do you think the fly on my ceiling thinks there is a human on his?

my divorce was finalized this week. it feels like i can finally start healing, though i know i already started the moment i stopped being in love.

no more going to bed terrified that i’ll be screamed at for hours and hours. no more worrying my sentimentals will become a weapon. no more #abuse.

i actually still get afraid that i missed a piece. there’s a metaphor in there somewhere. i think maybe i should pay to have every inch of my home cleaned with a magnifying glass so that i don’t have to worry anymore.

don’t stay with people who throw things when they get angry.

i’m just now realizing the reason glass shattering on the ground makes me feel awful is because my ex used to throw things and shards would get on the floor and sometimes i’d step on a sliver no matter how hard i tried to clean it up and i was terrified that our child would get hurt by a piece. 🙁

every time i finish a bottle of mouthwash i remember how far i’ve come in caring for myself

#depression #recovery

#poetry #freepalestine #endgenocide

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Sea Glass

i thought it was bubbles
the shape of my soul
but i was wrong
i am shattered glass
worn smooth by the sea

(3 of 3)

i am torn to pieces in grief over my family across the world who do not have a safe home to stay in. every one of us needs to do better. neither homelessness nor genocide should exist on this planet, and it’s a personal failing of each of us that we are letting either happen. #freepalestine
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this is the poem i would be reading on friday. but i’m not going to be there, i am too tired to travel. i cannot fucking believe that it took me 30 years to understand that i have needs, but thank fuck that i did.

so i am staying home.

(1 of 3)

i actually don’t care if fetuses are living humans. that’s irrelevant. nothing gives you the right to anybody else’s body for any reason, even if you’ll die without it. #abortion

not to brag, but my anti depressants were increased by 50% today

Trump White House's first trans executive order is out. I'll be reading over it here and going through line by line to help you make sense of it.

You can find it here:

www.whitehouse.gov/presidential...

Wholeheartedly agree 🫶🏻

I enjoy having my own bag™️. Something I got at a store that shares my initials. Something that can hold my things™️. The headphones I’m using to prevent my fixating on the burst-pipe-preventing water trickling while I’m trying to read. The advil for my hand. The condoms from the clinic just in case™️

1. Did you know that Girl Scouts has, for a long time, accepted trans girls and nonbinary scouts?

Trans kids are under attack. Every year, I make a thread of trans and nonbinary girl scouts you can get your cookies from.

Lets get our cookies from them this year in solidarity!

Friends also new to Bluesky, here is a starter pack to follow trans authors and writers. #starterpack

Happy belated Diwali 🪔 my work had an adorable celebration with amazing food and an art station!

hi 🩵

i’m jennifer! i write software and poetry. i believe in aliens and humans. unconditional love for even the worst of each, but that doesn’t mean giving anyone a free pass to mistreat others. i have many homes and many names. i talk to trees, bees, and parallel-dimensional “me”s.

i just learned about bluesky, and when i heard these messages were called “skeets” i knew this was the place for me.

#bluesky