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As ever, a shining beacon of good sense, grace and maturity.
In other news, while we were out choosing a Christmas tree, got a call from the doc about my blood test results. I need to up my thyroid replacement even more and test again in early February. Ughhh.
The tree is mostly to amuse the cat, or so I tell myself. It's lush af, and chilling on the balcony.
The tree is mostly to amuse the cat, or so I tell myself. It's lush af, and chilling on the balcony.
December 17, 2025 at 1:32 AM
In other news, while we were out choosing a Christmas tree, got a call from the doc about my blood test results. I need to up my thyroid replacement even more and test again in early February. Ughhh.
The tree is mostly to amuse the cat, or so I tell myself. It's lush af, and chilling on the balcony.
The tree is mostly to amuse the cat, or so I tell myself. It's lush af, and chilling on the balcony.
The dinner was fine mostly due to the quality socializing and the space - good design, easy to mingle. I don't think anyone had been there before, but the place is apparently Michelin-approved... and somehow the food was just ok? Not bad, but not outstanding in any way other than fussiness.
December 17, 2025 at 1:07 AM
The dinner was fine mostly due to the quality socializing and the space - good design, easy to mingle. I don't think anyone had been there before, but the place is apparently Michelin-approved... and somehow the food was just ok? Not bad, but not outstanding in any way other than fussiness.
Due to my unwillingness to check my email, I had missed that I've been nominated for an award? Heard it from colleagues at dinner. Out of the blue and I doubt I'll win, but this is one of the student-voted ones, so am a bit tickled over the nomination alone.
December 16, 2025 at 8:35 PM
Due to my unwillingness to check my email, I had missed that I've been nominated for an award? Heard it from colleagues at dinner. Out of the blue and I doubt I'll win, but this is one of the student-voted ones, so am a bit tickled over the nomination alone.
Somehow I'm hardly ever not thinking that another vintage cardigan or another pair of earrings will be the thing that fixes me. They do help, but never quite enough.
December 16, 2025 at 3:05 AM
Somehow I'm hardly ever not thinking that another vintage cardigan or another pair of earrings will be the thing that fixes me. They do help, but never quite enough.
Anyway, to soothe my woes I have been browsing anything I can think of for things I do not need. Embellished vintage cardigans made in Hongkong, vintage camel knits by Hadley, lacy crochet cotton cardigans made in Shanghai. Thankfully they are mostly in sizes that would be too tight, nvm the price.
December 16, 2025 at 2:47 AM
Anyway, to soothe my woes I have been browsing anything I can think of for things I do not need. Embellished vintage cardigans made in Hongkong, vintage camel knits by Hadley, lacy crochet cotton cardigans made in Shanghai. Thankfully they are mostly in sizes that would be too tight, nvm the price.
Tomorrow, going out for a holiday dinner at a nice restaurant with the department. I am however gonna skip the group tour before that, because it's gonna be a visit to the new rooms of an institution led by an ex-friend. I guess the plan is to just avoid her for the rest of my days tbh.
December 16, 2025 at 2:28 AM
Tomorrow, going out for a holiday dinner at a nice restaurant with the department. I am however gonna skip the group tour before that, because it's gonna be a visit to the new rooms of an institution led by an ex-friend. I guess the plan is to just avoid her for the rest of my days tbh.
At a concerningly low level of productivity and feeling a bit of a mess tbh. All I got done over the weekend were a few chores.
Went for a blood test to see where my thyroid replacement dosage is at, then to a meeting/seminar, which was nice enough. Got groceries later, and a present for the boyf.
Went for a blood test to see where my thyroid replacement dosage is at, then to a meeting/seminar, which was nice enough. Got groceries later, and a present for the boyf.
December 16, 2025 at 2:21 AM
At a concerningly low level of productivity and feeling a bit of a mess tbh. All I got done over the weekend were a few chores.
Went for a blood test to see where my thyroid replacement dosage is at, then to a meeting/seminar, which was nice enough. Got groceries later, and a present for the boyf.
Went for a blood test to see where my thyroid replacement dosage is at, then to a meeting/seminar, which was nice enough. Got groceries later, and a present for the boyf.
Win of the day: the cat ate his dewormer pill on first try!!! The special smaller one sourced directly from the vet, because we had such a hard time getting him to take the 1,5 bigger pills last year, he spat them out so many times and I kept buying more. But now, a tiny one embedded in a treat...
