porkchop
@ryonahole.bsky.social
porkchop. weird pervert, 30, chronic victim, repeat masochist, she/it 🦇
https://revospring.net/@ryonahole
COLLEGE GIRL: https://archiveofourown.org/works/70992341/chapters/184626136
RETAIL THERAPY: https://archiveofourown.org/works/71401616
https://revospring.net/@ryonahole
COLLEGE GIRL: https://archiveofourown.org/works/70992341/chapters/184626136
RETAIL THERAPY: https://archiveofourown.org/works/71401616
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· Sep 18
College Girl - Chapter 1 - ryonahole - Original Work [Archive of Our Own]
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
archiveofourown.org
Hiiii I went ahead and posted the first two chapters of College Girl up on Ao3 if you want to read it there!
archiveofourown.org/works/709923...
archiveofourown.org/works/709923...
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ummmm if you don’t want to get picked up by your students don’t go to a college bar? smh
November 18, 2025 at 8:55 PM
ummmm if you don’t want to get picked up by your students don’t go to a college bar? smh
LRT hi. Hello. Hi. Hi. Please? Hi. Hello.
November 19, 2025 at 5:40 PM
LRT hi. Hello. Hi. Hi. Please? Hi. Hello.
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Best Worst Idea of Your Life (2022)
July 31, 2025 at 5:10 PM
Best Worst Idea of Your Life (2022)
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whenever ppl comment on big titty art with something akin to "wow her back must hurt" i wonder if they ever thought the train was actually going to come out of the tv and hit them too
November 19, 2025 at 12:24 AM
whenever ppl comment on big titty art with something akin to "wow her back must hurt" i wonder if they ever thought the train was actually going to come out of the tv and hit them too
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Anyways do not trust anyone when they say they've changed
November 18, 2025 at 11:43 PM
Anyways do not trust anyone when they say they've changed
Therapist said I should treat this as survival mode until I get home. Told them that she said that, and that I would like to be able to excuse myself from the situation/conversation if i get frustrated. They said sure! Then I tried to exercise it. They sure didnt like that!
November 18, 2025 at 11:42 PM
Therapist said I should treat this as survival mode until I get home. Told them that she said that, and that I would like to be able to excuse myself from the situation/conversation if i get frustrated. They said sure! Then I tried to exercise it. They sure didnt like that!
Anyways. Mom revealed to me today that I apparently have a special type of autism that she decided only now to tell me about. So it was kind of both comforting and maddening to know that I really never did have a chance, and was fucked from the start. Would've been great to know about this before!
November 18, 2025 at 11:41 PM
Anyways. Mom revealed to me today that I apparently have a special type of autism that she decided only now to tell me about. So it was kind of both comforting and maddening to know that I really never did have a chance, and was fucked from the start. Would've been great to know about this before!
I really can't express how fucking infuriating this all is. No closure. No catharsis. I will not gain any of this from family. All I can do is trade my suffering and sanity in for lessened guilt.
November 18, 2025 at 11:13 PM
I really can't express how fucking infuriating this all is. No closure. No catharsis. I will not gain any of this from family. All I can do is trade my suffering and sanity in for lessened guilt.
God, she is just such an unbearable control freak. I literally cannot say no to her about anything without it turning into an entire thing, so she's making me just do whatever whims she wants, like changing the car clock multiple times before telling me she can't even see it for the drivers seat.
November 18, 2025 at 11:11 PM
God, she is just such an unbearable control freak. I literally cannot say no to her about anything without it turning into an entire thing, so she's making me just do whatever whims she wants, like changing the car clock multiple times before telling me she can't even see it for the drivers seat.
reminder that while im very mentally ill I am also very hot
November 18, 2025 at 8:09 PM
reminder that while im very mentally ill I am also very hot
[DVNO by Justice voice] BDSM, four capital letterrrs
November 18, 2025 at 8:08 PM
[DVNO by Justice voice] BDSM, four capital letterrrs
I'm like if Patrick Bateman was transgender and all the violence was turned inwards (ok this is the last one)
November 18, 2025 at 3:36 PM
I'm like if Patrick Bateman was transgender and all the violence was turned inwards (ok this is the last one)
I've probably thoroughly alienated myself from any success I could have when it comes to this account due to my self flaggelation and concerning posts, so I think I'm just going to stop posting. Sorry about that!
November 18, 2025 at 3:35 PM
I've probably thoroughly alienated myself from any success I could have when it comes to this account due to my self flaggelation and concerning posts, so I think I'm just going to stop posting. Sorry about that!
Sorry. I was being a petulant child again. I'm normal again. I was being unreasonable.
November 18, 2025 at 2:12 PM
Sorry. I was being a petulant child again. I'm normal again. I was being unreasonable.
Totally crashed out at her. I feel insane talking to her. She keeps going on about how shes just trying to help and I. I just. Nothing i say gets through. And then when I shut down she just keeps being nice to me. I fucking hate this cycle.
November 18, 2025 at 1:19 PM
Totally crashed out at her. I feel insane talking to her. She keeps going on about how shes just trying to help and I. I just. Nothing i say gets through. And then when I shut down she just keeps being nice to me. I fucking hate this cycle.
Literally went out and bought her a 10 dollar coffee and when I bring it back her first response is to complain that I woke her up too early. So I say fine, take it out of her hand to go set it on the counter because shes not going to drink it, and then she just goes "what is your problem?!"
November 18, 2025 at 12:42 PM
Literally went out and bought her a 10 dollar coffee and when I bring it back her first response is to complain that I woke her up too early. So I say fine, take it out of her hand to go set it on the counter because shes not going to drink it, and then she just goes "what is your problem?!"
There's just so much dissonance here and its driving me crazy. I cannot ascertain any objective truth here.
November 18, 2025 at 10:23 AM
There's just so much dissonance here and its driving me crazy. I cannot ascertain any objective truth here.
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Winter in New England, 2024. Shot on medium format film.
May 18, 2025 at 10:36 PM
Winter in New England, 2024. Shot on medium format film.
Anyways, that's one reason why most of my free time is spent trying to subspace my way into not having to think about anything.
November 18, 2025 at 10:17 AM
Anyways, that's one reason why most of my free time is spent trying to subspace my way into not having to think about anything.
I feel bad for saying things like, I dont trust my family, but how can I? I've forgiven them and even accepted that in their eyes, they were just trying to help me. But they still called the police on me.
November 18, 2025 at 9:46 AM
I feel bad for saying things like, I dont trust my family, but how can I? I've forgiven them and even accepted that in their eyes, they were just trying to help me. But they still called the police on me.
genuinely I have not self harmed with this frequency and intensity in my entire life. it's only when dealing with these two. I'm not going to pretend like this isn't happening when it is. I tried cutting for the first time yesterday. I always kept telling myself I'd never do that. Lasted 18 years.
November 18, 2025 at 9:27 AM
genuinely I have not self harmed with this frequency and intensity in my entire life. it's only when dealing with these two. I'm not going to pretend like this isn't happening when it is. I tried cutting for the first time yesterday. I always kept telling myself I'd never do that. Lasted 18 years.
anyways I did also have a big revelation earlier today that I do want to be a lawyer and im passionate about it and I think I could do it. I jusg always felt it was unattainable
November 18, 2025 at 7:41 AM
anyways I did also have a big revelation earlier today that I do want to be a lawyer and im passionate about it and I think I could do it. I jusg always felt it was unattainable
the frustration is going away and. well. its been 21 days...
November 18, 2025 at 5:55 AM
the frustration is going away and. well. its been 21 days...