Cyntaria
@cyntaria.bsky.social
I've taken over 3000 pictures of my cat this year according to google photos
December 10, 2025 at 1:42 AM
I've taken over 3000 pictures of my cat this year according to google photos
I'm amazed at how big of a difference electrolytes make. My TED stockings don't have the recommended compression for POTS so I can't wait until my compression socks arrive and I can test them on a day where I'm out and about and walking all day
December 6, 2025 at 3:17 AM
I'm amazed at how big of a difference electrolytes make. My TED stockings don't have the recommended compression for POTS so I can't wait until my compression socks arrive and I can test them on a day where I'm out and about and walking all day
For years I've thought I'm dumb, incompetent, weak, useless, unable to do anything right and so much more.
I went to my doctor for a routine ECG and came out with a strong suspicion of POTS and a 24 hour ECG monitor to rule out stuff and compare heart function during episodes to baseline.
I went to my doctor for a routine ECG and came out with a strong suspicion of POTS and a 24 hour ECG monitor to rule out stuff and compare heart function during episodes to baseline.
December 1, 2025 at 1:49 AM
For years I've thought I'm dumb, incompetent, weak, useless, unable to do anything right and so much more.
I went to my doctor for a routine ECG and came out with a strong suspicion of POTS and a 24 hour ECG monitor to rule out stuff and compare heart function during episodes to baseline.
I went to my doctor for a routine ECG and came out with a strong suspicion of POTS and a 24 hour ECG monitor to rule out stuff and compare heart function during episodes to baseline.
Ellie: screams for attention from the living room. Gets attention. Invites onto chair and desk. Makes herself comfy on my lap. Jumps off lap and walks back to living room. Screams for attention.
November 30, 2025 at 10:16 AM
Ellie: screams for attention from the living room. Gets attention. Invites onto chair and desk. Makes herself comfy on my lap. Jumps off lap and walks back to living room. Screams for attention.
Can you tell by the way I pick her up that I grew up with dogs?
November 27, 2025 at 9:13 AM
Can you tell by the way I pick her up that I grew up with dogs?
Learning that my doctor was on the right track last year when she ordered an ECG but I was too exhausted from a major life event makes me want to scream.
In other news, next Centrelink payment, I'm seeing my doctor to investigate dysautonomia/POTS like symptoms I thought were normal all these years
In other news, next Centrelink payment, I'm seeing my doctor to investigate dysautonomia/POTS like symptoms I thought were normal all these years
November 23, 2025 at 5:37 AM
Learning that my doctor was on the right track last year when she ordered an ECG but I was too exhausted from a major life event makes me want to scream.
In other news, next Centrelink payment, I'm seeing my doctor to investigate dysautonomia/POTS like symptoms I thought were normal all these years
In other news, next Centrelink payment, I'm seeing my doctor to investigate dysautonomia/POTS like symptoms I thought were normal all these years
Never have I ever been grateful for having a migraine. It's the one cause of severe fatigue that I can actually fix. It's been 25 minutes since taking panadol, aspirin and a triptan and I'm already starting to feel better.
November 17, 2025 at 3:13 AM
Never have I ever been grateful for having a migraine. It's the one cause of severe fatigue that I can actually fix. It's been 25 minutes since taking panadol, aspirin and a triptan and I'm already starting to feel better.
The face of a cat who's shedding and is prone to hair balls so is getting daily brushes to get as much loose hair as possible.
November 8, 2025 at 11:18 AM
The face of a cat who's shedding and is prone to hair balls so is getting daily brushes to get as much loose hair as possible.
For those of us struggling with #bodydysmorphia, stomach fat is perfectly normal for uterus havers and a flat stomach or visible abs is actually dangerous for many of us. I'm not overweight, I'm very muscular thanks to pole dancing but I still have a lot of padding around my stomach and that's okay.
November 6, 2025 at 9:24 AM
For those of us struggling with #bodydysmorphia, stomach fat is perfectly normal for uterus havers and a flat stomach or visible abs is actually dangerous for many of us. I'm not overweight, I'm very muscular thanks to pole dancing but I still have a lot of padding around my stomach and that's okay.