December 13, 2025 at 2:03 AM
Win of the day: the cat ate his dewormer pill on first try!!! The special smaller one sourced directly from the vet, because we had such a hard time getting him to take the 1,5 bigger pills last year, he spat them out so many times and I kept buying more. But now, a tiny one embedded in a treat...
Went for a massage therapy session on a surprisingly sunny day, however this being mid-December bright sky meant a drop in temperature. It's been blissfully snow-free here so far, and I've just worn mostly the same gear as I did in October, too.
December 13, 2025 at 12:17 AM
Went for a massage therapy session on a surprisingly sunny day, however this being mid-December bright sky meant a drop in temperature. It's been blissfully snow-free here so far, and I've just worn mostly the same gear as I did in October, too.
Listing everything took ages, but someone did buy a dress I'd listed months ago, after I dropped the price by 5€. Baby steps.
Otherwise I've been pretty useless all day. Without having to get myself together for class, I tend to revert into idle navel-gazing.
Otherwise I've been pretty useless all day. Without having to get myself together for class, I tend to revert into idle navel-gazing.
December 12, 2025 at 1:27 AM
Listing everything took ages, but someone did buy a dress I'd listed months ago, after I dropped the price by 5€. Baby steps.
Otherwise I've been pretty useless all day. Without having to get myself together for class, I tend to revert into idle navel-gazing.
Otherwise I've been pretty useless all day. Without having to get myself together for class, I tend to revert into idle navel-gazing.
Anyway. My wardrobe is reorganized - always such a nice feeling, and I gained a little bit of space by pulling about a dozen pieces. Gonna take pictures and list them, and, idk, should probably drop the prices on the existing listings so something sells.
December 11, 2025 at 1:56 AM
Anyway. My wardrobe is reorganized - always such a nice feeling, and I gained a little bit of space by pulling about a dozen pieces. Gonna take pictures and list them, and, idk, should probably drop the prices on the existing listings so something sells.
So, after a thorough search of my wardrobe, I am relieved to report I found nothing else with moth damage. The two little holes on that one sweater actually line up when it's folded, work of 1 lone pest. Idk, maybe it had a single egg laid on it when I washed it and let it dry in the hall?
December 11, 2025 at 1:44 AM
So, after a thorough search of my wardrobe, I am relieved to report I found nothing else with moth damage. The two little holes on that one sweater actually line up when it's folded, work of 1 lone pest. Idk, maybe it had a single egg laid on it when I washed it and let it dry in the hall?
Well, I did the paperwork. I am actually *good* at paperwork, but bad at getting started/managing to find the focus. Now to tackle the wardrobe... I hope the bastards haven't gotten to anything I actually care about, because I don't have the time nor the materials to mend lots of things.
December 10, 2025 at 11:29 PM
Well, I did the paperwork. I am actually *good* at paperwork, but bad at getting started/managing to find the focus. Now to tackle the wardrobe... I hope the bastards haven't gotten to anything I actually care about, because I don't have the time nor the materials to mend lots of things.
Also, I completely forgot about an event that was happening at work today. Not that it mattered much or that I'd wanted to be there, in fact I'm sure there were people there I'd much rather avoid. Instead, went for the last workout session of the year.
December 10, 2025 at 11:06 PM
Also, I completely forgot about an event that was happening at work today. Not that it mattered much or that I'd wanted to be there, in fact I'm sure there were people there I'd much rather avoid. Instead, went for the last workout session of the year.
Intense task paralysis. I want to handle a paperwork thing and then empty my wardrobe in search of more moth damage (I had actual nightmares about everything in there being chewed up). But then again I hate the idea of handling the paperwork thing too much to start. OTL
December 10, 2025 at 11:01 PM
Intense task paralysis. I want to handle a paperwork thing and then empty my wardrobe in search of more moth damage (I had actual nightmares about everything in there being chewed up). But then again I hate the idea of handling the paperwork thing too much to start. OTL
Relieved that the classes are over, but struggling to focus on the home stretch of completing tasks like grading. Would so much rather just idle the days away with whatever little tasks at home. And naps on the sofa may happen even when I've had a decent amount of sleep type of thing.
December 10, 2025 at 2:34 AM
Relieved that the classes are over, but struggling to focus on the home stretch of completing tasks like grading. Would so much rather just idle the days away with whatever little tasks at home. And naps on the sofa may happen even when I've had a decent amount of sleep type of thing.
Well, this didn't last, he is physically a little better but his grip on reality is pretty much gone. To the point where he no longer calls my mother, because he doesn't think he has her number. His children are looking for a care home placement.
