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sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social
sarah
@sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social
trans || lesbian || leftist || musician
bands: analecta, Chin Up!, ITAOD
(she/her)
mdni 🔞

discord: same username
Pinned
get to know me post i can pin to my profile?
i suppose i may as well.

i play music. i’ve been in bands for years.
some very active ones.
but never as a career, despite attempts.
been transitioning a long time.

basically i’m a middle aged artist brained lesbian.
i would like for the winter to be over now.

the cold & all this snow just kinda…
it’s doing a number on me from multiple directions. complicating work a bunch. i have to bundle up like a potato & feel awful about my appearance. nobody’s out doing things, so i spend my time alone…

can it get warm?
February 8, 2026 at 8:40 PM
but for real:
who the fuck is this?
February 8, 2026 at 2:51 AM
there's so much trans media that centers on trauma or body horror....

but what about some of us who just want a good regular drama or romcom or something?

why's it all got to be so... dark? (ok. i know why. but it's a lot sometimes. and a happy escape would be nice for variety.)
February 7, 2026 at 2:29 AM
because music, my life has been more heavily documented than some.
years and years of band shots. and videos. from regional shows. tours. etc.

everyone now and then i find something i’d forgotten and it’s so strange. like “who the fuck is that? is THAT what i looked like?”
February 7, 2026 at 1:58 AM
damn. new MØL album released last week and i totally missed it.

this whole blackgaze thing is… very much my jam. in its various forms. (including Holy Fawn and Som. bands like that. though møl tends to have more black metal vocals. which i’m here for)
February 6, 2026 at 10:03 PM
apparently it’s bandcamp friday,

SO

go preorder the Ameokama record. (on vinyl. that’s a new thing as of today, i think)

OR you could get stuff from one of my bands.

(post rock/post metal)
analecta.bandcamp.com

(socio political hardcore)
chinuphardcore.bandcamp.com
We Will Not Wither And Die, by analecta
track by analecta
analecta.bandcamp.com
February 6, 2026 at 8:53 PM
incidentally, this is what i wore TO the show last night. (masked, as alway. but… still put on a full face because why not?)
February 6, 2026 at 2:17 AM
ok. today was productive.

shot like…42 products and edited them. updated images on the website. listed 8 new products.

i think it’s time to call it. otherwise i’m liable to just keep working
February 6, 2026 at 2:13 AM
ok. so modular heads:

former roommate bought a modular unit without realizing that’s what it was. (a noise generator)

what’s the simplest way to… make that into something useable?
i told him to hang on to it. but i know nothing of modular.
February 5, 2026 at 9:09 PM
is this 2X Knoll hoodie readable? debatable.
it IS comfy, though.

not leaving the house today. i don’t think.
February 5, 2026 at 7:54 PM
picked up the Knoll record As Spoken last night.
(no. i didn’t buy agriculture. because i’ve already got them all on vinyl)

and then @eversonpoe.bsky.social ‘s Enough Is A Myth showed up in the mail today.

this collection is getting out of hand.
February 5, 2026 at 7:26 PM
what do you do when you’re a middle aged former scene kid metal head who still goes to shows?

… buy oversized illegible hoodies to wear with leggings when you’re working from home.

ps. Knoll and Agriculture both ripped last night. even if it meant getting home around 4:15 am.
February 5, 2026 at 6:53 PM
gdi.

driving home and had a deer encounter. car is … damaged but ok. only seems to be cosmetic damage. but still.
February 5, 2026 at 7:56 AM
hey chicago?

if your venue is surrounded by permit only neighborhood parking? maybe don’t fucking book nationally touring bands that will require people coming from out of town

i’ve been driving around for half an hour with nowhere to fucking park. i’m half tempted to go the fuck home. i’m pissed
February 5, 2026 at 2:01 AM
The Chariot - “Someday, in the Event That Mankind Actually Figures Out What it is That This World Revolves Around, Thousands of People are Going to Be Shocked and Perplexed to Find Out it Was Not Them. Sometimes, This Includes Me.”

youtu.be/02IzM1voCqU?...
February 4, 2026 at 8:03 AM
so this year…

i switched to enthanate.
i was originally trained by my former doctors office with only one needle (23) for everything.

with the enthanate, also swapped to draw and injection needles separate (different sizes). and suddenly shots are super easy again.
February 4, 2026 at 1:42 AM
today i went exploring.
found a hobby store that sold gundams.

also… woman running it gendered me correctly the entire time, which

i’ll be honest, i’ve been feeling like a clocky potato for a while. so being reminded that most people just see a weird alt woman is a good reminder.
February 3, 2026 at 11:21 PM
ok. i’ve found a hobby. other than the nearly all consuming one that is music.

gunpla.

hey… it’s a start, right?
so…
i’ve asked this before, but…

i’m not sure i really understand hobbies? or how to have them?

like. i have music. but that’s an obsession past what i consider hobby territory.
and i collect things. but thats not really a … hobby, prepay?

i dont feel like i really have any hobbies.
February 3, 2026 at 7:40 PM
nope.

nobody seems to have a solution for this one.

no surprises there.
actually, it would have been a surprise if someone DID have a suggestion.
if anybody knows how to DIY a BA…
February 3, 2026 at 5:50 AM
i wish…

i wish a lot of things.

but i think these days, the thing i wish for the most is…
people/friends/chosen-family to spend time with in person.
instead of spending… a week. two weeks. more… just with no social interaction at all.
February 3, 2026 at 2:30 AM
Reposted by sarah
it’s been so long since i had friends i saw/hung out with on a regular basis that i don’t really remember how that works anymore.

that’s getting older, i guess.

everybody gets married and has kids and then disappears. maybe you’ll see them once every few months. if you’re lucky.
January 30, 2026 at 8:44 PM
if anybody knows how to DIY a BA…
February 2, 2026 at 11:50 PM
well.

it’s been over a week since i last spent time with people.

not a fan.
all this … solitude is crushing.
February 2, 2026 at 11:26 PM
today’s band pick:

Primitive Rage

grind/hardcore from missouri.

this is so much my shit.

youtu.be/YVAs_1DcbTU?...
Gnashing at His Heels
YouTube video by Primitive Rage - Topic
youtu.be
February 2, 2026 at 9:28 PM
my parents have a somewhat strange arrangement.

my mom likes my dads beard.
and my dad likes long hair.

so he isn’t allowed to shave.
and she doesn’t cut her hair.

he shaved once (on her 40th) and that’s when that agreement was reached. (tbf, he looks like his face caved in without a beard)
February 2, 2026 at 5:57 PM