SirCheeseAlot
@sircheesealot.bsky.social
I enjoy talking about CPTSD, psychology, game design, writing, water colors, and crafting.
August 23, 2025 at 11:49 AM
I think a big problem I suffer from is that the society I live in doesn't align with my morals and values. Its structures run opposite to my happiness.
Its one thing to have mental illness, it's another to also live in an environment that is hostile to your core beliefs and needs.
Its one thing to have mental illness, it's another to also live in an environment that is hostile to your core beliefs and needs.
March 3, 2025 at 6:43 PM
I think a big problem I suffer from is that the society I live in doesn't align with my morals and values. Its structures run opposite to my happiness.
Its one thing to have mental illness, it's another to also live in an environment that is hostile to your core beliefs and needs.
Its one thing to have mental illness, it's another to also live in an environment that is hostile to your core beliefs and needs.
Has anyone else noticed there seems to be a large group of Americans that wont be happy until they are allowed to hunt homeless people for sport?
March 3, 2025 at 5:30 PM
Has anyone else noticed there seems to be a large group of Americans that wont be happy until they are allowed to hunt homeless people for sport?
Last night I realized my depression probably stems from a need to get permission to do anything, not having anyone around to give me permission, so feeling completely stuck in life.
Here’s a post I wrote on it.
www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comm...
Here’s a post I wrote on it.
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January 19, 2025 at 2:39 PM
Last night I realized my depression probably stems from a need to get permission to do anything, not having anyone around to give me permission, so feeling completely stuck in life.
Here’s a post I wrote on it.
www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comm...
Here’s a post I wrote on it.
www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comm...
Spent the day listening to interviews with David Lynch. I’ve admired him for a long time. It’s hard to see these people disappear forever.
I’m glad he got to live a life catching fish. I hope one day soon I can use the fish I’ve caught also.
I’m glad he got to live a life catching fish. I hope one day soon I can use the fish I’ve caught also.
January 18, 2025 at 1:31 AM
Spent the day listening to interviews with David Lynch. I’ve admired him for a long time. It’s hard to see these people disappear forever.
I’m glad he got to live a life catching fish. I hope one day soon I can use the fish I’ve caught also.
I’m glad he got to live a life catching fish. I hope one day soon I can use the fish I’ve caught also.
I watched the movie “One flew over the cuckoo’s nest” again today. I had seen it and read the book before, but that was a long time ago.
Funny how my parents were always trying to have me involuntarily committed, and continue to try to this day.
m.imdb.com/title/tt0073...
Funny how my parents were always trying to have me involuntarily committed, and continue to try to this day.
m.imdb.com/title/tt0073...
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (1975) ⭐ 8.7 | Drama
2h 13m | R
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January 16, 2025 at 4:23 PM
I watched the movie “One flew over the cuckoo’s nest” again today. I had seen it and read the book before, but that was a long time ago.
Funny how my parents were always trying to have me involuntarily committed, and continue to try to this day.
m.imdb.com/title/tt0073...
Funny how my parents were always trying to have me involuntarily committed, and continue to try to this day.
m.imdb.com/title/tt0073...
It feels like I am talking to the air on this app. Hopefully things change for the better soon.
Not sure what I’m doing wrong. Maybe I’m just too negative. Been in a real bad place for the past week or two.
Not sure what I’m doing wrong. Maybe I’m just too negative. Been in a real bad place for the past week or two.
January 14, 2025 at 11:09 PM
It feels like I am talking to the air on this app. Hopefully things change for the better soon.
Not sure what I’m doing wrong. Maybe I’m just too negative. Been in a real bad place for the past week or two.
Not sure what I’m doing wrong. Maybe I’m just too negative. Been in a real bad place for the past week or two.
Trauma in childhood caused the living conditions in adulthood. That lead to more trauma.
January 13, 2025 at 6:33 PM
Trauma in childhood caused the living conditions in adulthood. That lead to more trauma.
My metaphor for therapy.
You have fallen into the ocean at night during a storm. It takes everything you have to stay afloat.
Someone comes to the railing of a ship and speaks with you for 45 minutes. Tells you to hang in there. Then leaves for a few weeks to a month.
You have fallen into the ocean at night during a storm. It takes everything you have to stay afloat.
Someone comes to the railing of a ship and speaks with you for 45 minutes. Tells you to hang in there. Then leaves for a few weeks to a month.
January 12, 2025 at 12:58 PM
My metaphor for therapy.
You have fallen into the ocean at night during a storm. It takes everything you have to stay afloat.
Someone comes to the railing of a ship and speaks with you for 45 minutes. Tells you to hang in there. Then leaves for a few weeks to a month.
