sarah
@sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social
trans || lesbian || leftist || musician
bands: analecta, Chin Up!, ITAOD
(she/her)
mdni 🔞
discord: same username
bands: analecta, Chin Up!, ITAOD
(she/her)
mdni 🔞
discord: same username
Pinned
get to know me post i can pin to my profile?
i suppose i may as well.
i play music. i’ve been in bands for years.
some very active ones.
but never as a career, despite attempts.
been transitioning a long time.
basically i’m a middle aged artist brained lesbian.
i suppose i may as well.
i play music. i’ve been in bands for years.
some very active ones.
but never as a career, despite attempts.
been transitioning a long time.
basically i’m a middle aged artist brained lesbian.
i have a professional photographer friend who has kept teal in her hair in some form for so long that it’s become an identifier for people.
i went pink about 5 months after starting hrt. and i’ve been pink ever since. about 8.5 years now. and accidentally now it’s become and identifier for me too.
i went pink about 5 months after starting hrt. and i’ve been pink ever since. about 8.5 years now. and accidentally now it’s become and identifier for me too.
November 18, 2025 at 10:07 PM
i have a professional photographer friend who has kept teal in her hair in some form for so long that it’s become an identifier for people.
i went pink about 5 months after starting hrt. and i’ve been pink ever since. about 8.5 years now. and accidentally now it’s become and identifier for me too.
i went pink about 5 months after starting hrt. and i’ve been pink ever since. about 8.5 years now. and accidentally now it’s become and identifier for me too.
do i think about girls much?
🤔
all the time.
usually specific ones.
would i turn that off?
nope.
not at all.
🤔
all the time.
usually specific ones.
would i turn that off?
nope.
not at all.
November 17, 2025 at 11:28 PM
do i think about girls much?
🤔
all the time.
usually specific ones.
would i turn that off?
nope.
not at all.
🤔
all the time.
usually specific ones.
would i turn that off?
nope.
not at all.
ok. it’s come back down again. i kept working but took it easy and did low energy things for a while.
ok. my watch is charged.
i should probably put it back on.
its main function is monitoring my heart rate,
and yeah, i’ve been working.
but it feels… off. faster than it should be.
(this is “normal.” well. since getting covid. heart rate spikes for no good reason sometimes. it’s why i monitor it)
i should probably put it back on.
its main function is monitoring my heart rate,
and yeah, i’ve been working.
but it feels… off. faster than it should be.
(this is “normal.” well. since getting covid. heart rate spikes for no good reason sometimes. it’s why i monitor it)
November 17, 2025 at 10:11 PM
ok. it’s come back down again. i kept working but took it easy and did low energy things for a while.
ok. my watch is charged.
i should probably put it back on.
its main function is monitoring my heart rate,
and yeah, i’ve been working.
but it feels… off. faster than it should be.
(this is “normal.” well. since getting covid. heart rate spikes for no good reason sometimes. it’s why i monitor it)
i should probably put it back on.
its main function is monitoring my heart rate,
and yeah, i’ve been working.
but it feels… off. faster than it should be.
(this is “normal.” well. since getting covid. heart rate spikes for no good reason sometimes. it’s why i monitor it)
November 17, 2025 at 7:40 PM
ok. my watch is charged.
i should probably put it back on.
its main function is monitoring my heart rate,
and yeah, i’ve been working.
but it feels… off. faster than it should be.
(this is “normal.” well. since getting covid. heart rate spikes for no good reason sometimes. it’s why i monitor it)
i should probably put it back on.
its main function is monitoring my heart rate,
and yeah, i’ve been working.
but it feels… off. faster than it should be.
(this is “normal.” well. since getting covid. heart rate spikes for no good reason sometimes. it’s why i monitor it)
it’ll never work,
but i wish i could convince my dad to change his (middle) name. he’s always hated it. he even knows what he’d want it to be.
and i get it. i went by nicknames for two or three decades because i had zero attatchmet to my given name. until i legally changed it.
but i wish i could convince my dad to change his (middle) name. he’s always hated it. he even knows what he’d want it to be.
and i get it. i went by nicknames for two or three decades because i had zero attatchmet to my given name. until i legally changed it.
November 17, 2025 at 6:06 PM
it’ll never work,
but i wish i could convince my dad to change his (middle) name. he’s always hated it. he even knows what he’d want it to be.
and i get it. i went by nicknames for two or three decades because i had zero attatchmet to my given name. until i legally changed it.
but i wish i could convince my dad to change his (middle) name. he’s always hated it. he even knows what he’d want it to be.
and i get it. i went by nicknames for two or three decades because i had zero attatchmet to my given name. until i legally changed it.
somehow i make this guitar look tiny.
i’m not even the guitarist in this band!
i’m the vocalist!
