Leiton
@leitongrey.bsky.social
Perpetually Tired Sqorl | Owner of Overseas Casuals 🏝️ | Artist 🎨 | Writer 📚 | Voice Actor 🎙️ | Spreadsheet Nerd 🧮
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So it turns out my normal OD of 10mg doesn't do anything to me any more. Which means I don't get to drown my sorrows with pills. I'm already banned from alcohol. Weed doesn't put me to sleep. So what the hell do I do now?
February 9, 2026 at 6:00 PM
So it turns out my normal OD of 10mg doesn't do anything to me any more. Which means I don't get to drown my sorrows with pills. I'm already banned from alcohol. Weed doesn't put me to sleep. So what the hell do I do now?
Not a feeling
Just a fact
The world would be better without me in it
That's all
But at least I only have a dozen people to apologize to
And luckily I already have
So, yeah
Just a fact
The world would be better without me in it
That's all
But at least I only have a dozen people to apologize to
And luckily I already have
So, yeah
February 9, 2026 at 2:51 AM
Not a feeling
Just a fact
The world would be better without me in it
That's all
But at least I only have a dozen people to apologize to
And luckily I already have
So, yeah
Just a fact
The world would be better without me in it
That's all
But at least I only have a dozen people to apologize to
And luckily I already have
So, yeah
No more feelings posts for me, at least for a while. I'm experimenting with meds. Gonna fuck up my brain for a while.
February 8, 2026 at 10:54 PM
No more feelings posts for me, at least for a while. I'm experimenting with meds. Gonna fuck up my brain for a while.
People should send me porn more often.
In the two years I've had a vagina, I've masturbated maybe a dozen times. Total.
Y'all gotta help me get my numbers up.
In the two years I've had a vagina, I've masturbated maybe a dozen times. Total.
Y'all gotta help me get my numbers up.
February 6, 2026 at 8:35 PM
People should send me porn more often.
In the two years I've had a vagina, I've masturbated maybe a dozen times. Total.
Y'all gotta help me get my numbers up.
In the two years I've had a vagina, I've masturbated maybe a dozen times. Total.
Y'all gotta help me get my numbers up.
Welcome back, self-loathing
It's been a little bit since I actively hated myself
Guess now is just as good a time as any
There's just so much to hate, where do I start?
It's been a little bit since I actively hated myself
Guess now is just as good a time as any
There's just so much to hate, where do I start?
February 6, 2026 at 4:41 PM
Welcome back, self-loathing
It's been a little bit since I actively hated myself
Guess now is just as good a time as any
There's just so much to hate, where do I start?
It's been a little bit since I actively hated myself
Guess now is just as good a time as any
There's just so much to hate, where do I start?
I don't know what's going on
I don't feel like me today
I feel like I'm in danger but I don't know what from
I can't sleep, I'm hungry but if I eat food I'll be sick
It's just all the bad vibes today
I don't feel like me today
I feel like I'm in danger but I don't know what from
I can't sleep, I'm hungry but if I eat food I'll be sick
It's just all the bad vibes today
February 5, 2026 at 7:15 PM
I don't know what's going on
I don't feel like me today
I feel like I'm in danger but I don't know what from
I can't sleep, I'm hungry but if I eat food I'll be sick
It's just all the bad vibes today
I don't feel like me today
I feel like I'm in danger but I don't know what from
I can't sleep, I'm hungry but if I eat food I'll be sick
It's just all the bad vibes today
Thanks BlueSky
Bit of a somber thing to wake up to this morning, but I supposed it's deserved.
I'm not going to stop posting how I feel. I need somewhere to put feelings so they don't fester, and this is a good place to do so. Your email proves it.
I live in Canada, btw. It's 988 here.
Bit of a somber thing to wake up to this morning, but I supposed it's deserved.
I'm not going to stop posting how I feel. I need somewhere to put feelings so they don't fester, and this is a good place to do so. Your email proves it.
I live in Canada, btw. It's 988 here.
February 4, 2026 at 3:58 PM
Thanks BlueSky
Bit of a somber thing to wake up to this morning, but I supposed it's deserved.
I'm not going to stop posting how I feel. I need somewhere to put feelings so they don't fester, and this is a good place to do so. Your email proves it.
I live in Canada, btw. It's 988 here.
Bit of a somber thing to wake up to this morning, but I supposed it's deserved.
