heathbird
@quixoticpress.bsky.social
queer chronically ill autistic amorphous blob
I never learned how to be funny on the internet
artist afterhours: instagram.com/jaysharps
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I never learned how to be funny on the internet
artist afterhours: instagram.com/jaysharps
they/them
🇨🇦
I am so tired I could cry but we persist. laundry today while my mum gets her nails done bc her machine is less hard on my body, then back to my sweet kitty and a brief death, and then the family obligation train continues. I hate the holidays.
December 23, 2025 at 3:06 PM
I am so tired I could cry but we persist. laundry today while my mum gets her nails done bc her machine is less hard on my body, then back to my sweet kitty and a brief death, and then the family obligation train continues. I hate the holidays.
it's weird to realize why I became such a "I love my room" person when I moved out and got roommates. like fuck no I didn't want to sit in the livingroom, leave me alone. I finally got peace.
December 23, 2025 at 4:49 AM
it's weird to realize why I became such a "I love my room" person when I moved out and got roommates. like fuck no I didn't want to sit in the livingroom, leave me alone. I finally got peace.
maybe I stopped reading books long before the internet ruined my brain. I remember mostly devouring books really young at night, before lights out and continuing after by my night light. if my mum never let me hang out in my room by myself, when would I have had time to continue my reading habit?
December 23, 2025 at 4:41 AM
maybe I stopped reading books long before the internet ruined my brain. I remember mostly devouring books really young at night, before lights out and continuing after by my night light. if my mum never let me hang out in my room by myself, when would I have had time to continue my reading habit?
get back to my mum's apartment and she goes "oh. were you going to sit up here? I was going to sit in the livingroom". girl. woman. we have been together nonstop for a week. are you serious right now. I have to come sit with you some more? I swear to god.
December 23, 2025 at 4:24 AM
get back to my mum's apartment and she goes "oh. were you going to sit up here? I was going to sit in the livingroom". girl. woman. we have been together nonstop for a week. are you serious right now. I have to come sit with you some more? I swear to god.
discovered they board 1st class BEFORE "pre-board & accessibility" on flights and like damn people really do wanna just use their money to feel like Kings who lorde over peasants who have less rights than them. fuck off.
December 22, 2025 at 10:11 PM
discovered they board 1st class BEFORE "pre-board & accessibility" on flights and like damn people really do wanna just use their money to feel like Kings who lorde over peasants who have less rights than them. fuck off.
shopping anywhere with my mother all week can be summarized with a cycle of her going "oh, they have the ladies ones over here" and me going 😒
December 22, 2025 at 6:14 PM
shopping anywhere with my mother all week can be summarized with a cycle of her going "oh, they have the ladies ones over here" and me going 😒
my everything hurts today. my mother said I didn't have to help today & like that better be real is all I'm saying. I better not get guilt tripped on that later. bc I'm not.
December 19, 2025 at 7:38 PM
my everything hurts today. my mother said I didn't have to help today & like that better be real is all I'm saying. I better not get guilt tripped on that later. bc I'm not.
lmao and now there's a snowstorm. okay.
December 17, 2025 at 8:16 PM
lmao and now there's a snowstorm. okay.
I am trying so hard to be helpful and keep going & I'm pretty sure my mum is sick of hearing me talk about it but I am tired, in pain, feel nauseous!! so I keep quietly snapping about random things bc I have no choice but to push through this shit!!! omg!!!
December 17, 2025 at 5:39 PM
I am trying so hard to be helpful and keep going & I'm pretty sure my mum is sick of hearing me talk about it but I am tired, in pain, feel nauseous!! so I keep quietly snapping about random things bc I have no choice but to push through this shit!!! omg!!!
woke up to an email from the social benefits tribunal that my hearing date is May 26th. FIVE MONTHS from now. file under: things I literally do not have the time to fully panic or worry about right now. jesus fucking christ.
December 17, 2025 at 2:18 PM
woke up to an email from the social benefits tribunal that my hearing date is May 26th. FIVE MONTHS from now. file under: things I literally do not have the time to fully panic or worry about right now. jesus fucking christ.
if I die you can find my body somewhere in Alberta where my mother has still not stopped talking.
December 17, 2025 at 12:30 AM
if I die you can find my body somewhere in Alberta where my mother has still not stopped talking.
when you have to set your alarm for 5:15am and your old barista reflexes kick in like you're a sleeper agent so you're out of bed with a cigarette lit & drink in hand in under 10 minutes flat.
December 15, 2025 at 10:27 AM
when you have to set your alarm for 5:15am and your old barista reflexes kick in like you're a sleeper agent so you're out of bed with a cigarette lit & drink in hand in under 10 minutes flat.
sometimes I think about what a freak I am in front of my family while they just kinda let it happen like a passive audience. like I can go on full on rants at full volume & they just sit there patiently nodding, letting it happen. is that love?