(ok. i played guitar on the record. and did for a brief time when we were a three piece)
i’m not even the guitarist in this band!
i’m the vocalist!
(ok. i played guitar on the record. and did for a brief time when we were a three piece)
November 17, 2025 at 4:11 AM
somehow i make this guitar look tiny.
i’m not even the guitarist in this band!
i’m the vocalist!
(ok. i played guitar on the record. and did for a brief time when we were a three piece)
i’m not even the guitarist in this band!
i’m the vocalist!
(ok. i played guitar on the record. and did for a brief time when we were a three piece)
Reposted by sarah
Just watching @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social and Chin Up getting ready for a basement show 🥰
November 15, 2025 at 10:50 PM
Just watching @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social and Chin Up getting ready for a basement show 🥰
i swear every queer focused therapist who will do a sliding scale for people without insurance in this state is booked until the end of time.
girl can’t even get mental health care.
tbf, girl can’t get regular health care either.
fucking broken country.
girl can’t even get mental health care.
tbf, girl can’t get regular health care either.
fucking broken country.
November 7, 2025 at 3:34 AM
i swear every queer focused therapist who will do a sliding scale for people without insurance in this state is booked until the end of time.
girl can’t even get mental health care.
tbf, girl can’t get regular health care either.
fucking broken country.
girl can’t even get mental health care.
tbf, girl can’t get regular health care either.
fucking broken country.
hrt (if you want or need it) by any means necessary.
that’s what i’m saying here.
that’s what i’m saying here.
if anybody EVER sees or hears me shit on DIY HRT,
then you know… i’ve lost it completely or that isn’t me.
like traveling, i’ll take a plane, train, car, bicycle… who cares.
with hrt? same thing. however gets you there. i don’t care.
and if it’s not for you? that’s fine too.
then you know… i’ve lost it completely or that isn’t me.
like traveling, i’ll take a plane, train, car, bicycle… who cares.
with hrt? same thing. however gets you there. i don’t care.
and if it’s not for you? that’s fine too.
November 2, 2025 at 12:04 AM
hrt (if you want or need it) by any means necessary.
that’s what i’m saying here.
that’s what i’m saying here.
it would be nice to be able to enjoy video games alone.
but i simply get zero enjoyment from them.
but i simply get zero enjoyment from them.
November 1, 2025 at 8:18 PM
it would be nice to be able to enjoy video games alone.
but i simply get zero enjoyment from them.
but i simply get zero enjoyment from them.
Reposted by sarah
girly music
October 31, 2025 at 10:32 PM
girly music
if anybody EVER sees or hears me shit on DIY HRT,
then you know… i’ve lost it completely or that isn’t me.
like traveling, i’ll take a plane, train, car, bicycle… who cares.
with hrt? same thing. however gets you there. i don’t care.
and if it’s not for you? that’s fine too.
then you know… i’ve lost it completely or that isn’t me.
like traveling, i’ll take a plane, train, car, bicycle… who cares.
with hrt? same thing. however gets you there. i don’t care.
and if it’s not for you? that’s fine too.
November 1, 2025 at 2:56 AM
if anybody EVER sees or hears me shit on DIY HRT,
then you know… i’ve lost it completely or that isn’t me.
like traveling, i’ll take a plane, train, car, bicycle… who cares.
with hrt? same thing. however gets you there. i don’t care.
and if it’s not for you? that’s fine too.
then you know… i’ve lost it completely or that isn’t me.
like traveling, i’ll take a plane, train, car, bicycle… who cares.
with hrt? same thing. however gets you there. i don’t care.
and if it’s not for you? that’s fine too.
i think today is just ..
ass beater band playlist.
new Spite record today.
maybe Acacia Strain next.
some Terminal Nation, No Cure, Bodysnatcher and Officer Down yet to go.
ass beater band playlist.
new Spite record today.
maybe Acacia Strain next.
some Terminal Nation, No Cure, Bodysnatcher and Officer Down yet to go.
October 31, 2025 at 6:51 PM
i think today is just ..
ass beater band playlist.
new Spite record today.
maybe Acacia Strain next.
some Terminal Nation, No Cure, Bodysnatcher and Officer Down yet to go.
ass beater band playlist.
new Spite record today.
maybe Acacia Strain next.
some Terminal Nation, No Cure, Bodysnatcher and Officer Down yet to go.
tbh, i’m not sure i’ve ever encountered a space outside of a damn support group that would even qualify as a trans space.
and that’s just not the same anyways.
and that’s just not the same anyways.
trans… social spaces?
yeah. that sounds like a myth.
yeah. that sounds like a myth.
October 31, 2025 at 6:32 PM
tbh, i’m not sure i’ve ever encountered a space outside of a damn support group that would even qualify as a trans space.
and that’s just not the same anyways.
and that’s just not the same anyways.
trans… social spaces?
yeah. that sounds like a myth.
yeah. that sounds like a myth.
