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medication update: it’s helping, I think
I’m as depressed as always, but the agoraphobia doesn’t feel so debilitating anymore and I seem to cope better with the stressful things that’d usually cause me to enter an overwhelmed breakdown
I’m as depressed as always, but the agoraphobia doesn’t feel so debilitating anymore and I seem to cope better with the stressful things that’d usually cause me to enter an overwhelmed breakdown
December 11, 2025 at 1:46 AM
medication update: it’s helping, I think
I’m as depressed as always, but the agoraphobia doesn’t feel so debilitating anymore and I seem to cope better with the stressful things that’d usually cause me to enter an overwhelmed breakdown
I’m as depressed as always, but the agoraphobia doesn’t feel so debilitating anymore and I seem to cope better with the stressful things that’d usually cause me to enter an overwhelmed breakdown
bweh
struggling to feel human lately
struggling to feel human lately
November 22, 2025 at 3:38 PM
bweh
struggling to feel human lately
struggling to feel human lately
turns out a side effect of taking an SNRI is dilated pupils, a manic stare and clenched jaw
mentally I feel okay, but I now don’t want to leave my house for other reasons lmao
mentally I feel okay, but I now don’t want to leave my house for other reasons lmao
November 20, 2025 at 1:21 PM
turns out a side effect of taking an SNRI is dilated pupils, a manic stare and clenched jaw
mentally I feel okay, but I now don’t want to leave my house for other reasons lmao
mentally I feel okay, but I now don’t want to leave my house for other reasons lmao
as part of my singing lessons, I’ve been doing nightly breathing exercises to improve my breath control
somehow, tonight my brain decided to use that as fuel for a spontaneous panic attack
I’m so tired
I need a new fcking brain, man
somehow, tonight my brain decided to use that as fuel for a spontaneous panic attack
I’m so tired
I need a new fcking brain, man
November 12, 2025 at 12:54 AM
as part of my singing lessons, I’ve been doing nightly breathing exercises to improve my breath control
somehow, tonight my brain decided to use that as fuel for a spontaneous panic attack
I’m so tired
I need a new fcking brain, man
somehow, tonight my brain decided to use that as fuel for a spontaneous panic attack
I’m so tired
I need a new fcking brain, man
sneak peek of things happening...
November 10, 2025 at 12:12 AM
sneak peek of things happening...
second singing lesson today
I am once again so nervous I may frow up
when does the anxiety end 🥲
I am once again so nervous I may frow up
when does the anxiety end 🥲
November 3, 2025 at 10:11 AM
second singing lesson today
I am once again so nervous I may frow up
when does the anxiety end 🥲
I am once again so nervous I may frow up
when does the anxiety end 🥲
update: I survived
we ended up not actually singing for the first lesson, just breathing exercises and v minor vocal warmups to get used to
my actual breath control is apparently actually v good (thanks to pilates)
but she already pinpointed where my main issue is with breathing when speaking
we ended up not actually singing for the first lesson, just breathing exercises and v minor vocal warmups to get used to
my actual breath control is apparently actually v good (thanks to pilates)
but she already pinpointed where my main issue is with breathing when speaking
I booked a singing lesson for tomorrow but I’m freaking out lol
I don’t think I can do it
aaAAA
I don’t think I can do it
aaAAA
October 27, 2025 at 5:12 PM
update: I survived
we ended up not actually singing for the first lesson, just breathing exercises and v minor vocal warmups to get used to
my actual breath control is apparently actually v good (thanks to pilates)
but she already pinpointed where my main issue is with breathing when speaking
we ended up not actually singing for the first lesson, just breathing exercises and v minor vocal warmups to get used to
my actual breath control is apparently actually v good (thanks to pilates)
but she already pinpointed where my main issue is with breathing when speaking
I booked a singing lesson for tomorrow but I’m freaking out lol
I don’t think I can do it
aaAAA
I don’t think I can do it
aaAAA
October 26, 2025 at 6:25 PM
I booked a singing lesson for tomorrow but I’m freaking out lol
I don’t think I can do it
aaAAA
I don’t think I can do it
aaAAA
half hour single layer study
I know this is scuffed but I never draw on just one layer, bweh
I know this is scuffed but I never draw on just one layer, bweh
October 20, 2025 at 12:15 AM
half hour single layer study
I know this is scuffed but I never draw on just one layer, bweh
I know this is scuffed but I never draw on just one layer, bweh
in other news I reached out to a singing instructor
I don’t wanna continue being so embarrassed to sing in front of anyone aaa
I don’t wanna continue being so embarrassed to sing in front of anyone aaa
October 19, 2025 at 12:24 AM
in other news I reached out to a singing instructor
I don’t wanna continue being so embarrassed to sing in front of anyone aaa
I don’t wanna continue being so embarrassed to sing in front of anyone aaa
i wonder what this might be...
October 18, 2025 at 11:27 PM
i wonder what this might be...