December 14, 2025 at 3:42 AM
sometimes I think about what a freak I am in front of my family while they just kinda let it happen like a passive audience. like I can go on full on rants at full volume & they just sit there patiently nodding, letting it happen. is that love?
my brain is scattered in too many places right now. I'm reading airline rules, thinking of getting in the shower, trying to decide what to wear to the opening tonight, trying to decide if I'm going to freeze to death in Alberta, ignoring my stomach rumbling, thinking about a thing I have to mail
December 12, 2025 at 4:27 PM
my brain is scattered in too many places right now. I'm reading airline rules, thinking of getting in the shower, trying to decide what to wear to the opening tonight, trying to decide if I'm going to freeze to death in Alberta, ignoring my stomach rumbling, thinking about a thing I have to mail
I really think getting new glasses would help, or could help, but an eye exam just for a new prescription is like $99 at the cheapest so that's a new year problem. that's a "suddenly there's surprise money in my bank account" problem.
December 12, 2025 at 4:15 AM
I really think getting new glasses would help, or could help, but an eye exam just for a new prescription is like $99 at the cheapest so that's a new year problem. that's a "suddenly there's surprise money in my bank account" problem.
I hate that every time I play pokemon I can feel my Migraine Eye activate & get progressively more Threatening the longer I play, so it's like another stamina bar I have to keep monitoring off screen or else Bad Things could happen.
December 12, 2025 at 4:10 AM
I hate that every time I play pokemon I can feel my Migraine Eye activate & get progressively more Threatening the longer I play, so it's like another stamina bar I have to keep monitoring off screen or else Bad Things could happen.
I understand that eating slices of sourdough dipped in toum & following it up with a bowl of salted edamame is not objectively a "meal", but I think my brain is recalibrating it's list of "safe foods" currently, you see, and this is what we're working with.
December 11, 2025 at 11:41 PM
I understand that eating slices of sourdough dipped in toum & following it up with a bowl of salted edamame is not objectively a "meal", but I think my brain is recalibrating it's list of "safe foods" currently, you see, and this is what we're working with.
got an update they recieved my tribunal appeal. according to their FAQ they have 2 months to book my hearing, but it's often scheduled "several months after you file your appeal". after the hearing, they have another 2 full months to make their decision apparently!! this system hates us. fuck man.
December 11, 2025 at 6:27 PM
got an update they recieved my tribunal appeal. according to their FAQ they have 2 months to book my hearing, but it's often scheduled "several months after you file your appeal". after the hearing, they have another 2 full months to make their decision apparently!! this system hates us. fuck man.
I used to be the "ok no problem I'm on it" guy. the "there's a problem, I'm finding a solution & putting out the fire as we speak" guy. now I'm the "yes ok theoretically I can maybe do that but can we wait for my nervous system to stop stabbing with me swords, possibly in 10-15 business days?" guy.
December 11, 2025 at 6:14 PM
I used to be the "ok no problem I'm on it" guy. the "there's a problem, I'm finding a solution & putting out the fire as we speak" guy. now I'm the "yes ok theoretically I can maybe do that but can we wait for my nervous system to stop stabbing with me swords, possibly in 10-15 business days?" guy.
I really need to do things today but instead I'm fighting with my knees being in pain & spiralling about which pair of boots I should bring to Alberta bc none of them seem technically warm enough & also my brain yelling at me for being bad at being alive.
December 11, 2025 at 6:11 PM
I really need to do things today but instead I'm fighting with my knees being in pain & spiralling about which pair of boots I should bring to Alberta bc none of them seem technically warm enough & also my brain yelling at me for being bad at being alive.
I always thought I would become less neurotic with age, not exponentially more. so that's a fun treat!
December 10, 2025 at 11:09 PM
I always thought I would become less neurotic with age, not exponentially more. so that's a fun treat!
I hate that being so isolated has made my ability to people so much worse. I get overwhelmed by social things so much more now. even answering back multiple dms is like a multi-day process now. and if I want to try to sell art it's like, oh gee. well. you see, that requires STEPS and THINGS.
December 10, 2025 at 10:58 PM
I hate that being so isolated has made my ability to people so much worse. I get overwhelmed by social things so much more now. even answering back multiple dms is like a multi-day process now. and if I want to try to sell art it's like, oh gee. well. you see, that requires STEPS and THINGS.
my neighbours got a new puppy so now my new entertainment is disdainfully judging their total lack of training for their gorgeous lil guy. he doesn't stand a chance.
December 9, 2025 at 12:59 AM
my neighbours got a new puppy so now my new entertainment is disdainfully judging their total lack of training for their gorgeous lil guy. he doesn't stand a chance.
trying very hard not to read into things my father says right now. I know I feel like a burden not just living here & taking up space, but now I'm actually a financial burden, so maybe I'm just overthinking small things.
December 8, 2025 at 4:35 PM
trying very hard not to read into things my father says right now. I know I feel like a burden not just living here & taking up space, but now I'm actually a financial burden, so maybe I'm just overthinking small things.
I fell asleep with my glasses on & slept the entire night with them on? apparently I've reached maximum back sleeping skill level.
December 8, 2025 at 1:53 PM
I fell asleep with my glasses on & slept the entire night with them on? apparently I've reached maximum back sleeping skill level.