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clay
@gothhorns.bsky.social
· Nov 5
hello!! i’m clay
23
nb/bi/poly but picky and solo partnered lol. dating the kindest hottest guy ever.
interests:
-mental health/therapeutic modalities
-witchcraft
-my cat gremlin
-alternative music/scene
-evolutionary biology (esp aquatic!)
-deer and lambs!
23
nb/bi/poly but picky and solo partnered lol. dating the kindest hottest guy ever.
interests:
-mental health/therapeutic modalities
-witchcraft
-my cat gremlin
-alternative music/scene
-evolutionary biology (esp aquatic!)
-deer and lambs!
im so lucky to have found someone who seriously loves me so much. he loves me more than ive ever seen anyone love anybody in my life. i mean that. it totally changed my perspective of what love could look like. like i am so insanely lucky.
July 28, 2025 at 4:00 AM
im so lucky to have found someone who seriously loves me so much. he loves me more than ive ever seen anyone love anybody in my life. i mean that. it totally changed my perspective of what love could look like. like i am so insanely lucky.
im being so good right now my boyfriend is on a date and im the normalest about it
July 17, 2025 at 12:11 AM
im being so good right now my boyfriend is on a date and im the normalest about it
i think that my mom instilled in me like some very weird ideas about who i was supposed to and not supposed to be friends with. and while i have deconstructed a lot of those things i think i am finding i still have this subconscious aversion to being friends with people’s who dont meet a certain
July 2, 2025 at 9:01 PM
i think that my mom instilled in me like some very weird ideas about who i was supposed to and not supposed to be friends with. and while i have deconstructed a lot of those things i think i am finding i still have this subconscious aversion to being friends with people’s who dont meet a certain
having adhd is like having a baby in my brain and i always have to figure out wtf it needs and why its screaming at me and how to tell it no
June 25, 2025 at 7:51 PM
having adhd is like having a baby in my brain and i always have to figure out wtf it needs and why its screaming at me and how to tell it no
I was gonna go on a date w this person today and maybe still am? but they have barely texted me today or yesterday which I just find kinda weird for a first hang out. I have the biggest urge to cancel 😭 and just go by myself. But it’s okay I might just be prejudging, even if I end up not liking them
June 24, 2025 at 3:47 PM
I was gonna go on a date w this person today and maybe still am? but they have barely texted me today or yesterday which I just find kinda weird for a first hang out. I have the biggest urge to cancel 😭 and just go by myself. But it’s okay I might just be prejudging, even if I end up not liking them
i wanna cry really hard i just want to feel understood I feel so overwhelmed I was so excited to have a nice relaxing end to my night and it just totally turned to shit
June 11, 2025 at 4:53 AM
i wanna cry really hard i just want to feel understood I feel so overwhelmed I was so excited to have a nice relaxing end to my night and it just totally turned to shit
sometimes i still worry hes cheating bc hes so impulsive and i forgave him the first time. sometimes it feels like he doesn’t want to get to know all of me. but idk if i think thats true in my heart
May 16, 2025 at 3:50 AM
sometimes i still worry hes cheating bc hes so impulsive and i forgave him the first time. sometimes it feels like he doesn’t want to get to know all of me. but idk if i think thats true in my heart
i just wanna be comforted idk. it sucks he was so crabby today and i ended up comforting him. i know he has a lot going on and probably doesnt have the bandwidth but i feel like i always hold space for him even when i maybe dont have it in me. maybe thats on me to enforce that.
May 12, 2025 at 3:29 AM
i just wanna be comforted idk. it sucks he was so crabby today and i ended up comforting him. i know he has a lot going on and probably doesnt have the bandwidth but i feel like i always hold space for him even when i maybe dont have it in me. maybe thats on me to enforce that.
i had a pretty bad panic attack today and he was just so sweet and so understanding and so helpful and he didnt freak out or worry me and he really listened to me and understood and didnt take it personally and just made sure i had what i needed. im just so lucky.
April 27, 2025 at 4:43 AM
i had a pretty bad panic attack today and he was just so sweet and so understanding and so helpful and he didnt freak out or worry me and he really listened to me and understood and didnt take it personally and just made sure i had what i needed. im just so lucky.
the world has been moving so quickly for so long now… im just asking it to slow down a little bit. i do get moments of quiet, like when my boyfriend cooks me something or when my best friend uses the other name i use. i know things will get better in my heart, if not for me than for someone else.