I was having a rly rough day with my PhD today
and my bf came in to meet me straight from the office to cheer me up
🥹
I feel so blessed
and my bf came in to meet me straight from the office to cheer me up
🥹
I feel so blessed
October 7, 2025 at 6:15 PM
I was having a rly rough day with my PhD today
and my bf came in to meet me straight from the office to cheer me up
🥹
I feel so blessed
and my bf came in to meet me straight from the office to cheer me up
🥹
I feel so blessed
my bf kept saying “goose geese” while he was sleepy and I didn’t know what he meant (or what he was saying) so I gave him a confused forehead kiss
and now saying “goose geese” has become “forehead kiss pls”
and now saying “goose geese” has become “forehead kiss pls”
September 27, 2025 at 10:02 PM
my bf kept saying “goose geese” while he was sleepy and I didn’t know what he meant (or what he was saying) so I gave him a confused forehead kiss
and now saying “goose geese” has become “forehead kiss pls”
and now saying “goose geese” has become “forehead kiss pls”
my sous chef keeps leaving hair in the food
September 15, 2025 at 10:55 PM
my sous chef keeps leaving hair in the food
I’m finally going back to meetings with my research group prior to starting my PhD
agoraphobia is hitting hard
and I feel sad that I might end up not doing art anymore
agoraphobia is hitting hard
and I feel sad that I might end up not doing art anymore
September 8, 2025 at 11:26 PM
I’m finally going back to meetings with my research group prior to starting my PhD
agoraphobia is hitting hard
and I feel sad that I might end up not doing art anymore
agoraphobia is hitting hard
and I feel sad that I might end up not doing art anymore
I love being suddenly gripped by overwhelming anxiety and hopelessness for the future
hormones rly making all of the background thoughts launch themselves to the front of my brain at maximum velocity
hormones rly making all of the background thoughts launch themselves to the front of my brain at maximum velocity
August 25, 2025 at 2:23 AM
I love being suddenly gripped by overwhelming anxiety and hopelessness for the future
hormones rly making all of the background thoughts launch themselves to the front of my brain at maximum velocity
hormones rly making all of the background thoughts launch themselves to the front of my brain at maximum velocity
recent cooking 🖤
we like to try new recipes at least once a week
we like to try new recipes at least once a week
August 24, 2025 at 10:00 PM
recent cooking 🖤
we like to try new recipes at least once a week
we like to try new recipes at least once a week
I still find it so much easier to do my draft sketches on my iPad
I’m hoping I’ll get used to using the tablet more since my iPad is starting to run pretty badly, but if it continues to feel this much more natural I might just…sell the tablet and buy a newer iPad
I’m hoping I’ll get used to using the tablet more since my iPad is starting to run pretty badly, but if it continues to feel this much more natural I might just…sell the tablet and buy a newer iPad
July 22, 2025 at 2:16 AM
I still find it so much easier to do my draft sketches on my iPad
I’m hoping I’ll get used to using the tablet more since my iPad is starting to run pretty badly, but if it continues to feel this much more natural I might just…sell the tablet and buy a newer iPad
I’m hoping I’ll get used to using the tablet more since my iPad is starting to run pretty badly, but if it continues to feel this much more natural I might just…sell the tablet and buy a newer iPad
I hate having such sensitive skin aaAAAA
I finally found products that work for me, and over the past year 3 of them have been either discontinued or the formula has changed to something that I can no longer use bc of an ingredient that makes my skin flare up
I finally found products that work for me, and over the past year 3 of them have been either discontinued or the formula has changed to something that I can no longer use bc of an ingredient that makes my skin flare up
July 21, 2025 at 4:05 PM
I hate having such sensitive skin aaAAAA
I finally found products that work for me, and over the past year 3 of them have been either discontinued or the formula has changed to something that I can no longer use bc of an ingredient that makes my skin flare up
I finally found products that work for me, and over the past year 3 of them have been either discontinued or the formula has changed to something that I can no longer use bc of an ingredient that makes my skin flare up
man…
I sent out one support post on twt and I feel like my engagement there has completely tanked again bc of it
my art performs better significantly here despite having like 1/5 of the number of followers
I do prefer it here anyway, so maybe it’s a sign
I sent out one support post on twt and I feel like my engagement there has completely tanked again bc of it
my art performs better significantly here despite having like 1/5 of the number of followers
I do prefer it here anyway, so maybe it’s a sign
March 31, 2025 at 7:43 PM
man…
I sent out one support post on twt and I feel like my engagement there has completely tanked again bc of it
my art performs better significantly here despite having like 1/5 of the number of followers
I do prefer it here anyway, so maybe it’s a sign
I sent out one support post on twt and I feel like my engagement there has completely tanked again bc of it
my art performs better significantly here despite having like 1/5 of the number of followers
I do prefer it here anyway, so maybe it’s a sign
not me insisting on repeatedly listening to a song which I KNOW will make me cry
February 17, 2025 at 1:56 AM
not me insisting on repeatedly listening to a song which I KNOW will make me cry
update btw: I’m quitting my retail job
just two more shifts left
just two more shifts left
I’m so tempted to quit my retail job
I know a lot of students work alongside uni but
being in every day this term and then not having my weekend to myself is just
aaAAAAAA
not to mention, I really want to throw myself into art more too - I’m so happy to finally be enjoying art again ;;
I know a lot of students work alongside uni but
being in every day this term and then not having my weekend to myself is just
aaAAAAAA
not to mention, I really want to throw myself into art more too - I’m so happy to finally be enjoying art again ;;
February 15, 2025 at 10:53 PM
update btw: I’m quitting my retail job
just two more shifts left
just two more shifts left
photo study that I’m too embarrassed to post on main
why is art so HARD
why is art so HARD
February 15, 2025 at 7:12 PM
photo study that I’m too embarrassed to post on main
why is art so HARD
why is art so HARD
y’all my nipple hurts so fuckin bad
January 31, 2025 at 1:22 PM
y’all my nipple hurts so fuckin bad