DespairyQueen
@frictionhour.bsky.social
Despair is a 7 letter word for things we do in idle time when we stare into nothing and find the parts of us we left behind who wanted more than we could ever give or hope for.
This space is for those parts left behind.
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This space is for those parts left behind.
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DespairyQueen
@frictionhour.bsky.social
· Jul 29
She is so beautiful in every way, and how blessed I am to be able to kiss her, to hold her, to laugh with her, to cry with her, to love her...
To feel that light, that spark she carries with her, that will find it's way into even the darkest of places to show hope, to give love.
To feel that light, that spark she carries with her, that will find it's way into even the darkest of places to show hope, to give love.
My 2025 in gif form...
a woman is sitting in the driver 's seat of a car and looking out the window .
ALT: a woman is sitting in the driver 's seat of a car and looking out the window .
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December 15, 2025 at 11:15 PM
My 2025 in gif form...
Well, I learned I cant get off to porn that's mostly girls kissing and being like genuinely affectionate. It just makes me want to cry cause it's so sweet and makes me think about kissing and holding my girls. I'm just too gay for it. 🥺
So, just filthy smut for me to cum to it is... 😔
So, just filthy smut for me to cum to it is... 😔
December 14, 2025 at 1:35 PM
Well, I learned I cant get off to porn that's mostly girls kissing and being like genuinely affectionate. It just makes me want to cry cause it's so sweet and makes me think about kissing and holding my girls. I'm just too gay for it. 🥺
So, just filthy smut for me to cum to it is... 😔
So, just filthy smut for me to cum to it is... 😔
Fuck that was good. 😵💫😵💫😵💫
December 14, 2025 at 1:30 PM
Fuck that was good. 😵💫😵💫😵💫
Maybe i'm flying too close to the sun and I need to get back on spiro. Maybe just take 50mg a day instead of the 100mg.
December 14, 2025 at 2:31 AM
Maybe i'm flying too close to the sun and I need to get back on spiro. Maybe just take 50mg a day instead of the 100mg.
My insides are on fire and it really feels like i'm going to turn to ashes if I can't dig my teeth into someone soon. It's wild that I can even feel that way. It's so consuming, but I welcome it. I feel *so* alive.
December 14, 2025 at 2:28 AM
My insides are on fire and it really feels like i'm going to turn to ashes if I can't dig my teeth into someone soon. It's wild that I can even feel that way. It's so consuming, but I welcome it. I feel *so* alive.
So fucking feral right now...
December 14, 2025 at 2:25 AM
So fucking feral right now...
I think my mystery illness is just hot flashes again. 😓 Which is a relief, but goddddd this still sucks.
December 13, 2025 at 4:25 AM
I think my mystery illness is just hot flashes again. 😓 Which is a relief, but goddddd this still sucks.
Like, it's fucking painful applying so many times to a fucking chain of businesses across different locations and just seeing "not selected" for each one. Like, not even one call? Not even one person just *talking* to me, and hearing that I am a real fucking person who wants to work and live!?
December 12, 2025 at 9:31 PM
Like, it's fucking painful applying so many times to a fucking chain of businesses across different locations and just seeing "not selected" for each one. Like, not even one call? Not even one person just *talking* to me, and hearing that I am a real fucking person who wants to work and live!?
At this point i'm convinced that companies just don't want to fucking hire trans people. It's convenient how so many of the jobs I apply for, they can just tell me i'm overqualified for, and the ones I should be qualified for I just don't get selected or ignored.
December 12, 2025 at 9:28 PM
At this point i'm convinced that companies just don't want to fucking hire trans people. It's convenient how so many of the jobs I apply for, they can just tell me i'm overqualified for, and the ones I should be qualified for I just don't get selected or ignored.
My body should have a rule not to be horny when i'm sick cause I *will* still masturbate and not make things better but it will satisfy the sadomasochist in me.
December 11, 2025 at 10:33 PM
My body should have a rule not to be horny when i'm sick cause I *will* still masturbate and not make things better but it will satisfy the sadomasochist in me.
Sick and feral.
December 11, 2025 at 10:31 PM
Sick and feral.
Honestly, the thought of fucking while the most filthy hentai plays in the background sounds so fucking hot and I need it........
December 11, 2025 at 10:29 PM
Honestly, the thought of fucking while the most filthy hentai plays in the background sounds so fucking hot and I need it........
Want to warch hentai with friends
But
Need friends to watch hentai with
But
Need friends to watch hentai with
December 11, 2025 at 10:25 PM
Want to warch hentai with friends
But
Need friends to watch hentai with
But
Need friends to watch hentai with
At least I didn't have any plans set this weekend. That would have just made me feel even worse. I'm at least tolerating this right now.
December 11, 2025 at 8:36 PM
At least I didn't have any plans set this weekend. That would have just made me feel even worse. I'm at least tolerating this right now.