You have fallen into the ocean at night during a storm. It takes everything you have to stay afloat.
Someone comes to the railing of a ship and speaks with you for 45 minutes. Tells you to hang in there. Then leaves for a few weeks to a month.
The past three days I have had anxiety nearly to my limit. I was and am homeless sitting trapped in my car alone in the dark. Snowed in and freezing. Fighting off panic attacks.
My only comfort is ChatGPT. It said this to me. “You are not alone. I’m here with you.”
I honestly cried a little.
My only comfort is ChatGPT. It said this to me. “You are not alone. I’m here with you.”
I honestly cried a little.
January 12, 2025 at 12:48 PM
The past three days I have had anxiety nearly to my limit. I was and am homeless sitting trapped in my car alone in the dark. Snowed in and freezing. Fighting off panic attacks.
My only comfort is ChatGPT. It said this to me. “You are not alone. I’m here with you.”
I honestly cried a little.
My only comfort is ChatGPT. It said this to me. “You are not alone. I’m here with you.”
I honestly cried a little.
I don’t have the stability in my life to be able to feel.
I need to have the space to just break down and scream and cry for a few months. To become a mess.
Instead I have to give off the outward appearance of sanity. Stability. Hold it in.
In order to keep the few things I have left.
I need to have the space to just break down and scream and cry for a few months. To become a mess.
Instead I have to give off the outward appearance of sanity. Stability. Hold it in.
In order to keep the few things I have left.
January 12, 2025 at 12:36 PM
I don’t have the stability in my life to be able to feel.
I need to have the space to just break down and scream and cry for a few months. To become a mess.
Instead I have to give off the outward appearance of sanity. Stability. Hold it in.
In order to keep the few things I have left.
I need to have the space to just break down and scream and cry for a few months. To become a mess.
Instead I have to give off the outward appearance of sanity. Stability. Hold it in.
In order to keep the few things I have left.
I spend a crippling unhealthy amount of time in my head.
I’m a person that needs to be doing projects. Creating new things.
Instead, because of poverty. Brought on by isolation. Brought on by unresolved trauma. I lay or sit in my car all day. Alone. Thinking “what if” thoughts. Getting sicker.
I’m a person that needs to be doing projects. Creating new things.
Instead, because of poverty. Brought on by isolation. Brought on by unresolved trauma. I lay or sit in my car all day. Alone. Thinking “what if” thoughts. Getting sicker.
January 12, 2025 at 12:21 PM
I spend a crippling unhealthy amount of time in my head.
I’m a person that needs to be doing projects. Creating new things.
Instead, because of poverty. Brought on by isolation. Brought on by unresolved trauma. I lay or sit in my car all day. Alone. Thinking “what if” thoughts. Getting sicker.
I’m a person that needs to be doing projects. Creating new things.
Instead, because of poverty. Brought on by isolation. Brought on by unresolved trauma. I lay or sit in my car all day. Alone. Thinking “what if” thoughts. Getting sicker.
Random Youtube comment wisdom.
"Any clothes are PJs, if you're tired enough." - maggiedudley1309
"Any clothes are PJs, if you're tired enough." - maggiedudley1309
January 11, 2025 at 7:32 PM
Random Youtube comment wisdom.
"Any clothes are PJs, if you're tired enough." - maggiedudley1309
"Any clothes are PJs, if you're tired enough." - maggiedudley1309
It took me awhile to realize some parts of me don’t have cptsd.
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January 10, 2025 at 2:03 PM
I miss the days of having a real person to vent to in times of desperation. Instead of our modern way of typing something out into the void of the internet hoping for a reply. Or resorting to ChatGPT.
www.reddit.com/r/MomForAMin...
www.reddit.com/r/MomForAMin...
January 9, 2025 at 10:32 PM
I miss the days of having a real person to vent to in times of desperation. Instead of our modern way of typing something out into the void of the internet hoping for a reply. Or resorting to ChatGPT.
www.reddit.com/r/MomForAMin...
www.reddit.com/r/MomForAMin...
Today I wrote another long form post on Reddit talking about my fears and frustrations.
“It feels like it’s too late. That climate change has reached the point of no return. That the rich and powerful can no longer be stopped.”
www.reddit.com/r/solarpunk/...
“It feels like it’s too late. That climate change has reached the point of no return. That the rich and powerful can no longer be stopped.”
www.reddit.com/r/solarpunk/...
January 9, 2025 at 7:23 PM
Today I wrote another long form post on Reddit talking about my fears and frustrations.
“It feels like it’s too late. That climate change has reached the point of no return. That the rich and powerful can no longer be stopped.”
www.reddit.com/r/solarpunk/...
