ellie
@kittycatbapzone.bsky.social
she/her | 27 | 🏳️⚧️ | 🔞 | occasional venting
today was really lonely
December 26, 2025 at 2:25 AM
today was really lonely
watching christmas movies alone feels really weird :/
December 25, 2025 at 6:28 PM
watching christmas movies alone feels really weird :/
i'm just a failure
December 21, 2025 at 1:48 PM
i'm just a failure
kinda hate how my brain's trying to say that something's understandable and not too bad when neither of those are true
everyone makes their own decisions. it's a choice to disrespect someone's boundaries. there's nothing understandable about it. it is awful to do that
everyone makes their own decisions. it's a choice to disrespect someone's boundaries. there's nothing understandable about it. it is awful to do that
December 14, 2025 at 3:50 PM
kinda hate how my brain's trying to say that something's understandable and not too bad when neither of those are true
everyone makes their own decisions. it's a choice to disrespect someone's boundaries. there's nothing understandable about it. it is awful to do that
everyone makes their own decisions. it's a choice to disrespect someone's boundaries. there's nothing understandable about it. it is awful to do that
the constant little desire to have overalls
December 9, 2025 at 6:14 PM
the constant little desire to have overalls
i wish that i could hug my mom or something right now
December 7, 2025 at 2:59 AM
i wish that i could hug my mom or something right now
ngl i kinda thought that the 'physically incapable of getting words out' thing was something i just imagined when i was younger and i was just scared from being bullied, but. turns out that it is a thing
December 6, 2025 at 10:14 PM
ngl i kinda thought that the 'physically incapable of getting words out' thing was something i just imagined when i was younger and i was just scared from being bullied, but. turns out that it is a thing
i wonder if it'd be considered weird to ask friends to watch christmas movies with me for like. some kind of movie nights
December 5, 2025 at 8:41 PM
i wonder if it'd be considered weird to ask friends to watch christmas movies with me for like. some kind of movie nights
i have a very fake "i'm fine" feeling inside of me and it's making me feel uncomfy because i know i'm not fine but it's like my brain's trying to push me forward to go about things normally
December 5, 2025 at 7:24 AM
i have a very fake "i'm fine" feeling inside of me and it's making me feel uncomfy because i know i'm not fine but it's like my brain's trying to push me forward to go about things normally
ive been trying to mentally prepare myself for dinner with my girlfriends parents all day but its an hour and half and i dont think that im going to be able to handle being looked at
November 28, 2025 at 11:31 PM
ive been trying to mentally prepare myself for dinner with my girlfriends parents all day but its an hour and half and i dont think that im going to be able to handle being looked at
i really need to get high or something
November 26, 2025 at 4:50 PM
i really need to get high or something
something that feels really gross is having past relationship experiences that were really bad and getting stuck with a feeling that you're being taken advantage of for something
i always feel like i'm an asshole when something makes me feel anxious and wish that it wouldn't happen
i always feel like i'm an asshole when something makes me feel anxious and wish that it wouldn't happen
November 26, 2025 at 1:44 AM
something that feels really gross is having past relationship experiences that were really bad and getting stuck with a feeling that you're being taken advantage of for something
i always feel like i'm an asshole when something makes me feel anxious and wish that it wouldn't happen
i always feel like i'm an asshole when something makes me feel anxious and wish that it wouldn't happen
that gas station chicken mixed with the bumpy roads of indiana and ohio WILL kill you
(insert puppy flopping down stairs and exploding gif)
(insert puppy flopping down stairs and exploding gif)
November 25, 2025 at 2:20 AM
that gas station chicken mixed with the bumpy roads of indiana and ohio WILL kill you
(insert puppy flopping down stairs and exploding gif)
(insert puppy flopping down stairs and exploding gif)
the realization that i'm moving out is really hitting me hard
November 24, 2025 at 2:42 AM
the realization that i'm moving out is really hitting me hard
getting bank stuff fixed
thankfully it looks like it'll not take too long and will be relatively easy to take care of
thankfully it looks like it'll not take too long and will be relatively easy to take care of
November 22, 2025 at 3:47 PM
getting bank stuff fixed
thankfully it looks like it'll not take too long and will be relatively easy to take care of
thankfully it looks like it'll not take too long and will be relatively easy to take care of
WHY IS MY BANK ACCOUNT IN THE NEGATIVES
I HAVEN'T USED MY CARD SINCE LAST MONTH
WHAT THE FUCK IS BEING CHARGED
I HAVEN'T USED MY CARD SINCE LAST MONTH
WHAT THE FUCK IS BEING CHARGED
November 21, 2025 at 11:45 PM
WHY IS MY BANK ACCOUNT IN THE NEGATIVES
I HAVEN'T USED MY CARD SINCE LAST MONTH
WHAT THE FUCK IS BEING CHARGED
I HAVEN'T USED MY CARD SINCE LAST MONTH
WHAT THE FUCK IS BEING CHARGED
jesus christ the payment's getting declined for the truck
November 21, 2025 at 8:46 PM
jesus christ the payment's getting declined for the truck
Reposted by ellie
sometimes a girl randomly wakes up and realizes that she barked when hearing the word "speak"
November 20, 2025 at 1:06 PM
sometimes a girl randomly wakes up and realizes that she barked when hearing the word "speak"
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need a doggy bed that i can circle around before curling up in
November 18, 2025 at 5:43 AM
need a doggy bed that i can circle around before curling up in
i need to be talked down to like a pathetic animal so badly
November 11, 2025 at 9:42 AM
i need to be talked down to like a pathetic animal so badly
randomly thought about a girl tying up my hands and feet before proceeding to kick and step on me, and i'm now dripping like crazy
November 11, 2025 at 9:38 AM
randomly thought about a girl tying up my hands and feet before proceeding to kick and step on me, and i'm now dripping like crazy