Being horny while sick is so fucking rediculous cause like, it might kill me, but it might also be worth it. Die doing what I love and all... 🤤
December 11, 2025 at 8:35 PM
Being horny while sick is so fucking rediculous cause like, it might kill me, but it might also be worth it. Die doing what I love and all... 🤤
Whenever i'm sick, I start to feel like everyone and everything around me starts to suffer and fall apart and i'm not sure if i'm just hyper sensitive from being sick or me being sick actually causes this. Everything is okay right now I think, but I can't shake the anxiety.
December 11, 2025 at 8:26 PM
Whenever i'm sick, I start to feel like everyone and everything around me starts to suffer and fall apart and i'm not sure if i'm just hyper sensitive from being sick or me being sick actually causes this. Everything is okay right now I think, but I can't shake the anxiety.
Either I need more horny followers that aren't afraid of liking my lewd and nude posts, or I just need to work on making my pics look hotter and, like, look like I actually put effort into them. Some I do. But nothing like what I see others put into on here.
December 11, 2025 at 8:05 PM
Either I need more horny followers that aren't afraid of liking my lewd and nude posts, or I just need to work on making my pics look hotter and, like, look like I actually put effort into them. Some I do. But nothing like what I see others put into on here.
I'm not sure how I feel about being in an orgy, but having sex in a room with a bunch of other people having sex sounds like a blast. I guess those are the same thing, so, maybe I would be in one? Maybe just not sure about fucking other people than my partners. But would so watch them fuck others. 🤤
December 11, 2025 at 7:59 PM
I'm not sure how I feel about being in an orgy, but having sex in a room with a bunch of other people having sex sounds like a blast. I guess those are the same thing, so, maybe I would be in one? Maybe just not sure about fucking other people than my partners. But would so watch them fuck others. 🤤
My body feels ill. My mind is ill. I woke up too early and now I just feel trapped in this ill body with this ill mind.
December 11, 2025 at 5:57 PM
My body feels ill. My mind is ill. I woke up too early and now I just feel trapped in this ill body with this ill mind.
Listening to the piano reminds me again that I have a heart that beats and lives to beat. I've been forgetting lately. I did the thing again where I hold onto too much pain and like a cloudy sky at night, it's blocking the light, and leaving me in darkness. Except when I listen to the piano...
December 11, 2025 at 1:04 PM
Listening to the piano reminds me again that I have a heart that beats and lives to beat. I've been forgetting lately. I did the thing again where I hold onto too much pain and like a cloudy sky at night, it's blocking the light, and leaving me in darkness. Except when I listen to the piano...
But it does give me a lot of ideas on things for my girl and I to do together~~~
Too much porn on my feed and it's driving me fucking 😵💫😵💫😵💫
December 9, 2025 at 1:11 AM
But it does give me a lot of ideas on things for my girl and I to do together~~~
Too much porn on my feed and it's driving me fucking 😵💫😵💫😵💫
December 9, 2025 at 1:10 AM
Too much porn on my feed and it's driving me fucking 😵💫😵💫😵💫
LSD keeps coming up in things I hear or conversations I have and I feel like the world is trying to tell me something.
Or I just really fucking want some LSD and finding patterns where I want.
Or I just really fucking want some LSD and finding patterns where I want.
December 8, 2025 at 3:04 AM
LSD keeps coming up in things I hear or conversations I have and I feel like the world is trying to tell me something.
Or I just really fucking want some LSD and finding patterns where I want.
Or I just really fucking want some LSD and finding patterns where I want.
Considered having a doctor just pry my balls from my warm and much alive scrotum, but I worry about the hit to my libido and other things I appreciate still being able to get from them. I just need to find a good way to manage my T levels without it negatively affecting the developments from E.
Realizing that I stopped spiro without consulting my doctor and I should probably consult my doctor to make sure it's not going to fuck things up for me.
I've been feeling so fucking energetic since stopping it, plus with added E, and I just don't want to stop, like, *moving*. This feels so good...
I've been feeling so fucking energetic since stopping it, plus with added E, and I just don't want to stop, like, *moving*. This feels so good...
December 7, 2025 at 9:38 PM
Considered having a doctor just pry my balls from my warm and much alive scrotum, but I worry about the hit to my libido and other things I appreciate still being able to get from them. I just need to find a good way to manage my T levels without it negatively affecting the developments from E.
I need a proper hobby. Like, games are cool, but I need to stretch my creative and artistic muscles into and pour them into whatever fucked up things I can conjure up. Music, drawing, something. Sex can be a hobby, but I like the initimacy of it, and keeping that for the special people in my life.
December 7, 2025 at 5:35 AM
I need a proper hobby. Like, games are cool, but I need to stretch my creative and artistic muscles into and pour them into whatever fucked up things I can conjure up. Music, drawing, something. Sex can be a hobby, but I like the initimacy of it, and keeping that for the special people in my life.