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@youralaskanbf.bsky.social
36, they/he, yup’ik/sugpiaq, recovering internet user. 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️🪶🍉♑️🧩🎵🎮🚗 sober words, high thoughts, and filtered selfies. 🔞
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punishing myself for someone else’s behavior? i don’t do anything. i don’t talk to anyone. i buy fast food for dinner, i watch my youtube shows, get high, and beat off until i fall asleep. what’s wrong with that?
December 2, 2025 at 8:18 AM
punishing myself for someone else’s behavior? i don’t do anything. i don’t talk to anyone. i buy fast food for dinner, i watch my youtube shows, get high, and beat off until i fall asleep. what’s wrong with that?
kinda living like a [citizen of insert large city name here] the way i get a week’s worth of groceries at a time from a store within walking distance of the <200sf space i live in with a shared bathroom and common kitchen and living areas. is that just having roommates?
November 29, 2025 at 2:05 AM
kinda living like a [citizen of insert large city name here] the way i get a week’s worth of groceries at a time from a store within walking distance of the <200sf space i live in with a shared bathroom and common kitchen and living areas. is that just having roommates?
was there a wicked witch of the south
November 27, 2025 at 6:05 AM
was there a wicked witch of the south
watching three screens and actively sitting on a personal massager (while eating a crunchwrap, mind you) and cracking myself up at how i sexted someone once + they said “spit on me” to which all i said back was “ptoo”
November 27, 2025 at 5:34 AM
watching three screens and actively sitting on a personal massager (while eating a crunchwrap, mind you) and cracking myself up at how i sexted someone once + they said “spit on me” to which all i said back was “ptoo”
just finished that taco bell mexican pizza just when i was starting to enjoy it 🥲 (the pen hit back)
November 27, 2025 at 4:47 AM
just finished that taco bell mexican pizza just when i was starting to enjoy it 🥲 (the pen hit back)
posing with my new 🍃 battery (and realizing i took three hits trying to pose with my new battery)
November 26, 2025 at 4:47 AM
posing with my new 🍃 battery (and realizing i took three hits trying to pose with my new battery)
remember when i had a positive opinion of myself? probably won’t ever again
November 25, 2025 at 1:07 AM
remember when i had a positive opinion of myself? probably won’t ever again
setting up my CPAP machine. i’m officially entering my bear era
November 20, 2025 at 2:22 AM
setting up my CPAP machine. i’m officially entering my bear era
“i already bought an item in this ad” seems to be the only way to get specific ads to stop appearing on ig 🤔
November 20, 2025 at 2:16 AM
“i already bought an item in this ad” seems to be the only way to get specific ads to stop appearing on ig 🤔
tearing up at work thinking about live performances of the 1812 overture where the audience gets to play the cannon parts by inflating and bursting paper bags
November 18, 2025 at 9:25 PM
tearing up at work thinking about live performances of the 1812 overture where the audience gets to play the cannon parts by inflating and bursting paper bags
permanently embarrassed by celebrity crushes because if i repost or even mention them, i get responses like “who tf is that” and “ew, really”
November 18, 2025 at 6:02 PM
permanently embarrassed by celebrity crushes because if i repost or even mention them, i get responses like “who tf is that” and “ew, really”
can’t dissociate my way out of this one, i’m afraid
November 17, 2025 at 1:57 PM
can’t dissociate my way out of this one, i’m afraid
“are you this quiet and withdrawn from all of your friends or am i just special” well yes i am, actually. i literally do not talk to anyone
November 17, 2025 at 2:18 AM
“are you this quiet and withdrawn from all of your friends or am i just special” well yes i am, actually. i literally do not talk to anyone
this is my first viewing of brokeback mountain and i know it’s supposed to be a devastating movie. i want to take it seriously. but it’s also been memed all to hell. right?? granted it’s only 20 minutes in
November 15, 2025 at 4:26 AM
this is my first viewing of brokeback mountain and i know it’s supposed to be a devastating movie. i want to take it seriously. but it’s also been memed all to hell. right?? granted it’s only 20 minutes in
next clothing item i wanna buy is a shirt that says “superwholock” and nothing else
November 15, 2025 at 1:49 AM
next clothing item i wanna buy is a shirt that says “superwholock” and nothing else
can’t wait to see my dogs again (i’m at work for another half an hour)
November 14, 2025 at 11:26 PM
can’t wait to see my dogs again (i’m at work for another half an hour)
fully embracing whatever this latest version of windows for business is and not-changing default body text from Aptos. rest in piss, Calibri, i guess
November 14, 2025 at 10:47 PM
fully embracing whatever this latest version of windows for business is and not-changing default body text from Aptos. rest in piss, Calibri, i guess
still can’t get a read on whether andr*wsky is 🌈 fam or not. not that it makes a difference either way because i’m a nobody on the other side of the planet, but i still like to know
November 14, 2025 at 9:23 PM
still can’t get a read on whether andr*wsky is 🌈 fam or not. not that it makes a difference either way because i’m a nobody on the other side of the planet, but i still like to know
i’m actually scared as hell that i’m starting over in dating. scared and frankly embarrassed that i’m here again.
November 14, 2025 at 3:26 PM
i’m actually scared as hell that i’m starting over in dating. scared and frankly embarrassed that i’m here again.
just reached for the 💦 rag and my hand looked exactly like that kim petras album cover
November 14, 2025 at 7:39 AM
just reached for the 💦 rag and my hand looked exactly like that kim petras album cover
thigh high faux fur boots are hot and sexy in theory but look like mascot legs or mr. tumnus pants 🤦🏻♂️
November 14, 2025 at 4:58 AM
thigh high faux fur boots are hot and sexy in theory but look like mascot legs or mr. tumnus pants 🤦🏻♂️
i think a double feature is in order. the saddest, gayest double feature ever.
November 14, 2025 at 4:33 AM
i think a double feature is in order. the saddest, gayest double feature ever.
kinda fucked that all it takes to “fix” me is a pen rip and catching up on my youtube shows 🤦🏻♂️
November 6, 2025 at 9:43 PM
kinda fucked that all it takes to “fix” me is a pen rip and catching up on my youtube shows 🤦🏻♂️
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Trying out new brushes
(That I made myself!)
(That I made myself!)
November 5, 2025 at 5:03 PM
Trying out new brushes
(That I made myself!)
(That I made myself!)
next time anyone in my family brings up how my older brother was an “easy baby” and “tricked our parents” into having me, i’m gonna remind them that they chose to have me. i didn’t!
November 5, 2025 at 4:34 AM
next time anyone in my family brings up how my older brother was an “easy baby” and “tricked our parents” into having me, i’m gonna remind them that they chose to have me. i didn’t!