Unexpected development, dad's friend who's been seen by idk how many doctors already was finally hospitalized, they're dissolving a couple of blood clots, and as a side effect, it's helping immensely with his cognitive issues.
I am certainly still feeling quite a way about my dad not making it to 70, otoh there's reason to be thankful he's not around to see things, the first thing that gave me this feeling was the start of war in 2022, and now one of his besties from uni is declining fast, cognitively and physically.
December 10, 2025 at 2:30 AM
Well, this didn't last, he is physically a little better but his grip on reality is pretty much gone. To the point where he no longer calls my mother, because he doesn't think he has her number. His children are looking for a care home placement.
Also, you would expect things like contract renewals and changes would be discussed beforehand amongst professionals, but in this case this is on me, not the organization, it's just one of the things I've been avoiding because I couldn't cope with handling it (v. mature of me, I know).
December 6, 2025 at 3:28 PM
Also, you would expect things like contract renewals and changes would be discussed beforehand amongst professionals, but in this case this is on me, not the organization, it's just one of the things I've been avoiding because I couldn't cope with handling it (v. mature of me, I know).
Mustered the courage to look at the scary thing (namely, contract changes for next year) and it was as good as I could hope for. Full time till the end of August w a small raise, even, then half until the end of the year. (Then, who knows, need to apply for grants.)
Also a small end-of-year bonus.
Also a small end-of-year bonus.
December 6, 2025 at 2:09 PM
Mustered the courage to look at the scary thing (namely, contract changes for next year) and it was as good as I could hope for. Full time till the end of August w a small raise, even, then half until the end of the year. (Then, who knows, need to apply for grants.)
Also a small end-of-year bonus.
Also a small end-of-year bonus.
HOW fid I last post 9 days ago??
Thought for sure there was something from last weekend...
All things considered, November flashed by at a shocking speed. Unsure if it's a cognitive thing relating to sertraline or just business as usual.
Thought for sure there was something from last weekend...
All things considered, November flashed by at a shocking speed. Unsure if it's a cognitive thing relating to sertraline or just business as usual.
December 6, 2025 at 4:58 AM
HOW fid I last post 9 days ago??
Thought for sure there was something from last weekend...
All things considered, November flashed by at a shocking speed. Unsure if it's a cognitive thing relating to sertraline or just business as usual.
Thought for sure there was something from last weekend...
All things considered, November flashed by at a shocking speed. Unsure if it's a cognitive thing relating to sertraline or just business as usual.
You'd think I might have managed to post something, considering how little time I've spent asleep over the past 72 hours, but you'd be wrong.
Ehh. Sleep deprivation aside, I've done mostly okay.
Ehh. Sleep deprivation aside, I've done mostly okay.
November 27, 2025 at 12:22 AM
You'd think I might have managed to post something, considering how little time I've spent asleep over the past 72 hours, but you'd be wrong.
Ehh. Sleep deprivation aside, I've done mostly okay.
Ehh. Sleep deprivation aside, I've done mostly okay.
For a Sunday treat, the Japanese illustrator Uiko Ikeda: www.instagram.com/uikoikeda?ig...
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November 23, 2025 at 2:14 PM
For a Sunday treat, the Japanese illustrator Uiko Ikeda: www.instagram.com/uikoikeda?ig...
Quiet Saturday, slept a lot, did laundry, made pumpkin soup (Hokkaido pumpkins are a revelation!), read something for a peer review.
November 23, 2025 at 4:09 AM
Quiet Saturday, slept a lot, did laundry, made pumpkin soup (Hokkaido pumpkins are a revelation!), read something for a peer review.
Why are people liking the down duvet and nice sleep post, is it the vibes? Maybe I haven't affichéd it enough that while I'm meh on astrology in general I do exhibit the stereotypical Taurus affinity to mundane hedonism, i.e. the nicest bedding I can afford, excellent pyjamas, etc.
November 22, 2025 at 2:26 PM
Why are people liking the down duvet and nice sleep post, is it the vibes? Maybe I haven't affichéd it enough that while I'm meh on astrology in general I do exhibit the stereotypical Taurus affinity to mundane hedonism, i.e. the nicest bedding I can afford, excellent pyjamas, etc.
Sleeping with the down duvet was oh so nice. And I went to the physio's for a good workout, and got some groceries. Not the most productive of days, but at least trying to stay on top of emails.
November 21, 2025 at 2:19 AM
Sleeping with the down duvet was oh so nice. And I went to the physio's for a good workout, and got some groceries. Not the most productive of days, but at least trying to stay on top of emails.