an insecurity i never really mention:
my hands🫩 i see all the people with muscular or thin hands and fingers then see my small chubby hands and get sad. i want aesthetically nice hands😩

need to touch and be touched real bad

yapping like no one's listening now-

i feel like i can't express my upset feelings about things on my main because it could be seen as "attention seeking" or something. like kinda but isn't it human nature to want to be liked? to have genuine connections? have people interact with your work?

i think a big part of why i don't work on art as much or post it is because i always think people don't like it, and/or they'll like the post just to be nice.
a lot of times it feels like my art isn't share worthy, commission worthy, or buying prints worthy..
yet i'm still trying to make it a career

this selfie got wasted on a man who ended up disappointing me

it really sucks being an adult and feeling like i'm a kid or teen again because people decide to be fake friends, people decide to not interact with you, people find you annoying.

yeah i shouldn't care about others opinions but noticing the little shifts still hurts man.