different vibe, after awakening we immediately got whose it was.
Maybe we should write down them in our diary, because it’s too personal to post online.
— Matt ❤️🩹
Maybe we should write down them in our diary, because it’s too personal to post online.
— Matt ❤️🩹
First time I so obviously and vividly saw the dream as myself.
How I acted there, what has happened during the dream, substance abuse and even the fact that I saw our partner as a bro/friend. I also woke up as myself.
Really cool experience and hopefully a progress.
— Soren (prev. Slay) 🧡
How I acted there, what has happened during the dream, substance abuse and even the fact that I saw our partner as a bro/friend. I also woke up as myself.
Really cool experience and hopefully a progress.
— Soren (prev. Slay) 🧡
February 15, 2025 at 12:54 PM
First time I so obviously and vividly saw the dream as myself.
How I acted there, what has happened during the dream, substance abuse and even the fact that I saw our partner as a bro/friend. I also woke up as myself.
Really cool experience and hopefully a progress.
— Soren (prev. Slay) 🧡
How I acted there, what has happened during the dream, substance abuse and even the fact that I saw our partner as a bro/friend. I also woke up as myself.
Really cool experience and hopefully a progress.
— Soren (prev. Slay) 🧡
So strange to be here in these circumstances, man! (celebration/party at work)
Our night dreams were most likely Ash’s. In the morning probably we were together and for the rest of the day so far — me (although Ash feels close).
bf saved us with earplugs, only 2 hours to survive 😁
— Yen 💛
Our night dreams were most likely Ash’s. In the morning probably we were together and for the rest of the day so far — me (although Ash feels close).
bf saved us with earplugs, only 2 hours to survive 😁
— Yen 💛
February 13, 2025 at 3:26 PM
So strange to be here in these circumstances, man! (celebration/party at work)
Our night dreams were most likely Ash’s. In the morning probably we were together and for the rest of the day so far — me (although Ash feels close).
bf saved us with earplugs, only 2 hours to survive 😁
— Yen 💛
Our night dreams were most likely Ash’s. In the morning probably we were together and for the rest of the day so far — me (although Ash feels close).
bf saved us with earplugs, only 2 hours to survive 😁
— Yen 💛
This is so stupid. I know logically that these strange noises were from neighbors or so, but I was so scared that someone got into our apt., it’s dark and I’m alone here.
I just freezes, couldn’t move, heard like cough, steps, movements… My kitten came, laid across the chest and purred ❤️🩹
— Matt
I just freezes, couldn’t move, heard like cough, steps, movements… My kitten came, laid across the chest and purred ❤️🩹
— Matt
February 12, 2025 at 7:30 PM
This is so stupid. I know logically that these strange noises were from neighbors or so, but I was so scared that someone got into our apt., it’s dark and I’m alone here.
I just freezes, couldn’t move, heard like cough, steps, movements… My kitten came, laid across the chest and purred ❤️🩹
— Matt
I just freezes, couldn’t move, heard like cough, steps, movements… My kitten came, laid across the chest and purred ❤️🩹
— Matt
First time today had a proper conversation with Bar as myself.
I can’t really feel joy or so, but I’m really grateful, because most of the time I feel isolated both outside and inside haha
First time I felt seen, thank you for this 🖤
— Ray
I can’t really feel joy or so, but I’m really grateful, because most of the time I feel isolated both outside and inside haha
First time I felt seen, thank you for this 🖤
— Ray
February 10, 2025 at 9:27 PM
First time today had a proper conversation with Bar as myself.
I can’t really feel joy or so, but I’m really grateful, because most of the time I feel isolated both outside and inside haha
First time I felt seen, thank you for this 🖤
— Ray
I can’t really feel joy or so, but I’m really grateful, because most of the time I feel isolated both outside and inside haha
First time I felt seen, thank you for this 🖤
— Ray
So cold and boring at work that I literally almost falling asleep 💤
Started to read a real book (nothing new in my tg channels lol), it’s again about addiction and people living (and dying) in this.
I want to change my name and always forget about it when I’m here 😂
— Slay (he/him) 🧡
Started to read a real book (nothing new in my tg channels lol), it’s again about addiction and people living (and dying) in this.
I want to change my name and always forget about it when I’m here 😂
— Slay (he/him) 🧡
February 9, 2025 at 9:23 AM
So cold and boring at work that I literally almost falling asleep 💤
Started to read a real book (nothing new in my tg channels lol), it’s again about addiction and people living (and dying) in this.
I want to change my name and always forget about it when I’m here 😂
— Slay (he/him) 🧡
Started to read a real book (nothing new in my tg channels lol), it’s again about addiction and people living (and dying) in this.
