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· Feb 20
i ♡ pompompurin
i might just be the unlucky charm of this family because those are the greatest people i know yet they keep on being forced to live through hell dealing with terrible circumstances and evil people and i feel like somehow I'm the source of all that's bad
August 24, 2025 at 7:40 AM
i might just be the unlucky charm of this family because those are the greatest people i know yet they keep on being forced to live through hell dealing with terrible circumstances and evil people and i feel like somehow I'm the source of all that's bad
not kidding when i say that i might actually decide to end myself soon living was not made for me and it's becoming more and more apparent with each day idk how to even describe this feeling i know with my entire body and soul that i have to escape
August 24, 2025 at 7:27 AM
not kidding when i say that i might actually decide to end myself soon living was not made for me and it's becoming more and more apparent with each day idk how to even describe this feeling i know with my entire body and soul that i have to escape
haven't been this suicidal in years icl
August 23, 2025 at 7:03 AM
haven't been this suicidal in years icl
she's gone and idk if my brain fully processed it just yet
August 5, 2025 at 2:42 PM
she's gone and idk if my brain fully processed it just yet
woke up to her getting up to get food and water on her own cleaning herself and even playing with my headphones and her chestnut toy a little which makes me both happy and sad
August 3, 2025 at 12:37 PM
woke up to her getting up to get food and water on her own cleaning herself and even playing with my headphones and her chestnut toy a little which makes me both happy and sad
since i kind of get to pick the date of her passing I've been trying to settle for the most meaningful number but i just dk
August 2, 2025 at 11:05 PM
since i kind of get to pick the date of her passing I've been trying to settle for the most meaningful number but i just dk
I've been trying to control my crying by watching silly stuff that makes me laugh bc crying non stop every day and night already gave me a migraine but for some reason i feel guilty when i laugh i feel like a bad person for being able to disconnect at a time like this
August 1, 2025 at 7:36 AM
I've been trying to control my crying by watching silly stuff that makes me laugh bc crying non stop every day and night already gave me a migraine but for some reason i feel guilty when i laugh i feel like a bad person for being able to disconnect at a time like this
if i had the money I'd get all the memorabilia thalt they're selling at the cremation centre but i can barely afford the cremation itself n thr bank won't let me takr a loan like i can't even get her a proper urn rn bc of how expensive the daily vet visits are
July 31, 2025 at 11:12 PM
if i had the money I'd get all the memorabilia thalt they're selling at the cremation centre but i can barely afford the cremation itself n thr bank won't let me takr a loan like i can't even get her a proper urn rn bc of how expensive the daily vet visits are
i wapnt to get one of thosr voice boxes thst they put in plushies fill it with recordings of my sunshines lil noises n put it in my childhood teddy but ones tht support digital audio so hard to come by....
July 31, 2025 at 11:06 PM
i wapnt to get one of thosr voice boxes thst they put in plushies fill it with recordings of my sunshines lil noises n put it in my childhood teddy but ones tht support digital audio so hard to come by....
