T, i probably complained to you too much that it affected your mental health im sorry about that

though, even to this day, i feel horrible about that.

maybe because i feel horrible about it that i bottle up almost everything instead

my mom telling me, "it's all in the mind" and it is, i dont know what to do about it. i feel incapable of feeling happy, i practiced gratitude, i journaled, i meditated, i took meds for it

nothing seems to work, i still feel fucking horrible and i can't think out of it

the doctor became super serious and it kind of felt like i was about to jump and they were talking me out of it?? we had an unsolicited therapy session in general.

i dont know how to feel about getting talked out of my mental health issues it's like