October 31, 2025 at 11:59 AM
trans… social spaces?
yeah. that sounds like a myth.
yeah. that sounds like a myth.
i was already in a bad place mentally today…
that whole interaction just really made things worse.
thanks, random local middle aged woman with zero tact whatsoever.
that whole interaction just really made things worse.
thanks, random local middle aged woman with zero tact whatsoever.
dear local lgbtq+ center server user:
when people are complaining about the cost or inaccessibility of gender affirming care/surgeries… piping in to say “my grs is in 19 days! thanks to good insurance” is… not the damn time.
when people are complaining about the cost or inaccessibility of gender affirming care/surgeries… piping in to say “my grs is in 19 days! thanks to good insurance” is… not the damn time.
October 31, 2025 at 2:33 AM
i was already in a bad place mentally today…
that whole interaction just really made things worse.
thanks, random local middle aged woman with zero tact whatsoever.
that whole interaction just really made things worse.
thanks, random local middle aged woman with zero tact whatsoever.
dear local lgbtq+ center server user:
when people are complaining about the cost or inaccessibility of gender affirming care/surgeries… piping in to say “my grs is in 19 days! thanks to good insurance” is… not the damn time.
when people are complaining about the cost or inaccessibility of gender affirming care/surgeries… piping in to say “my grs is in 19 days! thanks to good insurance” is… not the damn time.
October 31, 2025 at 2:02 AM
dear local lgbtq+ center server user:
when people are complaining about the cost or inaccessibility of gender affirming care/surgeries… piping in to say “my grs is in 19 days! thanks to good insurance” is… not the damn time.
when people are complaining about the cost or inaccessibility of gender affirming care/surgeries… piping in to say “my grs is in 19 days! thanks to good insurance” is… not the damn time.
ok.
cleaning again this morning really helped.
still limping. but it’s definitely a better place than when i woke up.
being down by a partial foot is…
makes life complicated.
cleaning again this morning really helped.
still limping. but it’s definitely a better place than when i woke up.
being down by a partial foot is…
makes life complicated.
October 30, 2025 at 6:15 PM
ok.
cleaning again this morning really helped.
still limping. but it’s definitely a better place than when i woke up.
being down by a partial foot is…
makes life complicated.
cleaning again this morning really helped.
still limping. but it’s definitely a better place than when i woke up.
being down by a partial foot is…
makes life complicated.
at least i got to do Halloween Horror Nights with @imsarahnow.bsky.social last week.
i guess that’s my halloween for the year.
(also learned: i don’t jump at haunted houses. i just sort of appreciate the actors who do it well)
i guess that’s my halloween for the year.
(also learned: i don’t jump at haunted houses. i just sort of appreciate the actors who do it well)
October 30, 2025 at 5:25 PM
at least i got to do Halloween Horror Nights with @imsarahnow.bsky.social last week.
i guess that’s my halloween for the year.
(also learned: i don’t jump at haunted houses. i just sort of appreciate the actors who do it well)
i guess that’s my halloween for the year.
(also learned: i don’t jump at haunted houses. i just sort of appreciate the actors who do it well)
i’ve loved bands with a message since i found RATM in the 90s
my favorite lyricist is natasha gray (boysetsfire/the iron roses) & they’ve always got a TON to say
my friend Jeff does too & fronts the band Sour. about the korean diaspora & the adoption industry he came from
youtu.be/DV49wVpSSMM?...
my favorite lyricist is natasha gray (boysetsfire/the iron roses) & they’ve always got a TON to say
my friend Jeff does too & fronts the band Sour. about the korean diaspora & the adoption industry he came from
youtu.be/DV49wVpSSMM?...
₩ON FOR A LIFE - SOUR (Official Music Video)
YouTube video by Ohio Hardcore
youtu.be
October 30, 2025 at 4:26 PM
i’ve loved bands with a message since i found RATM in the 90s
my favorite lyricist is natasha gray (boysetsfire/the iron roses) & they’ve always got a TON to say
my friend Jeff does too & fronts the band Sour. about the korean diaspora & the adoption industry he came from
youtu.be/DV49wVpSSMM?...
my favorite lyricist is natasha gray (boysetsfire/the iron roses) & they’ve always got a TON to say
my friend Jeff does too & fronts the band Sour. about the korean diaspora & the adoption industry he came from
youtu.be/DV49wVpSSMM?...
worked on the “studio” space today.
it’s coming along. i think i’ve worked it into a place where i can start working on new stuff again.
it’s coming along. i think i’ve worked it into a place where i can start working on new stuff again.
October 30, 2025 at 5:05 AM
worked on the “studio” space today.
it’s coming along. i think i’ve worked it into a place where i can start working on new stuff again.
it’s coming along. i think i’ve worked it into a place where i can start working on new stuff again.
this is a difficult question.
because it kind of depends on the mood you’re in that day. and also who else is playing.
