Nathaniel Hawkins
@nathanielhawkins.bsky.social
Married, mid 50s man w/ a secret feminine side & NSFW account. I wore a dress once & loved it. Fan of lingerie and the word gender-performative. I am here to meet like minded, friendly folks and keep the connections from the other place. He/Him DMs open.
Hey friends.
I am continuing to navigate some personal stuff (dude, again?!) and really appreciate folks being so kind and sympathetic. Sorting out my relationship with those I care about, my identity and how I express it, turns out, isn't easy. Thank you for being such a wonderful community.
I am continuing to navigate some personal stuff (dude, again?!) and really appreciate folks being so kind and sympathetic. Sorting out my relationship with those I care about, my identity and how I express it, turns out, isn't easy. Thank you for being such a wonderful community.
November 12, 2025 at 11:18 PM
Hey friends.
I am continuing to navigate some personal stuff (dude, again?!) and really appreciate folks being so kind and sympathetic. Sorting out my relationship with those I care about, my identity and how I express it, turns out, isn't easy. Thank you for being such a wonderful community.
I am continuing to navigate some personal stuff (dude, again?!) and really appreciate folks being so kind and sympathetic. Sorting out my relationship with those I care about, my identity and how I express it, turns out, isn't easy. Thank you for being such a wonderful community.
Sigh. Being authentic is hard.
There’s no deadline for becoming who you’re meant to be.
Growth takes the time it needs.
You’re allowed to bloom late.
You’re allowed to begin again.
Growth takes the time it needs.
You’re allowed to bloom late.
You’re allowed to begin again.
November 9, 2025 at 6:46 PM
Sigh. Being authentic is hard.
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This really was important to read today. Thank you to all of the kind and sweet people who have been a friend to me.
There’s something healing about being around the people who truly know you.
The ones you don’t have to impress or explain yourself to.
The ones that love you for who you really are.
The ones you don’t have to impress or explain yourself to.
The ones that love you for who you really are.
November 9, 2025 at 6:24 PM
This really was important to read today. Thank you to all of the kind and sweet people who have been a friend to me.
I have been looking at this lovely picture for a while. I'm done looking for the "why" behind my kink but it is still fascinating to me to have such complex thoughts when I see such a beautiful picture of a woman dressed like this.
November 4, 2025 at 4:32 PM
I have been looking at this lovely picture for a while. I'm done looking for the "why" behind my kink but it is still fascinating to me to have such complex thoughts when I see such a beautiful picture of a woman dressed like this.
I have been wondering if I continue down this path, if I'd have the courage to paint my nails and go to work. We will see.
November 3, 2025 at 3:56 PM
I have been wondering if I continue down this path, if I'd have the courage to paint my nails and go to work. We will see.
I just wanna feel my face in the sun
I never really wanted to hurt anyone
Forever only means we had a good run
I never really wanted to hurt anyone
Forever only means we had a good run
November 2, 2025 at 10:34 PM
I just wanna feel my face in the sun
I never really wanted to hurt anyone
Forever only means we had a good run
I never really wanted to hurt anyone
Forever only means we had a good run
NSFW…DON'T CHICKEN OUT. (I do enjoy this stuff!)
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November 2, 2025 at 8:49 PM
NSFW…DON'T CHICKEN OUT. (I do enjoy this stuff!)
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Reposted by Nathaniel Hawkins
For any guys dressing up as women this Halloween “as a joke”, we’ll be here for you when you’re ready.
October 31, 2025 at 11:56 AM
For any guys dressing up as women this Halloween “as a joke”, we’ll be here for you when you’re ready.
Good morning, friends.
I hope folks are doing well. I am hanging in there (I need to find a better way to capture how I feel). Working out personal stuff at home and at the same time, kind of leaning in a bit on my identity more. Got some great feedback on my school work, which was validating.
I hope folks are doing well. I am hanging in there (I need to find a better way to capture how I feel). Working out personal stuff at home and at the same time, kind of leaning in a bit on my identity more. Got some great feedback on my school work, which was validating.
