Sylvia
@sylviawelch.bsky.social
Diary of a perpetually tired thirty five year old.
Pinned
Sunlight still shines through broken windows.
I have an intake session at the neurodiversity clinic booked for Monday. Glad they could fit me in so soon.
December 4, 2025 at 6:56 PM
I have an intake session at the neurodiversity clinic booked for Monday. Glad they could fit me in so soon.
Finding it difficult to do anything lately. Depression is very heavy.
December 4, 2025 at 4:57 PM
Finding it difficult to do anything lately. Depression is very heavy.
Inside It All Feels The Same
December 4, 2025 at 2:27 PM
Inside It All Feels The Same
I guess it’s something that just never goes away.
December 3, 2025 at 8:19 PM
I guess it’s something that just never goes away.
I feel like my psyche has been cracked open and scrambled like an egg. More confused than ever. Is 35 too young for a mid life crisis?
December 3, 2025 at 8:13 PM
I feel like my psyche has been cracked open and scrambled like an egg. More confused than ever. Is 35 too young for a mid life crisis?
Remember Me As A Time Of Day
December 3, 2025 at 4:30 PM
Remember Me As A Time Of Day
Therapy today. Wish me luck. I need it.
December 3, 2025 at 7:40 AM
Therapy today. Wish me luck. I need it.
Nervous about seeing my therapist tomorrow. Don’t know what she’s going to say when I tell her I want to do an autism assessment. I’m worried she’s going to tell me I don’t need one or something. I dunno.
December 2, 2025 at 5:02 PM
Nervous about seeing my therapist tomorrow. Don’t know what she’s going to say when I tell her I want to do an autism assessment. I’m worried she’s going to tell me I don’t need one or something. I dunno.
Drove past the family flat we used to live in back before it was sold and my dad was still alive. So many tears. Very cathartic.
December 1, 2025 at 2:25 PM
Drove past the family flat we used to live in back before it was sold and my dad was still alive. So many tears. Very cathartic.
Therapy next week (for the first time in a while). Will be discussing my upcoming ASD assessment. I’m feeling very emotional about it.
November 30, 2025 at 7:18 PM
Therapy next week (for the first time in a while). Will be discussing my upcoming ASD assessment. I’m feeling very emotional about it.
People assume that because I’m not working right now that I’m able to rest and relax, which just isn’t true. My family is involved in an extremely traumatic criminal court case, and I’m juggling multiple chronic conditions that are triggered by stress and each other. Every single day is a struggle.
November 30, 2025 at 3:42 PM
People assume that because I’m not working right now that I’m able to rest and relax, which just isn’t true. My family is involved in an extremely traumatic criminal court case, and I’m juggling multiple chronic conditions that are triggered by stress and each other. Every single day is a struggle.
Being sober is unbearable right now.
November 30, 2025 at 2:46 PM
Being sober is unbearable right now.
Just have to accept the fact that I can’t be myself around most people.
November 30, 2025 at 10:12 AM
Just have to accept the fact that I can’t be myself around most people.
I pulled out of the plans we had today. I just can’t deal with people right now. Staying in bed.
November 30, 2025 at 8:46 AM
I pulled out of the plans we had today. I just can’t deal with people right now. Staying in bed.
Hanging on to my sobriety with both hands today.
November 29, 2025 at 5:50 PM
Hanging on to my sobriety with both hands today.
I feel so fucking depressed after being around people.
November 29, 2025 at 5:24 PM
I feel so fucking depressed after being around people.
I won’t be telling my family about my autism assessment (other than my husband) because I know they’ll just say something like “being autistic is trendy now” and “everyone thinks they’re on the spectrum”. I seriously cannot roll my eyes hard enough. I hate people.
November 29, 2025 at 4:35 PM
I won’t be telling my family about my autism assessment (other than my husband) because I know they’ll just say something like “being autistic is trendy now” and “everyone thinks they’re on the spectrum”. I seriously cannot roll my eyes hard enough. I hate people.
I am so lucky to have a husband who knows all the weird things about me and still loves and supports me.
November 29, 2025 at 4:10 PM
I am so lucky to have a husband who knows all the weird things about me and still loves and supports me.
One comment can ruin my whole day. I’m so over being so sensitive.
November 29, 2025 at 2:21 PM
One comment can ruin my whole day. I’m so over being so sensitive.
Lonely among people so I’d rather be alone.
November 29, 2025 at 10:56 AM
Lonely among people so I’d rather be alone.
The more at ease I seem when socializing the harder I’m working to appear that way. It’s all an act.
November 29, 2025 at 10:51 AM
The more at ease I seem when socializing the harder I’m working to appear that way. It’s all an act.
I can listen and talk to people better when I don’t make eye contact with them. It’s dumb that it’s considered rude.
November 29, 2025 at 10:50 AM
I can listen and talk to people better when I don’t make eye contact with them. It’s dumb that it’s considered rude.
Socialising today so of course I’m already anxious and overthinking everything.
November 29, 2025 at 10:36 AM
Socialising today so of course I’m already anxious and overthinking everything.