I will shed the skin of this year and race forward in the next. Hopefully, I’ll be on fire this year (not literally)

Despite everything, I’m still here and not giving up. As always, I will do my best to keep going alone to pick myself up all the ground and push myself to keep going. Though I have some support, it’s really still me on my own at the end and sadly no one shares my vision.

I can’t even count the amount of times I’ve literally for help only to be met with silence or ignored. I’ve lost so many friends. I’ve had at least 200+ refused opportunities in different facets of my life. I lost nearly everything I’ve had.

I know no one is going to read and/or care about this, so I’ll speak out loud for a bit.

This was one of the worst years of my life, hitting new lows I didn’t think were possible. I’ve been to genuine rock bottom but was very close. This has also been the loneliest year

Worst part is that no one actually cares about this or how it makes me feel and will ignore this.

Once again I will have to do everything alone and hope for another year that people can and will appreciate me as a person and creator.

I genuinely tried harder than I ever have to make the 10th year of streaming a special and memorable one. Gave all my energy and sacrificed so much only for it to be statistically my worst year.

No matter how hard I try, maybe I really am just a failure at everything.

I saw it and thought of you instantly!

10 years ago, and ever since I’ve had a wishlist/bucket list of goals for streaming- both tiny and grand that I tried really hard to fulfill. At the time of this writing, only 1 out of 350+ have come true.

My biggest fear is ending things without even moving that number😔

I’m actually still the goat (on hard)

Seeing a Love Live rhythm game in the wild in 2025 is an emotional experience. Actually healed my soul a bit and brought me back to better times 🥹

I wish I wasn’t holding onto false hope, that a miracle would and could come true.

If there’s anyone out there that can give me a chance or opportunity. See me for who I am and how much value I have. See how hard I’ve worked.

Please

Find me before it’s too late

I know pretty much none of my friends/followers care about Shadowverse but I was able to get Master rank tonight. Extremely happy as I know I’ve always had it in me. Just needed to share it somewhere and feel a tiny bit proud of myself for once 🥹

KODA PLEASE

How does one Bluesky? How do I interact with people? 🤔