❆ apothy ❆
@carvedapotheosis.bsky.social
23 ☆ bpd & ednos ☆ vent acc
cw: 42.7 kg ☆ gw: 40 kg ☆ ugw: 35 kg
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cw: 42.7 kg ☆ gw: 40 kg ☆ ugw: 35 kg
backup: catharticcals.bsky.social
[any prns] || [ENG/PL]
Reposted by ❆ apothy ❆
I'm so bad at living. The only thing I'm good at is self destructing. That I'm super good at. All I can do right is immolate everything good in my life and self destruct
November 27, 2025 at 6:52 AM
I'm so bad at living. The only thing I'm good at is self destructing. That I'm super good at. All I can do right is immolate everything good in my life and self destruct
ended this f4st at almost 19hrs because im not used to them and didn't wanna overdo it 😵💫😵💫
im also never gonna pass on a birthday cake so ill be starting another one after work lunch 🫡🫡
im also never gonna pass on a birthday cake so ill be starting another one after work lunch 🫡🫡
November 27, 2025 at 8:34 AM
ended this f4st at almost 19hrs because im not used to them and didn't wanna overdo it 😵💫😵💫
im also never gonna pass on a birthday cake so ill be starting another one after work lunch 🫡🫡
im also never gonna pass on a birthday cake so ill be starting another one after work lunch 🫡🫡
downloaded a f4st1ng app, hopefully it'll be easier to manage and won't drive me insane like c0unt1ng c4ls 💀💀
November 26, 2025 at 10:22 PM
downloaded a f4st1ng app, hopefully it'll be easier to manage and won't drive me insane like c0unt1ng c4ls 💀💀
something tells me that even if i were to reach my ugw it still wouldn't be low enough to make me look the way i want to 💔💔
November 26, 2025 at 9:53 PM
something tells me that even if i were to reach my ugw it still wouldn't be low enough to make me look the way i want to 💔💔
i fixed my posture and lost my thigh gap with it 💔💔
November 26, 2025 at 4:25 PM
i fixed my posture and lost my thigh gap with it 💔💔
bruh i don't want to be awake today i feel like SHIT
November 26, 2025 at 6:44 AM
bruh i don't want to be awake today i feel like SHIT
im very blessed & decided to conjure up a holiday package full of gifts for kids & teens fighting cancer this year!! i have saved a few things from the ch4r1ty's list and ill get to it once i get paid in December 😌😌
November 25, 2025 at 10:20 PM
im very blessed & decided to conjure up a holiday package full of gifts for kids & teens fighting cancer this year!! i have saved a few things from the ch4r1ty's list and ill get to it once i get paid in December 😌😌
i don't get why me thinking i shouldn't be in relationships due to my BPD is a bad thing i wouldn't be a good partner and im saving people from having to deal with me 💀💀
November 25, 2025 at 5:23 PM
i don't get why me thinking i shouldn't be in relationships due to my BPD is a bad thing i wouldn't be a good partner and im saving people from having to deal with me 💀💀
my silly ass refuses to count anything but cvtt1ng as šh therefore im still clean 😋👍
November 25, 2025 at 12:17 PM
my silly ass refuses to count anything but cvtt1ng as šh therefore im still clean 😋👍
have i been cursed to see my old classmates in every other person now or what 😒😒
November 24, 2025 at 5:40 PM
have i been cursed to see my old classmates in every other person now or what 😒😒
gm im having a shit day so far but at least food is repulsive to me atm 👍👍
November 24, 2025 at 9:20 AM
gm im having a shit day so far but at least food is repulsive to me atm 👍👍
drunk apothy is the happiest apothy i fear -w-
November 23, 2025 at 6:47 PM
drunk apothy is the happiest apothy i fear -w-
i miss cvtt1ng so bad wish I could do it rn. ik that would feel so good but dr1nking sm0king and st4rv1ng is what i have left for. Now
November 23, 2025 at 5:22 PM
i miss cvtt1ng so bad wish I could do it rn. ik that would feel so good but dr1nking sm0king and st4rv1ng is what i have left for. Now
finally got some alcohol in my system let's goooooo 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
November 23, 2025 at 3:50 PM
finally got some alcohol in my system let's goooooo 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
crisis averted i dropped over half a kilo overnight
November 23, 2025 at 11:31 AM
crisis averted i dropped over half a kilo overnight
im too impatient to wait until payday so i just placed an order for all the lippies i wanted 🙏🙏
they ship on the 14th of December tho 😭😭
they ship on the 14th of December tho 😭😭
November 23, 2025 at 10:51 AM
im too impatient to wait until payday so i just placed an order for all the lippies i wanted 🙏🙏
they ship on the 14th of December tho 😭😭
they ship on the 14th of December tho 😭😭
never w3ighing again without an empty stomach cuz how in the hell am i HEAVIER after using the bathroom and only having coffee?????? 🙁🙁
November 22, 2025 at 9:27 AM
never w3ighing again without an empty stomach cuz how in the hell am i HEAVIER after using the bathroom and only having coffee?????? 🙁🙁
unfortunately back at a healthy BM1 😔😔 im not surprised i g4in3d bcs i haven't exactly been in r3s.......
