I've done something horrible. But I can't redeem myself, I can't be forgiven. Such an easily avoidable mistake, how can I live with myself? I knew better, and I fucked it up anyway. I don't want to bother others with my problems, it was my fuck up, I have to deal with it. Live with it.

(CW: suicide)

(CW: accurate self thoughts, deserved self harm)

(CW: Violence, suicide, whatever...)

My evil ex-step sister is still out there in the world. Being happy. Fucking bitch. I hope she dies in a awful and painful way. Neo nazi psycho.

Why do evil people get to be happy?!

What's even the point? I only have one or two people in the world that actually care at all about me.

Why does everyone else hate me?

But why even bother dying? Won't even make a difference anyway. I'm not important, I'm just another loser on the internet.

I AM SMART ACTUALLY!

(CW: I don't even know. It's just upsetting, don't look at it.)

My friend draws so beautifully. With such ease too. I cannot pretend I'm not jealous or... envious? I dunno the difference. But everyone always gets so angry and pissed off at me when I comment on how much better he is than me. How much better they all are.

I fucking hate straight people.
I HATE religious people.

How come they get to kill people like me is mass and I'm not allowed to hate them?! I HATE THEM!

vent art 2 cause i got feeling bad again. don't feel bad for me, I'm doing that already.

(CW: bad words)

vent art. (CW: violence, gore, blood)