The One Who Puppermodes
@secondaryshlee.bsky.social
Private account. If u aren't one of like 5 people I will block instantly
Oh boy this is gonna be a wild one
December 1, 2025 at 8:47 AM
Oh boy this is gonna be a wild one
Randomly falling apart for no reason
Im insane. Im unwell. Im fucking hormonal or med change or fuckin idk but something is Wrong rn and i dont know what and thats amplifying the Wrongness
Im insane. Im unwell. Im fucking hormonal or med change or fuckin idk but something is Wrong rn and i dont know what and thats amplifying the Wrongness
December 1, 2025 at 6:41 AM
Randomly falling apart for no reason
Im insane. Im unwell. Im fucking hormonal or med change or fuckin idk but something is Wrong rn and i dont know what and thats amplifying the Wrongness
Im insane. Im unwell. Im fucking hormonal or med change or fuckin idk but something is Wrong rn and i dont know what and thats amplifying the Wrongness
Shaking, scared and wanting to cry and i dont even know why
December 1, 2025 at 6:29 AM
Shaking, scared and wanting to cry and i dont even know why
I think i might have some kind of insecure attachment thingy the way i spend way too much time thinking my loved ones have decided im no longer Worth It bc they haven't talked to me in like 4 hours or got upset one time.
December 1, 2025 at 3:59 AM
I think i might have some kind of insecure attachment thingy the way i spend way too much time thinking my loved ones have decided im no longer Worth It bc they haven't talked to me in like 4 hours or got upset one time.
i hate wanting to live. this shit sucks what do u mean i have to be healthy
November 22, 2025 at 2:27 PM
i hate wanting to live. this shit sucks what do u mean i have to be healthy
You'd think that the act of leaving wouldve caused more trauma given that it involved mentally preparing myself to violently defend my life against a guy but really it barely registered next to everything on either side of it
if anything i see it as a triumph
if anything i see it as a triumph
November 22, 2025 at 2:20 PM
You'd think that the act of leaving wouldve caused more trauma given that it involved mentally preparing myself to violently defend my life against a guy but really it barely registered next to everything on either side of it
if anything i see it as a triumph
if anything i see it as a triumph
I made the mistake of regaining access to my old photo library dating back to 2016.
So anyway on top of a rollercoaster day now im reliving the past 5 years especially '20 through '22.
I think i need to cry into a bottle of wine to be frank but apparently my liver might be dying so maybe not
So anyway on top of a rollercoaster day now im reliving the past 5 years especially '20 through '22.
I think i need to cry into a bottle of wine to be frank but apparently my liver might be dying so maybe not
November 22, 2025 at 2:12 PM
I made the mistake of regaining access to my old photo library dating back to 2016.
So anyway on top of a rollercoaster day now im reliving the past 5 years especially '20 through '22.
I think i need to cry into a bottle of wine to be frank but apparently my liver might be dying so maybe not
So anyway on top of a rollercoaster day now im reliving the past 5 years especially '20 through '22.
I think i need to cry into a bottle of wine to be frank but apparently my liver might be dying so maybe not
Mild concern this might trigger something bc like fuck this feels spot on for how i am on the upswing.
Idk i doubt it will im just simply on a new drug, but the concern remains and i think its reasonable to keep an eye on.
Idk i doubt it will im just simply on a new drug, but the concern remains and i think its reasonable to keep an eye on.
November 22, 2025 at 8:39 AM
Mild concern this might trigger something bc like fuck this feels spot on for how i am on the upswing.
Idk i doubt it will im just simply on a new drug, but the concern remains and i think its reasonable to keep an eye on.
Idk i doubt it will im just simply on a new drug, but the concern remains and i think its reasonable to keep an eye on.
Hello distortions its been a bit
November 22, 2025 at 8:30 AM
Hello distortions its been a bit
My b wrong account
November 22, 2025 at 7:56 AM
My b wrong account
Do i miss being a guy?
November 22, 2025 at 5:36 AM
Do i miss being a guy?
Crippling dysphoria day apparently
November 22, 2025 at 5:34 AM
Crippling dysphoria day apparently
Can you confirm, do i exist or am i just a spark of madness in someone else
November 21, 2025 at 9:20 AM
Can you confirm, do i exist or am i just a spark of madness in someone else
Its been fascinating dissecting the psychology of my kinks. Like wow i need to journal some of this
November 21, 2025 at 6:33 AM
Its been fascinating dissecting the psychology of my kinks. Like wow i need to journal some of this
Me: "I'm actually so happy with how stable my life and emotions have become on meds. This changed my life."
*That* part of my brain: "Lets go off them and lose our mind and party and see where the winds take us and maybe this time you can run off to the woods to be a crazed hermit"
*That* part of my brain: "Lets go off them and lose our mind and party and see where the winds take us and maybe this time you can run off to the woods to be a crazed hermit"
November 18, 2025 at 9:55 AM
Me: "I'm actually so happy with how stable my life and emotions have become on meds. This changed my life."
*That* part of my brain: "Lets go off them and lose our mind and party and see where the winds take us and maybe this time you can run off to the woods to be a crazed hermit"
*That* part of my brain: "Lets go off them and lose our mind and party and see where the winds take us and maybe this time you can run off to the woods to be a crazed hermit"
I'm depressed as fuck please drop a 100 lb bomb on me from an antique bomber
November 17, 2025 at 5:21 PM
I'm depressed as fuck please drop a 100 lb bomb on me from an antique bomber
I just want to be good.
November 17, 2025 at 6:14 AM
I just want to be good.
Am i shit to you?
Do i not care enough?
Do i care too much?
I can change if you tell me how probably.
At least I'd try.
Is that wrong that i would?
Do i not care enough?
Do i care too much?
I can change if you tell me how probably.
At least I'd try.
Is that wrong that i would?
November 17, 2025 at 6:10 AM
Am i shit to you?
Do i not care enough?
Do i care too much?
I can change if you tell me how probably.
At least I'd try.
Is that wrong that i would?
Do i not care enough?
Do i care too much?
I can change if you tell me how probably.
At least I'd try.
Is that wrong that i would?
I have the worst fucking headache
November 16, 2025 at 6:12 AM
I have the worst fucking headache
Anyway if you ever wondered why I don't want anything to do with leftist organizing anymore...
November 14, 2025 at 4:38 AM
Anyway if you ever wondered why I don't want anything to do with leftist organizing anymore...
Anger is actually an important emotion as long as it stays in check.
November 14, 2025 at 4:30 AM
Anger is actually an important emotion as long as it stays in check.
Trying to come to terms with the concept of "everyone around me isn't my responsibility. I don't have to fix everything." Bc i cant and its killing me that I can't.
November 14, 2025 at 4:16 AM
Trying to come to terms with the concept of "everyone around me isn't my responsibility. I don't have to fix everything." Bc i cant and its killing me that I can't.
Never should've trusted Nick. Never should have believed him when he said "we'll take care of you"
November 14, 2025 at 4:14 AM
Never should've trusted Nick. Never should have believed him when he said "we'll take care of you"
I like u but you freak me out a lot bc like what are you on about this is neuroticism of a type i am unfamiliar with
November 11, 2025 at 9:22 AM
I like u but you freak me out a lot bc like what are you on about this is neuroticism of a type i am unfamiliar with
I never know how to react to people spinning out on the tl so i ignore it like a terrible person.
November 11, 2025 at 9:16 AM
I never know how to react to people spinning out on the tl so i ignore it like a terrible person.