don't have the time to order a paw print kit so I just made some salt dough but nowi need to find a way to seal it to make itlast forever n not mold also idk how to get a 2d paw print asap and i need to get it tattooed
July 31, 2025 at 11:03 PM
don't have the time to order a paw print kit so I just made some salt dough but nowi need to find a way to seal it to make itlast forever n not mold also idk how to get a 2d paw print asap and i need to get it tattooed
this is truly the worst thing to ever happen to me up until now and going forward i wholeheartedly believe that this is the biggest tragedy i personally could possibly ever go through losing her is my biggest nightmare unavoidably coming to life and i fear that I'm not even at peak heartbreak rn
July 31, 2025 at 4:56 PM
this is truly the worst thing to ever happen to me up until now and going forward i wholeheartedly believe that this is the biggest tragedy i personally could possibly ever go through losing her is my biggest nightmare unavoidably coming to life and i fear that I'm not even at peak heartbreak rn
we're gonna have to put her down probably next week ish I've been preparing for this very moment 2 whole years and it still feels unreal what do you mean one day she'll just stop existing forever
July 31, 2025 at 4:49 PM
we're gonna have to put her down probably next week ish I've been preparing for this very moment 2 whole years and it still feels unreal what do you mean one day she'll just stop existing forever
she doesn't feel like eating but her breathing got better she purrs when i pet her n shes been drinking a good amount of water n finally got up to go to the litterbox which is honestly such a relief it means that at least her kidneys are still doing their job
July 30, 2025 at 9:09 PM
she doesn't feel like eating but her breathing got better she purrs when i pet her n shes been drinking a good amount of water n finally got up to go to the litterbox which is honestly such a relief it means that at least her kidneys are still doing their job
she's so strong n brave
July 30, 2025 at 8:28 PM
she's so strong n brave
thw urge to stress eat
July 30, 2025 at 4:45 PM
thw urge to stress eat
i hope that when the day comes i won't have to once again argue about whether i should or shouldn't cremate her idc how stupid people find it the same way they always visit their loved ones graves i can't imagine moving across the world one day without her by my side i just can't
July 30, 2025 at 3:02 PM
i hope that when the day comes i won't have to once again argue about whether i should or shouldn't cremate her idc how stupid people find it the same way they always visit their loved ones graves i can't imagine moving across the world one day without her by my side i just can't
i have to take her there again tomorrow for more tests but overall she's in a bad shape knowing for 2 years that your best friend could get worse at any moment and you might have to make the decision to put her down doesn't help whatsoever no matter how long you've got u just can't prepare for it
and now i have to wait 6 more hours while she's at the vet to find out if she's okay literally all i want rn is ti die
i have to wait 4 more hours for the vet clinic to open with the knowledge that those might be thw last 4 hours i get to spend with her i feel sick
July 30, 2025 at 2:59 PM
i have to take her there again tomorrow for more tests but overall she's in a bad shape knowing for 2 years that your best friend could get worse at any moment and you might have to make the decision to put her down doesn't help whatsoever no matter how long you've got u just can't prepare for it
one thing that I've always hoped for was that i would find my forever partner before my cat passes so that I'd have someone to reminisce with someone who i wouldn't have to explain to just how precious she is cause they'd know it first hand someone that i could share the memory of her forever
July 30, 2025 at 8:23 AM
one thing that I've always hoped for was that i would find my forever partner before my cat passes so that I'd have someone to reminisce with someone who i wouldn't have to explain to just how precious she is cause they'd know it first hand someone that i could share the memory of her forever
I'm in agonising amounts of sadness
July 30, 2025 at 8:18 AM
I'm in agonising amounts of sadness
i hate the fact that everything around keeps on moving the world just keeps spinning regardless
July 30, 2025 at 8:03 AM
i hate the fact that everything around keeps on moving the world just keeps spinning regardless
and now i have to wait 6 more hours while she's at the vet to find out if she's okay literally all i want rn is ti die
i have to wait 4 more hours for the vet clinic to open with the knowledge that those might be thw last 4 hours i get to spend with her i feel sick
July 30, 2025 at 7:51 AM
and now i have to wait 6 more hours while she's at the vet to find out if she's okay literally all i want rn is ti die
i have to wait 4 more hours for the vet clinic to open with the knowledge that those might be thw last 4 hours i get to spend with her i feel sick
July 30, 2025 at 1:52 AM
i have to wait 4 more hours for the vet clinic to open with the knowledge that those might be thw last 4 hours i get to spend with her i feel sick
i genuinely don't know what to do my cat's breathing weirdly she's 17 got diagnosed with an inoperable tumour 2 years ago got told that she had no more than a month left given no meds usually when she's in pain it's because of constipation but it's never caused her to breathe like this
July 30, 2025 at 1:04 AM
i genuinely don't know what to do my cat's breathing weirdly she's 17 got diagnosed with an inoperable tumour 2 years ago got told that she had no more than a month left given no meds usually when she's in pain it's because of constipation but it's never caused her to breathe like this
why can't my cat just magically get better
July 29, 2025 at 10:07 PM
why can't my cat just magically get better