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Sam (formerly Barisan Hantu) 🇸🇬🍉
@neuroliminality.bsky.social
AuDHD | Neurodivergent | Neuroliminal
Mainstream and SPED teacher
Chinese Singaporean
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About time to reintroduce myself, especially years of being anon on here! Hi, I'm Sam and I made having autism and ADHD my entire personality. I've been a teacher in mainstream and SPED schools and also worked on education policy over the last 8 years, which is mostly a testament to my ADHD.
Look I actually want to learn how to speak professionally and with empathy but I obviously cannot but the allistics won't explicitly teach me how so
January 2, 2026 at 11:54 AM
If you're autistic, it's kind of impossible to care less. The only way I can think about it is to manage the intensity of caring
December 31, 2025 at 9:44 AM
I need help from other autistic folk to figure out how I can actually make advocacy happen
December 30, 2025 at 3:52 PM
Autistic leadership and advocacy:

Speak loudly. Cause ripples. Get overwhelmed. Hide.

Feel inspired or strongly about something. Rinse and repeat.
December 30, 2025 at 3:27 PM
Realising that I'm not a bad person, just an inexperienced autistic manager, is incredibly liberating
December 30, 2025 at 2:24 PM
There's a special kind of hell in being autistic, knowing I'm doing something wrong socially because I perfectly understand people's reactions, analsying every single thing I did or said for clues and still not knowing what I did wrong
December 30, 2025 at 1:40 PM
A lesson I have learnt many times but can't seem to remember: I *literally* cannot get things done without my meds

Instead of spiraling when I'm stuck, I just have to take my meds!!!
December 26, 2025 at 5:08 AM
My biggest wish would be as an autistic person would probably be to never have meltdowns, but a close second might be having the bandwidth to reply people as much as I wanted to
December 23, 2025 at 5:58 AM
Idk if anyone else has observed or described this relationship but a key factor in autistic burnout for me is getting fascia muscles to relax. I have a lot of fascia muscles that have been locked up and as they relax I can feel my anxiety/depression decrease and my thought become less rigid
December 22, 2025 at 3:01 AM
Trying to regulate your tone as an autistic person involves regulating your nervous systems and consciously thinking about tone in a way that (I think!) is comparable to removing a stutter
December 22, 2025 at 2:04 AM
I feel like there needs to be discussion about emotional permanence for autistic folk especially when you consider familial factors:

Emotions/situations can be feel more permanent to autistic folk, which is reinforced by autistic parents and this deeply affects how we navigate/interpret the world
December 20, 2025 at 9:51 AM
Ambulatory wheelchair users exist 🤨

A personal example is that my wife was in a wheelchair most of the time last year due to an incompetent cervix (hate this term).

Also, an upwards trend in this could also be due to more accessibility, not gaming the system
December 19, 2025 at 1:44 PM
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December 19, 2025 at 5:34 AM
Starting to understand that it's difficult to tell apart the reasons for my restlessness: is it ADHD or a deep dissatisfaction with my life and self?

Lately, I am thinking quite a lot of it is caused by the latter and perhaps ADHD only affects the manifestation of this restlessness
December 19, 2025 at 11:24 AM
At some point there needs to be some meta-research about autistic people who work in roles heavy on social skills and communicaton: influencers, advocates, leadership positions, researchers, PR, marketing etc
December 18, 2025 at 8:15 AM
Organisation for ADHD:

I feel like there usually needs to be some form of stimulation derived from the organisation (E.g gamification) and everything needs to be low effort and probably low on noise/clutter.
December 18, 2025 at 8:06 AM
Sometimes I get frustrated that people still rely on outdated knowledge or refuse to challenge their beliefs then I remember that there are people in the world who sincerely believe the earth is flat and that helps me calibrate my expectations lol
December 17, 2025 at 4:14 PM
"people don't remember what you said or did, they remember how you made them feel"

Autistic people: "I'm so screwed"
December 12, 2025 at 2:02 AM
AuDHD means my brain always wants a puzzle/problem to solve or it gets so bored and restless and this might be the number 1 thing ruining my life because I would just like to relax sometimes!!!
December 5, 2025 at 7:13 AM
I miss feeling connected to the autistic community
November 26, 2025 at 1:38 AM
I feel like when you have both autism and ADHD you end up being a kaleidoscope for people who either see your autism or your ADHD first - they rarely see both
October 21, 2025 at 1:25 PM
The more professional experience I gain, the more I understand why the things I said on twitter often made people mad, no matter how much context I provided
October 7, 2025 at 12:19 PM
I think the best way to describe my personal experience of social situations as an autistic is that it's like moving through a haunted house: groping on the dark, pretty sure none of it matters, still waiting anxiously for the worst to happen
October 3, 2025 at 3:54 AM
I seriously need mentoring for my autistic+adhd working style.

After almost 10 years of work, I'm FINALLY understanding why chasing whatever I want to chase in the most intense fashion ends up sabotaging my career
October 1, 2025 at 1:47 PM
I'm too autistic to understand that trust has nothing to do with truth
September 30, 2025 at 9:52 AM