I'm not going to stop posting how I feel. I need somewhere to put feelings so they don't fester, and this is a good place to do so. Your email proves it.
I live in Canada, btw. It's 988 here.
Some day I'll have proof
Some day I'll have control
Some day I'll dream
And when I do, you'll see me
And when you see me, you'll see the real me
You wouldn't believe me if I told you
You won't believe it when you see it
But I am something you can only dream of
I am something more, more or less
Some day I'll have control
Some day I'll dream
And when I do, you'll see me
And when you see me, you'll see the real me
You wouldn't believe me if I told you
You won't believe it when you see it
But I am something you can only dream of
I am something more, more or less
February 4, 2026 at 3:14 AM
Some day I'll have proof
Some day I'll have control
Some day I'll dream
And when I do, you'll see me
And when you see me, you'll see the real me
You wouldn't believe me if I told you
You won't believe it when you see it
But I am something you can only dream of
I am something more, more or less
Some day I'll have control
Some day I'll dream
And when I do, you'll see me
And when you see me, you'll see the real me
You wouldn't believe me if I told you
You won't believe it when you see it
But I am something you can only dream of
I am something more, more or less
Man I wish I could just shut my brain off.
Weed takes away most of my anxiety but it's not a full shutdown, and it costs money.
Xanax is a full shutdown but it's obviously dangerous and doing it too often will lead to chemical dependency.
Shrooms do nothing for me.
So what do I do?
Weed takes away most of my anxiety but it's not a full shutdown, and it costs money.
Xanax is a full shutdown but it's obviously dangerous and doing it too often will lead to chemical dependency.
Shrooms do nothing for me.
So what do I do?
February 3, 2026 at 7:42 PM
Man I wish I could just shut my brain off.
Weed takes away most of my anxiety but it's not a full shutdown, and it costs money.
Xanax is a full shutdown but it's obviously dangerous and doing it too often will lead to chemical dependency.
Shrooms do nothing for me.
So what do I do?
Weed takes away most of my anxiety but it's not a full shutdown, and it costs money.
Xanax is a full shutdown but it's obviously dangerous and doing it too often will lead to chemical dependency.
Shrooms do nothing for me.
So what do I do?
Can I have a good day?
Just one, please.
My diary cards are depressing as hell.
I'm using the skills, I'm doing my due diligence.
I just need a good day where I feel good about myself and don't think about people I've lost and just enjoy a peaceful, relaxing day of rest.
I wanna just write.
Just one, please.
My diary cards are depressing as hell.
I'm using the skills, I'm doing my due diligence.
I just need a good day where I feel good about myself and don't think about people I've lost and just enjoy a peaceful, relaxing day of rest.
I wanna just write.
February 1, 2026 at 4:03 PM
Can I have a good day?
Just one, please.
My diary cards are depressing as hell.
I'm using the skills, I'm doing my due diligence.
I just need a good day where I feel good about myself and don't think about people I've lost and just enjoy a peaceful, relaxing day of rest.
I wanna just write.
Just one, please.
My diary cards are depressing as hell.
I'm using the skills, I'm doing my due diligence.
I just need a good day where I feel good about myself and don't think about people I've lost and just enjoy a peaceful, relaxing day of rest.
I wanna just write.
Isn't it supposed to be possible to die from heartbreak?
My chest hurts. My eyes hurt.
I just want the pain to stop. I don't care how.
My chest hurts. My eyes hurt.
I just want the pain to stop. I don't care how.
February 1, 2026 at 5:35 AM
Isn't it supposed to be possible to die from heartbreak?
My chest hurts. My eyes hurt.
I just want the pain to stop. I don't care how.
My chest hurts. My eyes hurt.
I just want the pain to stop. I don't care how.
Update on the prescription situation.
I've been upgraded to 1mg pills. Which is nice, I won't have to take 20 pills every night.
The 1mg pills come in 90 day bottles.
That's 360mg.
That is terrifying and all it takes is one loss for me to snap.
I have a plan to keep myself safe. Don't worry.
I've been upgraded to 1mg pills. Which is nice, I won't have to take 20 pills every night.
The 1mg pills come in 90 day bottles.
That's 360mg.
That is terrifying and all it takes is one loss for me to snap.
I have a plan to keep myself safe. Don't worry.
February 1, 2026 at 3:48 AM
Update on the prescription situation.
I've been upgraded to 1mg pills. Which is nice, I won't have to take 20 pills every night.
