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❆ apothy ❆
@carvedapotheosis.bsky.social
23 ☆ bpd & ednos ☆ vent acc
cw: 42.7 kg ☆ gw: 40 kg ☆ ugw: 35 kg

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I'm so bad at living. The only thing I'm good at is self destructing. That I'm super good at. All I can do right is immolate everything good in my life and self destruct
November 27, 2025 at 6:52 AM
ended this f4st at almost 19hrs because im not used to them and didn't wanna overdo it 😵‍💫😵‍💫
im also never gonna pass on a birthday cake so ill be starting another one after work lunch 🫡🫡
November 27, 2025 at 8:34 AM
downloaded a f4st1ng app, hopefully it'll be easier to manage and won't drive me insane like c0unt1ng c4ls 💀💀
November 26, 2025 at 10:22 PM
something tells me that even if i were to reach my ugw it still wouldn't be low enough to make me look the way i want to 💔💔
November 26, 2025 at 9:53 PM
i fixed my posture and lost my thigh gap with it 💔💔
November 26, 2025 at 4:25 PM
bruh i don't want to be awake today i feel like SHIT
November 26, 2025 at 6:44 AM
im very blessed & decided to conjure up a holiday package full of gifts for kids & teens fighting cancer this year!! i have saved a few things from the ch4r1ty's list and ill get to it once i get paid in December 😌😌
November 25, 2025 at 10:20 PM
i don't get why me thinking i shouldn't be in relationships due to my BPD is a bad thing i wouldn't be a good partner and im saving people from having to deal with me 💀💀
November 25, 2025 at 5:23 PM
my silly ass refuses to count anything but cvtt1ng as šh therefore im still clean 😋👍
November 25, 2025 at 12:17 PM
have i been cursed to see my old classmates in every other person now or what 😒😒
November 24, 2025 at 5:40 PM
gm im having a shit day so far but at least food is repulsive to me atm 👍👍
November 24, 2025 at 9:20 AM
drunk apothy is the happiest apothy i fear -w-
November 23, 2025 at 6:47 PM
i miss cvtt1ng so bad wish I could do it rn. ik that would feel so good but dr1nking sm0king and st4rv1ng is what i have left for. Now
November 23, 2025 at 5:22 PM
finally got some alcohol in my system let's goooooo 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
November 23, 2025 at 3:50 PM
crisis averted i dropped over half a kilo overnight
November 23, 2025 at 11:31 AM
im too impatient to wait until payday so i just placed an order for all the lippies i wanted 🙏🙏
they ship on the 14th of December tho 😭😭
November 23, 2025 at 10:51 AM
never w3ighing again without an empty stomach cuz how in the hell am i HEAVIER after using the bathroom and only having coffee?????? 🙁🙁
November 22, 2025 at 9:27 AM
unfortunately back at a healthy BM1 😔😔 im not surprised i g4in3d bcs i haven't exactly been in r3s.......
on the bright side it's not a huge difference imo & i also haven't been c0nst1p4t3d and i thank the stars for that 🙏🙏
November 22, 2025 at 8:28 AM
just got woken up by my neighbors banging on our doors like crazy cuz apparently the whole opposite half of our building is fuckin swimming 😭😭😭😭😭 old alcoholic man on the top floor turned on the water in his bathroom, fell asleep and flooded half the apartments jfc
November 21, 2025 at 7:48 PM
some higher power must've blessed me last weekend bcs I've been getting compliments on my looks the entire week 😭❤️ figuring out my undertone & tweaking my skincare routine the tiniest bit really did me wonders 🫦🫦
November 21, 2025 at 5:18 PM
im incapable of getting out of bed at the first alarm and this ends up being my downfall every single damn day. why the fuck do i go back to sleep just MOVEEEEE your ass out of bed apothy 😑😑
November 21, 2025 at 10:09 AM
afterwork ciggies wait for me, just 45 more minutes 😭😭
November 20, 2025 at 2:39 PM
idk when but my legs almost stopped jiggling when i walk???? the thigh gap also???? my legs are almost all muscle now and look so much better!!!!!! :000
November 20, 2025 at 1:32 PM
finally started taking my pr3gabalin3 for sleep and oh my gooooooood ive been missing out 😩😩 if it wasn't giving me horrendous auditory h4llucinati0ns id say it's the perfect sleep aid for me
November 18, 2025 at 3:31 PM
hellooooo everynyan :3 i hope you're all doing better that i have been!!!!
ive been on and off spiralling all day and im beyond exhausted 😭😭 i also g4ined so that's very cool and awesome i hate being al1ve
November 17, 2025 at 3:51 PM