October 29, 2025 at 1:18 PM
Good morning, friends.
I hope folks are doing well. I am hanging in there (I need to find a better way to capture how I feel). Working out personal stuff at home and at the same time, kind of leaning in a bit on my identity more. Got some great feedback on my school work, which was validating.
I hope folks are doing well. I am hanging in there (I need to find a better way to capture how I feel). Working out personal stuff at home and at the same time, kind of leaning in a bit on my identity more. Got some great feedback on my school work, which was validating.
This is impactful.
As someone who’s tried, I can attest that…nope…
2. If love isn't just a feeling, can you make yourself love someone?
October 27, 2025 at 4:35 PM
This is impactful.
Good morning, friends.
My symptoms are 85% gone. Just feeling tired. I took a brisk walk in the cold air today, which seemed like the Appalachian Trail but likely did my lungs good. Now drinking coffee and listening to Ghost. How's your Sunday going?
My symptoms are 85% gone. Just feeling tired. I took a brisk walk in the cold air today, which seemed like the Appalachian Trail but likely did my lungs good. Now drinking coffee and listening to Ghost. How's your Sunday going?
October 26, 2025 at 1:09 PM
Good morning, friends.
My symptoms are 85% gone. Just feeling tired. I took a brisk walk in the cold air today, which seemed like the Appalachian Trail but likely did my lungs good. Now drinking coffee and listening to Ghost. How's your Sunday going?
My symptoms are 85% gone. Just feeling tired. I took a brisk walk in the cold air today, which seemed like the Appalachian Trail but likely did my lungs good. Now drinking coffee and listening to Ghost. How's your Sunday going?
Your boy got COVID again. Round 2 for me. And a week after I got my booster, ironically.
How's your day going?
How's your day going?
October 21, 2025 at 6:13 PM
Your boy got COVID again. Round 2 for me. And a week after I got my booster, ironically.
How's your day going?
How's your day going?
I just learned that @jennthedragonfly.bsky.social passed away last month.
I am so sad to see this. She was such a kind and thoughtful person.
I am so sad to see this. She was such a kind and thoughtful person.
October 18, 2025 at 12:05 AM
I just learned that @jennthedragonfly.bsky.social passed away last month.
I am so sad to see this. She was such a kind and thoughtful person.
I am so sad to see this. She was such a kind and thoughtful person.
I feel like any comparison of this man to Mordor is somehow disrespectful to Mordor.
Reporter: “Do you support ICE?”
Mitch McConnell:
Mitch McConnell:
October 17, 2025 at 11:56 PM
I feel like any comparison of this man to Mordor is somehow disrespectful to Mordor.
Hey folks!
Still here!
I am hanging in there. Still navigating some personal stuff but not as much of a hot mess as I had been earlier this year.
Let's see...what's new? I got new glasses! They are different than what I normally get and make me feel hip.
What else...
Ask me stuff?
Still here!
I am hanging in there. Still navigating some personal stuff but not as much of a hot mess as I had been earlier this year.
Let's see...what's new? I got new glasses! They are different than what I normally get and make me feel hip.
What else...
Ask me stuff?
October 9, 2025 at 7:32 PM
Hey folks!
Still here!
I am hanging in there. Still navigating some personal stuff but not as much of a hot mess as I had been earlier this year.
Let's see...what's new? I got new glasses! They are different than what I normally get and make me feel hip.
What else...
Ask me stuff?
Still here!
I am hanging in there. Still navigating some personal stuff but not as much of a hot mess as I had been earlier this year.
Let's see...what's new? I got new glasses! They are different than what I normally get and make me feel hip.
What else...
Ask me stuff?
"All you had to do was to get a taste of it was to risk being your true self"
Been thinking about authenticity a lot, lately.
Been thinking about authenticity a lot, lately.
October 5, 2025 at 2:27 AM
"All you had to do was to get a taste of it was to risk being your true self"
Been thinking about authenticity a lot, lately.
Been thinking about authenticity a lot, lately.
I love the spirit of this.
