It took me several months to sit with the weight of this before disclosing, but I do not feel right going through this experience and not at least trying to warn others. He is a danger to the community and he should be treated as such.

He is roughly 5'10, dark hair, rectangle glasses, no tattoos and regularly wears very nondescript grey bloc clothing. He has a pattern of targeting non binary femme presenting people in anarchist spaces.

He knows what to say to sound "reformed" but his actions speak for themselves. If you see him around Portland I'd highly recommend kicking him out of any community spaces.

So if you ever hear him do that with me know that material support does not change rape and he cannot buy his way out of the things he did. I hope he chokes on glass.

But I have heard him point to material support he continued to provide to people he hurt in a way that felt like they were ungrateful or he should have "earned" forgiveness.

For full transparency - he did continue to materially help after our relationship ended, and I told him to stop as soon as I was stable enough to not need that assistance anymore. That help was only needed because of how abruptly his lack of communication imploded with no warning.

The extent of any accountability I received for this was an "I'm sorry that you feel I broke your consent", which is clearly not an apology or accountability.

He became a rapist as a teenager and his own selfishness and refusal to communicate led to him reinforcing the title as an adult. He did not take any accountability for this and I'm unwilling to interact with him enough for him to try to now.

Regardless of intent his carelessness resulted in me feeling completely and disgustingly violated. It is a huge part of why I have dropped out of basically everything.

He withheld crucial information and broke boundaries he set for himself, later informing me he never had any intention of holding them.

He knowingly withheld multiple pieces of information he knew would cause me to revoke consent. For someone who "holds themselves to such a high standard" on informed consent by disclosing his previous rape he didn't learn the lessons he needed to in order to not do it again.

JP should be removed from all community events and projects. He has said he will step back, I do not know what his definition of that is. He violated my consent at the end of our relationship and I'm done being silent about it.

I've hesitated to disclose this because it's very personal. But I do think that people should know - as a matter of community safety.