ael
@grwnktty.bsky.social
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ael
@grwnktty.bsky.social
· Mar 26
i should be given pieces of cake for existing
i had a dream w one of my triggers in it and as soon as i woke up my brain literally tried. to immediately dissociate and cover it up to the point where i just straight up forgot as i was trying to recount the dream (bc i like to write my dreams).
November 11, 2025 at 9:14 PM
i had a dream w one of my triggers in it and as soon as i woke up my brain literally tried. to immediately dissociate and cover it up to the point where i just straight up forgot as i was trying to recount the dream (bc i like to write my dreams).
im alive if anyone gives a shit
November 3, 2025 at 4:07 AM
im alive if anyone gives a shit
ihgrhjsjsn im going to actually lose it one day
October 14, 2025 at 12:04 AM
ihgrhjsjsn im going to actually lose it one day
am i being unreasonable? is it controlling or weird to want to know where ur partner is? esp if theyre not going to be able to talk to you for multiple hours???
October 6, 2025 at 1:14 AM
am i being unreasonable? is it controlling or weird to want to know where ur partner is? esp if theyre not going to be able to talk to you for multiple hours???
why is it so fucking hard to just say "oh i have to go __ later" "im going out for a bit" like. i feel like im fucking owed that as your psrtner but its seemingly sooo fucking hard to do
October 6, 2025 at 1:12 AM
why is it so fucking hard to just say "oh i have to go __ later" "im going out for a bit" like. i feel like im fucking owed that as your psrtner but its seemingly sooo fucking hard to do
i just won't say anything
October 4, 2025 at 10:26 PM
i just won't say anything
okay we get it your soooo good at it, shut up
September 22, 2025 at 1:43 AM
okay we get it your soooo good at it, shut up
i dont know how much more i can take
September 21, 2025 at 9:48 PM
i dont know how much more i can take
i wish he wasnt my fp. i wish i did block him and cut contact when we broke up the first time so then i couldve forced myself to get over him. i wish i just. wasnt so attached and obsessed, i feel sick to my stomach
September 21, 2025 at 9:48 PM
i wish he wasnt my fp. i wish i did block him and cut contact when we broke up the first time so then i couldve forced myself to get over him. i wish i just. wasnt so attached and obsessed, i feel sick to my stomach
i dont know what to do with myself anymore, i dont want to be around people but at the same time want my old life back. i dont know how to pull myself out of this hole without running myself ragged and making myself worse than i already am, even becoming someone who isnt me
September 21, 2025 at 9:43 PM
i dont know what to do with myself anymore, i dont want to be around people but at the same time want my old life back. i dont know how to pull myself out of this hole without running myself ragged and making myself worse than i already am, even becoming someone who isnt me
i think he fell back asleep ndim hggrjbbf. i want to say im defeated, i really do but im not, im really upset. he oversleeps so much and does nothing to change that. theres no doubt that it already has affected his health and he *should be aware of the issues it causes but no surprise if he's forgot
September 21, 2025 at 9:27 PM
i think he fell back asleep ndim hggrjbbf. i want to say im defeated, i really do but im not, im really upset. he oversleeps so much and does nothing to change that. theres no doubt that it already has affected his health and he *should be aware of the issues it causes but no surprise if he's forgot
just saw the most disgusting fucking comment ever. i feel so fucking. god i dont know but its negative. im violently upset. why would someone. say that. thats not a funny fucking joke
September 21, 2025 at 8:12 PM
just saw the most disgusting fucking comment ever. i feel so fucking. god i dont know but its negative. im violently upset. why would someone. say that. thats not a funny fucking joke
just remembered my dream?? some guy driving poorly nearly killed me n mum so we tried to remain infront of him then he was like "im gonna sue! pull over". pulled over and this guy started threatening violence nd shit like hello?! idk what inspired my brain for that but never again please
September 21, 2025 at 6:50 PM
just remembered my dream?? some guy driving poorly nearly killed me n mum so we tried to remain infront of him then he was like "im gonna sue! pull over". pulled over and this guy started threatening violence nd shit like hello?! idk what inspired my brain for that but never again please
he said something bad about himself and i never felt a mood drop smack me so hard my fucking god. i don't know why comments like those make me so upset. its not a "oh i wish my partner wouldnt say that :(", its so painful every time, it feels almost personal but also not i don't know man
September 21, 2025 at 6:47 PM
he said something bad about himself and i never felt a mood drop smack me so hard my fucking god. i don't know why comments like those make me so upset. its not a "oh i wish my partner wouldnt say that :(", its so painful every time, it feels almost personal but also not i don't know man
we've hardly talked today
September 18, 2025 at 3:14 AM
we've hardly talked today
wow that made me feel extremely avoidant! i feel like i shouldn't be anywhere near him, ill just drag him down. we live completely different lives and different paths, hes too far ahead and he needs someone who can actually keep up with him/is on the same level
September 17, 2025 at 11:34 PM
wow that made me feel extremely avoidant! i feel like i shouldn't be anywhere near him, ill just drag him down. we live completely different lives and different paths, hes too far ahead and he needs someone who can actually keep up with him/is on the same level
i feellike deleting it and ive been holding off the urge very well but im just thgg
September 15, 2025 at 9:44 AM
i feellike deleting it and ive been holding off the urge very well but im just thgg
i am VERY quickly spiraling into thinking that he feels uncomfortable with my gift and/or felt pressured to say yes when iasked about it. or the nature of it is just uncomfy for him i dont know. i just feel bad
September 15, 2025 at 6:16 AM
i am VERY quickly spiraling into thinking that he feels uncomfortable with my gift and/or felt pressured to say yes when iasked about it. or the nature of it is just uncomfy for him i dont know. i just feel bad
the npd AND bpd in me when i recieve the "wrong reaction" to something i do (i am LOSING it)
September 15, 2025 at 6:09 AM
the npd AND bpd in me when i recieve the "wrong reaction" to something i do (i am LOSING it)
your lack of self respect and fear hurts others
September 14, 2025 at 7:58 PM
your lack of self respect and fear hurts others
idk how im supposed to get my life together when the person i depend on can't. help me like. she's always like "omg u need to do ged stuff/ doctor appts ect ect" LIKE I PHYSICALLY. CANNOT GET TO THAT STUFF, I CANNOT DRIVE. ITS ALL DEPENDENT ON YOU ND YOU'RE NOT DOING IT 😭
September 11, 2025 at 8:27 AM
idk how im supposed to get my life together when the person i depend on can't. help me like. she's always like "omg u need to do ged stuff/ doctor appts ect ect" LIKE I PHYSICALLY. CANNOT GET TO THAT STUFF, I CANNOT DRIVE. ITS ALL DEPENDENT ON YOU ND YOU'RE NOT DOING IT 😭
ive been in a horrible mood all fuckin day and my brain just keeps finding more and more things for me to be sad over. im just ugghrh
September 10, 2025 at 7:18 AM
ive been in a horrible mood all fuckin day and my brain just keeps finding more and more things for me to be sad over. im just ugghrh
how do i stop being agitated for no reason 💜 i literally dont want to be a dick to anyone when they arent even doing anything to me bro
September 10, 2025 at 5:22 AM
how do i stop being agitated for no reason 💜 i literally dont want to be a dick to anyone when they arent even doing anything to me bro