I intended to get drunk off punch at the party, I made sure that could happen thanks to the metal straws I bought in Greece 2 years ago for 1€ and never ended up using 🤣
November 5, 2025 at 3:10 AM
I intended to get drunk off punch at the party, I made sure that could happen thanks to the metal straws I bought in Greece 2 years ago for 1€ and never ended up using 🤣
Yes halloween is a thing in Australia...even if it's not as popular
October 31, 2025 at 10:14 AM
Yes halloween is a thing in Australia...even if it's not as popular
My not a hentai VN game keeps getting dangerously close to hentai territory at the most inappropriate of times 😂
October 22, 2025 at 9:33 AM
My not a hentai VN game keeps getting dangerously close to hentai territory at the most inappropriate of times 😂
Ellie sensed a panic attack coming on and aggressively alerted me so now she's distracting me with a cardboard box. I really owe much of my recovery to this baby. I have no idea where I'd be without her. When I have those weeks I just want to give up, she doesn't give up on me so I keep trying.
October 18, 2025 at 6:36 AM
Ellie sensed a panic attack coming on and aggressively alerted me so now she's distracting me with a cardboard box. I really owe much of my recovery to this baby. I have no idea where I'd be without her. When I have those weeks I just want to give up, she doesn't give up on me so I keep trying.
My little gremlin. Don't know what I'd do without her 💜
October 18, 2025 at 4:39 AM
My little gremlin. Don't know what I'd do without her 💜
Well, a diploma for me, but still
Quote of the day: When I feel stupid, I like to remind myself that I got a bachelors degree without ChatGPT
October 12, 2025 at 6:52 PM
Well, a diploma for me, but still
This year is my best #PAX so far. Made some friends, laughed harder than I ever have, saw some amazing cosplayers and made many memories I will treasure
October 12, 2025 at 5:12 AM
This year is my best #PAX so far. Made some friends, laughed harder than I ever have, saw some amazing cosplayers and made many memories I will treasure
Also I went from cute and adorable during the day to dommy mummy energy for The Dark Room as I just have to dress up if I'm going to a show 😅
October 11, 2025 at 2:55 PM
Also I went from cute and adorable during the day to dommy mummy energy for The Dark Room as I just have to dress up if I'm going to a show 😅
Today will be a memory I treasure. I had so much fun & didn't even have to go home for breaks or take any valium. Not even after seeing my abuser & enablers. I have never enjoyed PAX as much as I did today & this PAX will stick with me more than my first one & our 2023 party that meant so much to me
October 11, 2025 at 2:51 PM
Today will be a memory I treasure. I had so much fun & didn't even have to go home for breaks or take any valium. Not even after seeing my abuser & enablers. I have never enjoyed PAX as much as I did today & this PAX will stick with me more than my first one & our 2023 party that meant so much to me
Looking forward to being with people today. Knowing the abuser I'm terrified of isn't here has helped my anxiety immensely, but PAX does bring back a lot of happy memories from when the other/main abuser still openly cared about me, as well as memories of the moment my psychosis in 2023 started.
October 10, 2025 at 9:42 PM
Looking forward to being with people today. Knowing the abuser I'm terrified of isn't here has helped my anxiety immensely, but PAX does bring back a lot of happy memories from when the other/main abuser still openly cared about me, as well as memories of the moment my psychosis in 2023 started.
Waiting for gabapentin, panadol and nurofen to kick in because I'm not walking the entire snaky line right now. Kidney infection is the same side as my bad nerve so it's fucking with my ability to walk 😭
I'll be fine once pain meds kick in 🥰
I'll be fine once pain meds kick in 🥰
October 10, 2025 at 12:05 AM
Waiting for gabapentin, panadol and nurofen to kick in because I'm not walking the entire snaky line right now. Kidney infection is the same side as my bad nerve so it's fucking with my ability to walk 😭
I'll be fine once pain meds kick in 🥰
I'll be fine once pain meds kick in 🥰
Ovarian cyst rupture and kidney infection. My little baby is taking amazing care of me.
October 9, 2025 at 6:33 AM
Ovarian cyst rupture and kidney infection. My little baby is taking amazing care of me.
Zero valiums so far this week, let's watch this change as I see my abusers at PAX
October 7, 2025 at 11:12 AM
Zero valiums so far this week, let's watch this change as I see my abusers at PAX
Unless anything changes this evening, that's 4 valiums this week. Just gotta get over this period and find a job.
October 5, 2025 at 3:25 AM
Unless anything changes this evening, that's 4 valiums this week. Just gotta get over this period and find a job.
I hate that I need valium to somewhat function atm. Have to keep reminding myself it's okay, that's why it's been prescribed to me for 6.5 years now and 20 tablets now last me 12 months again even while recovering from abuse that almost ended in suicide. It's okay to rely on it during these periods.
October 2, 2025 at 8:54 AM
I hate that I need valium to somewhat function atm. Have to keep reminding myself it's okay, that's why it's been prescribed to me for 6.5 years now and 20 tablets now last me 12 months again even while recovering from abuse that almost ended in suicide. It's okay to rely on it during these periods.