I am ultimately mentalluy a child living as an adult. its so exhausting and miserable and I hate my entire life so incredibly much all the time. Im constantly exhausted and overexerted and overwhelmed. I wonder if life will literally ever improve for me like at all

I dont believe anyone is "human" in the base definition anymore - that would imply a sense of understanding and cognition, and, well, humanity. How much of that is left in this world? Literally none

Humanity is overran with nothing but depraved sick animals

My new years resolution is to be as genuine and myself as possible, and stop hiding who i am so much.. it serves me nothing at all

I hate everyone in the world and i don't know how to stop

I hate being burnt out... i finished my final paper on sunday and ive finally been getting some rest, and i am so bone dead tired i feel almost feverish 🥲 im happy to be resting, but i feel bad about my laziness

I find making friends so hard. Im no fun

I want to reach out to someone I miss - someone I drifted apart from when I was mad at everyone in the world, but apart of me is still so mad that I just don't want to bother. I mournfully go through their account every once and a while, though.

I want to be weirder and more embarrassing, yet i want to be cool at the same time - i want my weirdness to make me cool. I really hope that it does

I think ive finally accepted that im not a person, in the literal and mental sense

ive been considering using this website as like a semi-secret blog because like none of my friends use it regularly

cheap comms open! ran away from an abusive household a couple days ago so i'm gathering funds to be able to rent an apartment with my friend!! you can reach me thru DMs here or on discord at pathologicclassichd (preferred, cuz i'll see it faster)

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