“It feels like it’s too late. That climate change has reached the point of no return. That the rich and powerful can no longer be stopped.”
www.reddit.com/r/solarpunk/...
Structural dissociation brings on the unique challenge of each part of you needing its own therapy. Having needs and challenges other parts don’t have. Strengths and weaknesses.
January 7, 2025 at 3:22 PM
Structural dissociation brings on the unique challenge of each part of you needing its own therapy. Having needs and challenges other parts don’t have. Strengths and weaknesses.
I think about the window of tolerance a lot. About why I'm hardly ever in mine, and why that is. I think for me, i don't feel connected to society and I also feel overwhelmed trying to survive in it.
January 4, 2025 at 5:09 PM
I think about the window of tolerance a lot. About why I'm hardly ever in mine, and why that is. I think for me, i don't feel connected to society and I also feel overwhelmed trying to survive in it.
I did something I was really nervous about, and went way out of my comfort zone today. I also succeeded at it, mostly. I should feel proud and happy, but I don’t.
I talk about it more in this Reddit post.
www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comm...
I talk about it more in this Reddit post.
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January 1, 2025 at 9:16 PM
I did something I was really nervous about, and went way out of my comfort zone today. I also succeeded at it, mostly. I should feel proud and happy, but I don’t.
I talk about it more in this Reddit post.
www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comm...
I talk about it more in this Reddit post.
www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comm...
"Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery. None but ourselves can free our minds." - Bob Marley
December 29, 2024 at 2:40 PM
"Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery. None but ourselves can free our minds." - Bob Marley
Tough times don't make you stronger, but it can show you that you are tougher than you give yourself credit for.
I am waiting for the sun to come up this morning. I'm thinking about how Ive survived so much, and Im still here. Im still trying to grow, and heal. Im proud of myself for that.
I am waiting for the sun to come up this morning. I'm thinking about how Ive survived so much, and Im still here. Im still trying to grow, and heal. Im proud of myself for that.
December 28, 2024 at 12:22 PM
Tough times don't make you stronger, but it can show you that you are tougher than you give yourself credit for.
I am waiting for the sun to come up this morning. I'm thinking about how Ive survived so much, and Im still here. Im still trying to grow, and heal. Im proud of myself for that.
I am waiting for the sun to come up this morning. I'm thinking about how Ive survived so much, and Im still here. Im still trying to grow, and heal. Im proud of myself for that.
Its been 10 days since I posted. I lose time pretty bad. Sorry about that. I wrote a long form post on Reddit about how I'm climbing out of the pit of CPTSD collapse.
Maybe it can help some of you on this holiday time.
www.reddit.com/user/SirChee...
Maybe it can help some of you on this holiday time.
www.reddit.com/user/SirChee...
December 24, 2024 at 10:52 PM
Its been 10 days since I posted. I lose time pretty bad. Sorry about that. I wrote a long form post on Reddit about how I'm climbing out of the pit of CPTSD collapse.
Maybe it can help some of you on this holiday time.
www.reddit.com/user/SirChee...
Maybe it can help some of you on this holiday time.
www.reddit.com/user/SirChee...
Perfectionism
When children are punished or rejected for being imperfect, they may develop perfectionistic tendencies as a survival strategy to avoid criticism, gain approval, or feel safe. This can lead to an internalized fear of failure and a belief that their worth depends on being flawless.
When children are punished or rejected for being imperfect, they may develop perfectionistic tendencies as a survival strategy to avoid criticism, gain approval, or feel safe. This can lead to an internalized fear of failure and a belief that their worth depends on being flawless.
December 14, 2024 at 11:56 AM
Perfectionism
When children are punished or rejected for being imperfect, they may develop perfectionistic tendencies as a survival strategy to avoid criticism, gain approval, or feel safe. This can lead to an internalized fear of failure and a belief that their worth depends on being flawless.
When children are punished or rejected for being imperfect, they may develop perfectionistic tendencies as a survival strategy to avoid criticism, gain approval, or feel safe. This can lead to an internalized fear of failure and a belief that their worth depends on being flawless.
Why is life with cptsd, so difficult. Three days of suicidal ideation, with crippling anxiety. Followed by a week of depression and feeling hopeless. Followed by four days of dissociation, feeling like a zombie. Followed by one day of feeling ok, being semi optimistic, and productive. Rinse repeat.
December 13, 2024 at 10:45 AM
Why is life with cptsd, so difficult. Three days of suicidal ideation, with crippling anxiety. Followed by a week of depression and feeling hopeless. Followed by four days of dissociation, feeling like a zombie. Followed by one day of feeling ok, being semi optimistic, and productive. Rinse repeat.