I want to change my name and always forget about it when I’m here 😂
— Slay (he/him) 🧡
I hate always having anxiety, pain in the chest and all those intrusive thoughts that fucks up my brain and on top of it the feeling of abandonment 👌🏻
— Matt (he/him) ❤️🩹
— Matt (he/him) ❤️🩹
February 7, 2025 at 5:49 PM
I hate always having anxiety, pain in the chest and all those intrusive thoughts that fucks up my brain and on top of it the feeling of abandonment 👌🏻
— Matt (he/him) ❤️🩹
— Matt (he/him) ❤️🩹
Fortunately we feel better now, also yesterday I paid attention that I always (?) present during our morning/evening routine.
— Ash
— Ash
February 7, 2025 at 10:50 AM
Fortunately we feel better now, also yesterday I paid attention that I always (?) present during our morning/evening routine.
— Ash
— Ash
I think one of my main problems — lack of motivation.
I have dysthymia, so I’m always lowkey depressed. I don’t suffer all the time, usually it’s bearable, but everything seems pointless and I don’t have a wish to do something really… Anyway I’m trying to do at least minimum we need.
— Ray
I have dysthymia, so I’m always lowkey depressed. I don’t suffer all the time, usually it’s bearable, but everything seems pointless and I don’t have a wish to do something really… Anyway I’m trying to do at least minimum we need.
— Ray
February 5, 2025 at 9:05 AM
I think one of my main problems — lack of motivation.
I have dysthymia, so I’m always lowkey depressed. I don’t suffer all the time, usually it’s bearable, but everything seems pointless and I don’t have a wish to do something really… Anyway I’m trying to do at least minimum we need.
— Ray
I have dysthymia, so I’m always lowkey depressed. I don’t suffer all the time, usually it’s bearable, but everything seems pointless and I don’t have a wish to do something really… Anyway I’m trying to do at least minimum we need.
— Ray
We just finished another meeting with the psychologist regarding the process of psychodiagnostics.
We had to make a story looking to the specific pictures he gave us and that hit hard. We didn’t see nothing good or at least promising — total hopelessness. Now we feel empty and sad.
— Ray
We had to make a story looking to the specific pictures he gave us and that hit hard. We didn’t see nothing good or at least promising — total hopelessness. Now we feel empty and sad.
— Ray
February 4, 2025 at 4:01 PM
We just finished another meeting with the psychologist regarding the process of psychodiagnostics.
We had to make a story looking to the specific pictures he gave us and that hit hard. We didn’t see nothing good or at least promising — total hopelessness. Now we feel empty and sad.
— Ray
We had to make a story looking to the specific pictures he gave us and that hit hard. We didn’t see nothing good or at least promising — total hopelessness. Now we feel empty and sad.
— Ray
It’s a nighttime, we just finished another episode of “the Boys”, we like it but it triggers the shit out of us
One of the main characters works like a positive trigger to our physical protector, so we constantly need to ground and remember that we are safe haha
— Ray
One of the main characters works like a positive trigger to our physical protector, so we constantly need to ground and remember that we are safe haha
— Ray
February 3, 2025 at 10:17 PM
It’s a nighttime, we just finished another episode of “the Boys”, we like it but it triggers the shit out of us
One of the main characters works like a positive trigger to our physical protector, so we constantly need to ground and remember that we are safe haha
— Ray
One of the main characters works like a positive trigger to our physical protector, so we constantly need to ground and remember that we are safe haha
— Ray
My mood rn haha
— Ray
— Ray
Happiness Is Overrated
Letdown. · Happiness Is Overrated · Song · 2023
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February 3, 2025 at 1:18 PM
My mood rn haha
— Ray
— Ray
fuck, accidentally deleted all what I wrote 🤦🏻♂️
this weekend was really good but intense so now we are in an emotional drop and here am I 💀
I wasn’t here for quite a while cause I happened to present only in depressive states and this sucks.
— Ray (he/they) 🖤
this weekend was really good but intense so now we are in an emotional drop and here am I 💀
I wasn’t here for quite a while cause I happened to present only in depressive states and this sucks.
— Ray (he/they) 🖤
February 3, 2025 at 12:45 PM
fuck, accidentally deleted all what I wrote 🤦🏻♂️
this weekend was really good but intense so now we are in an emotional drop and here am I 💀
I wasn’t here for quite a while cause I happened to present only in depressive states and this sucks.
— Ray (he/they) 🖤
this weekend was really good but intense so now we are in an emotional drop and here am I 💀
I wasn’t here for quite a while cause I happened to present only in depressive states and this sucks.
— Ray (he/they) 🖤
wow, I thought it would be much less stressful to go online 😅
well, it took us an hour to create this so hope that tomorrow it won’t be already deleted haha
— Ash (she/they) 💚
well, it took us an hour to create this so hope that tomorrow it won’t be already deleted haha
— Ash (she/they) 💚
February 3, 2025 at 12:08 PM
wow, I thought it would be much less stressful to go online 😅
well, it took us an hour to create this so hope that tomorrow it won’t be already deleted haha
— Ash (she/they) 💚
well, it took us an hour to create this so hope that tomorrow it won’t be already deleted haha
— Ash (she/they) 💚