April 27, 2025 at 4:33 AM
the world has been moving so quickly for so long now… im just asking it to slow down a little bit. i do get moments of quiet, like when my boyfriend cooks me something or when my best friend uses the other name i use. i know things will get better in my heart, if not for me than for someone else.
i love my bf so much, i get so scared of losing him
April 20, 2025 at 8:19 PM
i love my bf so much, i get so scared of losing him
bruh gender roles are suffocating our collective ability to build relationships 😭 every time i hear some stupid shit about how men are biologically disposed to misogyny or how women dont like to be “the man” in a situation im like can you please be normal. thats a human being across from you.
April 18, 2025 at 2:18 PM
bruh gender roles are suffocating our collective ability to build relationships 😭 every time i hear some stupid shit about how men are biologically disposed to misogyny or how women dont like to be “the man” in a situation im like can you please be normal. thats a human being across from you.
Anyway, it’s okay. A lot of it is my job. I know my goal isn’t to do this career forever. Maybe when I leave the state I’ll do something less stressful or with a smaller caseload.
April 9, 2025 at 6:14 PM
Anyway, it’s okay. A lot of it is my job. I know my goal isn’t to do this career forever. Maybe when I leave the state I’ll do something less stressful or with a smaller caseload.
I hate being the codependent boyfriend who doesn’t talk to anyone but him but also I’m just so overwhelmed I only have enough energy to dedicate time to like 2 people. I am really thankful to have a handful of friends who reach out to me first but I feel bad that I can’t be more involved.
April 9, 2025 at 6:12 PM
I hate being the codependent boyfriend who doesn’t talk to anyone but him but also I’m just so overwhelmed I only have enough energy to dedicate time to like 2 people. I am really thankful to have a handful of friends who reach out to me first but I feel bad that I can’t be more involved.
i feel really lonely recently. and really crappy. even though i have friends who check up on me and love me and do so much for me. idk whats wrong with me.
March 31, 2025 at 4:19 PM
i feel really lonely recently. and really crappy. even though i have friends who check up on me and love me and do so much for me. idk whats wrong with me.
i want to cry really bad . hes been venting go me for a week about how horrible his roommate has been to him and how mad she is that im appearantly stealing him and the lengths shes going to mKe a point of how much she dislikes me and fbe minute i vent ab how its impactd me is when he needs a break
March 22, 2025 at 6:15 AM
i want to cry really bad . hes been venting go me for a week about how horrible his roommate has been to him and how mad she is that im appearantly stealing him and the lengths shes going to mKe a point of how much she dislikes me and fbe minute i vent ab how its impactd me is when he needs a break
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March 19, 2025 at 3:52 AM
boyfriend so wonderful and kind and cute and sweet and thoughtful.
March 17, 2025 at 3:32 AM
boyfriend so wonderful and kind and cute and sweet and thoughtful.
im just pissed off idk im done i have been the only person semi managing their feelings on this stupid trip and sure i didnt do the greatest job on earth but i am very tired and i dont feel like keeping it together anymore im going nonverbal and everyone else can deal with it
March 15, 2025 at 12:23 AM
im just pissed off idk im done i have been the only person semi managing their feelings on this stupid trip and sure i didnt do the greatest job on earth but i am very tired and i dont feel like keeping it together anymore im going nonverbal and everyone else can deal with it
sometimes people do hurtful stuff and then i dont realize and then they come back and apologize and im like damn u should have said nothing tbh u kinda bit your own ass here
March 7, 2025 at 12:50 PM
sometimes people do hurtful stuff and then i dont realize and then they come back and apologize and im like damn u should have said nothing tbh u kinda bit your own ass here
talking to my bf about how i usually dom bc i feel guilty being taken care of and realizing i have parent issues. ugh why is this always the root of my problems.
March 7, 2025 at 5:26 AM
talking to my bf about how i usually dom bc i feel guilty being taken care of and realizing i have parent issues. ugh why is this always the root of my problems.
i love my bf ive been irritable recently but hes been really patient and we talk through everything
February 27, 2025 at 2:12 PM
i love my bf ive been irritable recently but hes been really patient and we talk through everything
i find myself getting annoyed at my bf way more often recently
February 26, 2025 at 10:19 PM
i find myself getting annoyed at my bf way more often recently