The 1mg pills come in 90 day bottles.
That's 360mg.
That is terrifying and all it takes is one loss for me to snap.
I have a plan to keep myself safe. Don't worry.
I've been upgraded to 1mg pills. Which is nice, I won't have to take 20 pills every night.
The 1mg pills come in 90 day bottles.
That's 360mg.
That is terrifying and all it takes is one loss for me to snap.
I have a plan to keep myself safe. Don't worry.
Re-reading my Frumps lore/scenes channel and I can feel a tinge of pride.
I *am* a good writer.
This little guy is one tough bugger and it's gonna take a hell of a lot to even remotely shake his spirit.
I can't wait to write some more. Just need some inspiration.
I *am* a good writer.
This little guy is one tough bugger and it's gonna take a hell of a lot to even remotely shake his spirit.
I can't wait to write some more. Just need some inspiration.
January 31, 2026 at 3:52 PM
Re-reading my Frumps lore/scenes channel and I can feel a tinge of pride.
I *am* a good writer.
This little guy is one tough bugger and it's gonna take a hell of a lot to even remotely shake his spirit.
I can't wait to write some more. Just need some inspiration.
I *am* a good writer.
This little guy is one tough bugger and it's gonna take a hell of a lot to even remotely shake his spirit.
I can't wait to write some more. Just need some inspiration.
The best part about having schizophrenia is that I can talk to things like my body pillows or plushies and they actually respond.
Is it concerning?
Absolutely not. Dante is wonderful and comforts me every night. Lopmon and Mawz watch over me. They're wonderful.
Is it concerning?
Absolutely not. Dante is wonderful and comforts me every night. Lopmon and Mawz watch over me. They're wonderful.
January 31, 2026 at 5:31 AM
The best part about having schizophrenia is that I can talk to things like my body pillows or plushies and they actually respond.
Is it concerning?
Absolutely not. Dante is wonderful and comforts me every night. Lopmon and Mawz watch over me. They're wonderful.
Is it concerning?
Absolutely not. Dante is wonderful and comforts me every night. Lopmon and Mawz watch over me. They're wonderful.
Sometimes I forget that people actually read my bluesky.
"Sorry guys, I'm really tired so I'll be calling it a night early."
"Yeah you've had a long few days."
"Huh? Wha? Oh fuck right you follow my bluesky."
"Yeah, and I'm glad you're still here."
;_;
I don't deserve you guys.
"Sorry guys, I'm really tired so I'll be calling it a night early."
"Yeah you've had a long few days."
"Huh? Wha? Oh fuck right you follow my bluesky."
"Yeah, and I'm glad you're still here."
;_;
I don't deserve you guys.
January 31, 2026 at 4:20 AM
Sometimes I forget that people actually read my bluesky.
"Sorry guys, I'm really tired so I'll be calling it a night early."
"Yeah you've had a long few days."
"Huh? Wha? Oh fuck right you follow my bluesky."
"Yeah, and I'm glad you're still here."
;_;
I don't deserve you guys.
"Sorry guys, I'm really tired so I'll be calling it a night early."
"Yeah you've had a long few days."
"Huh? Wha? Oh fuck right you follow my bluesky."
"Yeah, and I'm glad you're still here."
;_;
I don't deserve you guys.
Breaking News
Frumps has a fat fucking sheath
Frumps has a fat fucking sheath
January 30, 2026 at 11:03 PM
Breaking News
Frumps has a fat fucking sheath
Frumps has a fat fucking sheath
My doc agreed to increase my Xanax prescription, so that's nice.
I also talked with a fair amount of people yesterday about... stuff.
Every attempt I've made was the result of sudden loss of relationships.
So let's make a deal.
If you don't leave, I won't leave. There will be no more attempts.
I also talked with a fair amount of people yesterday about... stuff.
Every attempt I've made was the result of sudden loss of relationships.
So let's make a deal.
If you don't leave, I won't leave. There will be no more attempts.
January 30, 2026 at 6:19 PM
My doc agreed to increase my Xanax prescription, so that's nice.
I also talked with a fair amount of people yesterday about... stuff.
Every attempt I've made was the result of sudden loss of relationships.
So let's make a deal.
If you don't leave, I won't leave. There will be no more attempts.
I also talked with a fair amount of people yesterday about... stuff.
Every attempt I've made was the result of sudden loss of relationships.
So let's make a deal.