October 2, 2025 at 3:26 PM
I love the spirit of this.
I saw this for the first time live a year ago. I'm sure it had some formative influence on my specific prediliction but gosh, it's so much fun.
The Rocky Horror Picture Show opened on US screens 50 years ago today. Initially a major box office bomb, cult cinema outsiders and queer audiences quickly took up the film’s mantle and turned it into a unique and exciting way of engaging with the movies. Remember kids, don’t dream it—be it!!
September 27, 2025 at 7:03 PM
I saw this for the first time live a year ago. I'm sure it had some formative influence on my specific prediliction but gosh, it's so much fun.
Reposted by Nathaniel Hawkins
Take a deep breath & repeat after me:
I am powerful
I am strong
I will get through this
I will find my smile again
I am doing enough
...because I am enough just as I am
I am wonderful
I am kind
I am me & that's all I want to be
You did amazing, lovely. And always remember: I believe in you. 🖤
I am powerful
I am strong
I will get through this
I will find my smile again
I am doing enough
...because I am enough just as I am
I am wonderful
I am kind
I am me & that's all I want to be
You did amazing, lovely. And always remember: I believe in you. 🖤
September 15, 2025 at 6:45 PM
Take a deep breath & repeat after me:
I am powerful
I am strong
I will get through this
I will find my smile again
I am doing enough
...because I am enough just as I am
I am wonderful
I am kind
I am me & that's all I want to be
You did amazing, lovely. And always remember: I believe in you. 🖤
I am powerful
I am strong
I will get through this
I will find my smile again
I am doing enough
...because I am enough just as I am
I am wonderful
I am kind
I am me & that's all I want to be
You did amazing, lovely. And always remember: I believe in you. 🖤
This was a disappointing day.
Those who know me know that camo cargo shorts are kind of my uniform from May-September. Additionally, what folks call "chub rub" takes a toll. Farewell, old friend.
Those who know me know that camo cargo shorts are kind of my uniform from May-September. Additionally, what folks call "chub rub" takes a toll. Farewell, old friend.
September 14, 2025 at 8:37 PM
This was a disappointing day.
Those who know me know that camo cargo shorts are kind of my uniform from May-September. Additionally, what folks call "chub rub" takes a toll. Farewell, old friend.
Those who know me know that camo cargo shorts are kind of my uniform from May-September. Additionally, what folks call "chub rub" takes a toll. Farewell, old friend.
I was struck today at how emotional I was acknowledging today's anniversary. It's always is sad but I really was upset about it all today. Hang in there, friends.
Be kind to yourselves today. That’s all you need to do. ❤️🖤
September 11, 2025 at 2:06 PM
I was struck today at how emotional I was acknowledging today's anniversary. It's always is sad but I really was upset about it all today. Hang in there, friends.
Umm...
4. When did you come to terms with your sexuality?
September 9, 2025 at 12:18 AM
Umm...
This spoke to me.
Reskeeting with alt text
August 30, 2025 at 10:53 PM
This spoke to me.
Reposted by Nathaniel Hawkins
as someone who’s been called too sensitive their entire life, I just wanted to share that sometimes it also sounds like this:
‘you’re reading too much into it.’
‘of course they didn’t mean it like that.’
‘that’s just how things are.’
‘it’s easier to keep the peace.’
‘you’re being dramatic.’
‘you’re reading too much into it.’
‘of course they didn’t mean it like that.’
‘that’s just how things are.’
‘it’s easier to keep the peace.’
‘you’re being dramatic.’
August 27, 2025 at 9:11 PM
as someone who’s been called too sensitive their entire life, I just wanted to share that sometimes it also sounds like this:
‘you’re reading too much into it.’
‘of course they didn’t mean it like that.’
‘that’s just how things are.’
‘it’s easier to keep the peace.’
‘you’re being dramatic.’
‘you’re reading too much into it.’
‘of course they didn’t mean it like that.’
‘that’s just how things are.’
‘it’s easier to keep the peace.’
‘you’re being dramatic.’