BUT…
i’ll list a few top ones for me:
Above and Below
Dinosaur Island
Ticket to Ride
Carcassonne
Eclipse : The Second Dawn
because it kind of depends on the mood you’re in that day. and also who else is playing.
BUT…
i’ll list a few top ones for me:
Above and Below
Dinosaur Island
Ticket to Ride
Carcassonne
Eclipse : The Second Dawn
October 29, 2025 at 11:10 PM
this is a difficult question.
because it kind of depends on the mood you’re in that day. and also who else is playing.
BUT…
i’ll list a few top ones for me:
Above and Below
Dinosaur Island
Ticket to Ride
Carcassonne
Eclipse : The Second Dawn
because it kind of depends on the mood you’re in that day. and also who else is playing.
BUT…
i’ll list a few top ones for me:
Above and Below
Dinosaur Island
Ticket to Ride
Carcassonne
Eclipse : The Second Dawn
i’ve been wearing womens pants/jeans for so long i don’t even know how men’s pants fit. (not that i’m trying to find men’s pants. why would i?)
i bought my first pair of women’s pants in… maybe 2002?
and unrelatedly started shaving my legs around then too.
no signs, i tell you!!
i bought my first pair of women’s pants in… maybe 2002?
and unrelatedly started shaving my legs around then too.
no signs, i tell you!!
October 28, 2025 at 11:54 PM
i’ve been wearing womens pants/jeans for so long i don’t even know how men’s pants fit. (not that i’m trying to find men’s pants. why would i?)
i bought my first pair of women’s pants in… maybe 2002?
and unrelatedly started shaving my legs around then too.
no signs, i tell you!!
i bought my first pair of women’s pants in… maybe 2002?
and unrelatedly started shaving my legs around then too.
no signs, i tell you!!
Queer Bluesky: How old were you when you came out and how old are you now.
i KNEW at 13 or 14. but didn’t know it was possible to transition. buried it. for twenty years.
i said it out loud for the first time at 30. after months of cracking.
started HRT at late 35.
came out publicly at 40.
i KNEW at 13 or 14. but didn’t know it was possible to transition. buried it. for twenty years.
i said it out loud for the first time at 30. after months of cracking.
started HRT at late 35.
came out publicly at 40.
Queer Bluesky: How old were you when you came out and how old are you now.
13 shoved back into the closet
17 shoved back into the closet
34 it finally took 😎
Sometimes the hardest part of life is learning that the problem was never you.
13 shoved back into the closet
17 shoved back into the closet
34 it finally took 😎
Sometimes the hardest part of life is learning that the problem was never you.
Queer Bluesky: how old were you when you came out and how old are you now?
38—> 43
I always said I lived in my head and not my body. I never felt connected to it but didn’t have the language as to why. I would get panic attacks out of nowhere. Looking back it was when I had to perform masculinity
38—> 43
I always said I lived in my head and not my body. I never felt connected to it but didn’t have the language as to why. I would get panic attacks out of nowhere. Looking back it was when I had to perform masculinity
October 28, 2025 at 7:51 PM
Queer Bluesky: How old were you when you came out and how old are you now.
i KNEW at 13 or 14. but didn’t know it was possible to transition. buried it. for twenty years.
i said it out loud for the first time at 30. after months of cracking.
started HRT at late 35.
came out publicly at 40.
i KNEW at 13 or 14. but didn’t know it was possible to transition. buried it. for twenty years.
i said it out loud for the first time at 30. after months of cracking.
started HRT at late 35.
came out publicly at 40.
i think i fell off taking pictures like that…
• partially because if not shared, then why bother?
• underlying self image issues. which is … weird. for me. maybe it’s just long term burnout. which i’m… working on.
• partially because if not shared, then why bother?
• underlying self image issues. which is … weird. for me. maybe it’s just long term burnout. which i’m… working on.
tbh,
i do miss when bsky felt like an ok place to post… suggestive/lewds/nudes.
then again, i wiped all my media posted last december and the last year have taken a lot less than i used to.
ahh well. everybody’s missing out now.
🤷🏼♀️
i do miss when bsky felt like an ok place to post… suggestive/lewds/nudes.
then again, i wiped all my media posted last december and the last year have taken a lot less than i used to.
ahh well. everybody’s missing out now.
🤷🏼♀️
October 28, 2025 at 5:46 PM
i think i fell off taking pictures like that…
• partially because if not shared, then why bother?
• underlying self image issues. which is … weird. for me. maybe it’s just long term burnout. which i’m… working on.
• partially because if not shared, then why bother?
• underlying self image issues. which is … weird. for me. maybe it’s just long term burnout. which i’m… working on.