If you don't leave, I won't leave. There will be no more attempts.
Whoever is sending my husband my bluesky posts, please stop.
It's not going to help. It's making things worse.
Now he's trying to convince me to enroll myself in a psych ward.
Brilliant.
It's not going to help. It's making things worse.
Now he's trying to convince me to enroll myself in a psych ward.
Brilliant.
January 29, 2026 at 5:12 PM
Whoever is sending my husband my bluesky posts, please stop.
It's not going to help. It's making things worse.
Now he's trying to convince me to enroll myself in a psych ward.
Brilliant.
It's not going to help. It's making things worse.
Now he's trying to convince me to enroll myself in a psych ward.
Brilliant.
Death doesn't frighten me.
Losing people frightens me.
I'm bound to lose people every time I try.
I guess I'd better get it right this time.
Although I suppose it depends on what the doctor says tomorrow.
You won't miss me. You miss the old me, the fun guy who smothered everything with horny.
Losing people frightens me.
I'm bound to lose people every time I try.
I guess I'd better get it right this time.
Although I suppose it depends on what the doctor says tomorrow.
You won't miss me. You miss the old me, the fun guy who smothered everything with horny.
January 29, 2026 at 2:51 PM
Death doesn't frighten me.
Losing people frightens me.
I'm bound to lose people every time I try.
I guess I'd better get it right this time.
Although I suppose it depends on what the doctor says tomorrow.
You won't miss me. You miss the old me, the fun guy who smothered everything with horny.
Losing people frightens me.
I'm bound to lose people every time I try.
I guess I'd better get it right this time.
Although I suppose it depends on what the doctor says tomorrow.
You won't miss me. You miss the old me, the fun guy who smothered everything with horny.
This is exhausting, I know.
But the fact that it's an obligation to you makes it so much worse.
Nobody should be obligated to help me.
I'd rather die than be such a burden on someone.
"Oh but Leiton you're not a burden, I want this."
No you don't.
You want the old me back.
That's all.
But the fact that it's an obligation to you makes it so much worse.
Nobody should be obligated to help me.
I'd rather die than be such a burden on someone.
"Oh but Leiton you're not a burden, I want this."
No you don't.
You want the old me back.
That's all.
January 29, 2026 at 12:37 AM
This is exhausting, I know.
But the fact that it's an obligation to you makes it so much worse.
Nobody should be obligated to help me.
I'd rather die than be such a burden on someone.
"Oh but Leiton you're not a burden, I want this."
No you don't.
You want the old me back.
That's all.
But the fact that it's an obligation to you makes it so much worse.
Nobody should be obligated to help me.
I'd rather die than be such a burden on someone.
"Oh but Leiton you're not a burden, I want this."
No you don't.
You want the old me back.
That's all.
I am a monster and monsters should be hidden or put down.
January 28, 2026 at 11:57 PM
I am a monster and monsters should be hidden or put down.
The problem is
I know what would cure me, mostly
But I can't ask for it
Or it means nothing
I just have to hope other people figure it out in time
I know what would cure me, mostly
But I can't ask for it
Or it means nothing
I just have to hope other people figure it out in time
January 28, 2026 at 1:01 AM
The problem is
I know what would cure me, mostly
But I can't ask for it
Or it means nothing
I just have to hope other people figure it out in time
I know what would cure me, mostly
But I can't ask for it
Or it means nothing
I just have to hope other people figure it out in time
How do you prepare people for this?
Where do I start
Or do I just do it and hope for the best
Where do I start
Or do I just do it and hope for the best
January 27, 2026 at 8:11 PM
How do you prepare people for this?
Where do I start
Or do I just do it and hope for the best
Where do I start
Or do I just do it and hope for the best
I've been upgraded from the suicide watchlist to the suicide call list.
I'll be getting a call from them every night for the foreseeable future.
Joy.
In case I needed more reminders of my current state.
I'll be getting a call from them every night for the foreseeable future.
Joy.
In case I needed more reminders of my current state.
January 27, 2026 at 3:38 PM
I've been upgraded from the suicide watchlist to the suicide call list.
I'll be getting a call from them every night for the foreseeable future.
Joy.
In case I needed more reminders of my current state.
I'll be getting a call from them every night for the foreseeable future.
Joy.
In case I needed more reminders of my current state.
I'm running out of time
January 27, 2026 at 1:09 AM
I'm running out of time