on the bright side it's not a huge difference imo & i also haven't been c0nst1p4t3d and i thank the stars for that 🙏🙏
on the bright side it's not a huge difference imo & i also haven't been c0nst1p4t3d and i thank the stars for that 🙏🙏
November 22, 2025 at 8:28 AM
unfortunately back at a healthy BM1 😔😔 im not surprised i g4in3d bcs i haven't exactly been in r3s.......
on the bright side it's not a huge difference imo & i also haven't been c0nst1p4t3d and i thank the stars for that 🙏🙏
on the bright side it's not a huge difference imo & i also haven't been c0nst1p4t3d and i thank the stars for that 🙏🙏
just got woken up by my neighbors banging on our doors like crazy cuz apparently the whole opposite half of our building is fuckin swimming 😭😭😭😭😭 old alcoholic man on the top floor turned on the water in his bathroom, fell asleep and flooded half the apartments jfc
November 21, 2025 at 7:48 PM
just got woken up by my neighbors banging on our doors like crazy cuz apparently the whole opposite half of our building is fuckin swimming 😭😭😭😭😭 old alcoholic man on the top floor turned on the water in his bathroom, fell asleep and flooded half the apartments jfc
some higher power must've blessed me last weekend bcs I've been getting compliments on my looks the entire week 😭❤️ figuring out my undertone & tweaking my skincare routine the tiniest bit really did me wonders 🫦🫦
November 21, 2025 at 5:18 PM
some higher power must've blessed me last weekend bcs I've been getting compliments on my looks the entire week 😭❤️ figuring out my undertone & tweaking my skincare routine the tiniest bit really did me wonders 🫦🫦
im incapable of getting out of bed at the first alarm and this ends up being my downfall every single damn day. why the fuck do i go back to sleep just MOVEEEEE your ass out of bed apothy 😑😑
November 21, 2025 at 10:09 AM
im incapable of getting out of bed at the first alarm and this ends up being my downfall every single damn day. why the fuck do i go back to sleep just MOVEEEEE your ass out of bed apothy 😑😑
afterwork ciggies wait for me, just 45 more minutes 😭😭
November 20, 2025 at 2:39 PM
afterwork ciggies wait for me, just 45 more minutes 😭😭
idk when but my legs almost stopped jiggling when i walk???? the thigh gap also???? my legs are almost all muscle now and look so much better!!!!!! :000
November 20, 2025 at 1:32 PM
idk when but my legs almost stopped jiggling when i walk???? the thigh gap also???? my legs are almost all muscle now and look so much better!!!!!! :000
finally started taking my pr3gabalin3 for sleep and oh my gooooooood ive been missing out 😩😩 if it wasn't giving me horrendous auditory h4llucinati0ns id say it's the perfect sleep aid for me
November 18, 2025 at 3:31 PM
finally started taking my pr3gabalin3 for sleep and oh my gooooooood ive been missing out 😩😩 if it wasn't giving me horrendous auditory h4llucinati0ns id say it's the perfect sleep aid for me
hellooooo everynyan :3 i hope you're all doing better that i have been!!!!
ive been on and off spiralling all day and im beyond exhausted 😭😭 i also g4ined so that's very cool and awesome i hate being al1ve
ive been on and off spiralling all day and im beyond exhausted 😭😭 i also g4ined so that's very cool and awesome i hate being al1ve
November 17, 2025 at 3:51 PM
hellooooo everynyan :3 i hope you're all doing better that i have been!!!!
ive been on and off spiralling all day and im beyond exhausted 😭😭 i also g4ined so that's very cool and awesome i hate being al1ve
ive been on and off spiralling all day and im beyond exhausted 😭😭 i also g4ined so that's very cool and awesome i hate being al1ve