💜✨️🧪📖 I did it!! After 4 attempts I solved all problems of the unit test and finally beat the thermodynamics chapter! This is how far I've come within 4 years...

Trying

Boyfriend said I don't need to go if I'm uncomfortable and I will follow his advice, I'd rather save my energy for him ☆( ^▽^ )

I slip up sometimes when I don't think. I just do. And I'm still growing.

Remarkable how crappy one can feel due to early awakening, this was night 4 and my thoughts were so out of control that I couldn't stop thinking about work for 3 hours after waking up. Sometimes my conscious mind goes into sleep mode but my brain doesn't shut down regardless, so no more sleep.

first therapy session ✅️

Gonna see that guy again on monday who made fictophilia sound like a fetish and I want to sigh SO loudly. I don't even want to talk to him. He's never treated a case like mine, the institution he's working for is purely my last resort.
But I took Friday off. And I'm going to take many more days off!

kinda tense, but doing a bit of chemistry math (and hydrating my body) in order to improve my mood~
I am allowed to enjoy things~
実にエレガントだ！

Talked to my PT about my exercise ocd because she already told me repeatedly not to overdo it and she said it's good that I shared this, she will keep reminding me ✨️

he was really calm about it all but I imagined him flipping his shit if that had continued

Then there was another scene in which we were on our way home and two guys started talking to us and hitting on me(?). When they approached a second time and started getting persistent I said "OK, here's the thing, *we* are going home and *you* are going in the opposite direction (pointing)".

We were riding in the back of a car, and for some reason the car stopped and we were alone for a few minutes, so I lay down and curled up with my head on his lap. He immediately started to gently caress me (I think it was my shoulder) and heavens it felt so damn good.

Er hat fleißig Schnee geschippt und ich kann nichts machen. Geil. Mein Kopf platzt.