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If he’s unsure, take his unsureness as rejection because that’s what it is. He doesn’t want you.
And I’m back with another he didn’t chose me so I cried about another white man again
February 16, 2026 at 4:40 AM
And I’m back with another he didn’t chose me so I cried about another white man again
Then he text me 12/1, I don’t respond. Then a week later. And I don’t respond again. And then I guess I was feeling myself I send him this long ass message
December 15, 2025 at 12:48 AM
Then he text me 12/1, I don’t respond. Then a week later. And I don’t respond again. And then I guess I was feeling myself I send him this long ass message
Then he text me 3 weeks later asking if I’m working? Mind you it’s the day before thanksgiving. I say no I’m not and I don’t hear from him.
December 15, 2025 at 12:47 AM
Then he text me 3 weeks later asking if I’m working? Mind you it’s the day before thanksgiving. I say no I’m not and I don’t hear from him.
Ir all started last month and I texted Jordan to hangout and he’s taking about do I want want to have a 3some and to send him a pic of me. I say no. Still try to see him thst night and he said he has to reschedule
December 15, 2025 at 12:46 AM
Ir all started last month and I texted Jordan to hangout and he’s taking about do I want want to have a 3some and to send him a pic of me. I say no. Still try to see him thst night and he said he has to reschedule
Back again! And guess what we are going to spiral. Only this time it as hard because another boy is distracting from a full spiral over a different boy
December 15, 2025 at 12:44 AM
Back again! And guess what we are going to spiral. Only this time it as hard because another boy is distracting from a full spiral over a different boy
I need therapy too. I need a change in my environment, I need more money. I need self love and companionship. I crave that. I can be good at that. Why have t I experienced it.
October 13, 2025 at 2:24 AM
I need therapy too. I need a change in my environment, I need more money. I need self love and companionship. I crave that. I can be good at that. Why have t I experienced it.
I cried today. Hard. I did breath of fire and just lost it. I really need to be an active participant in my life. It feels like things are happening or not happening to me. I’m not choosing anything. I’m waiting for something to come to me instead of putting in the work. I need a big redirection.
October 13, 2025 at 2:24 AM
I cried today. Hard. I did breath of fire and just lost it. I really need to be an active participant in my life. It feels like things are happening or not happening to me. I’m not choosing anything. I’m waiting for something to come to me instead of putting in the work. I need a big redirection.
And I’m still on Feeld having mediocre connections and conversation. Trying to feel something other than pure and complete loneliness.
October 13, 2025 at 2:22 AM
And I’m still on Feeld having mediocre connections and conversation. Trying to feel something other than pure and complete loneliness.
Then to add to it I decide it would be a good idea to text Jordyn who I have t talked to in 2 years. He didn’t text me back. Wonderful🙂
October 13, 2025 at 2:22 AM
Then to add to it I decide it would be a good idea to text Jordyn who I have t talked to in 2 years. He didn’t text me back. Wonderful🙂
And of course I feel extra shitty about that because like he definitely saw the message and actively said no. So that means he probably think I’m a fucking stalker weirdo and I can’t handle someone thinking I’m weird.
October 13, 2025 at 2:21 AM
And of course I feel extra shitty about that because like he definitely saw the message and actively said no. So that means he probably think I’m a fucking stalker weirdo and I can’t handle someone thinking I’m weird.
So I decided to re download Feeld to try and match with Louis. I spent all day crafting a bio and picking my pics and I actually put my face and name on there. The. I saw his profile and sent him a ping about maybe he’ll remember me and we had a good date and I think he’s hot. He didn’t match me.
October 13, 2025 at 2:20 AM
So I decided to re download Feeld to try and match with Louis. I spent all day crafting a bio and picking my pics and I actually put my face and name on there. The. I saw his profile and sent him a ping about maybe he’ll remember me and we had a good date and I think he’s hot. He didn’t match me.
If curse I feel shitty and insecure because of that. I start thinking this is the last time he’ll see me. And he probably is going to end things soo and I need to find another boy so when that does happen it doesn’t hurt as bad.
October 13, 2025 at 2:18 AM
If curse I feel shitty and insecure because of that. I start thinking this is the last time he’ll see me. And he probably is going to end things soo and I need to find another boy so when that does happen it doesn’t hurt as bad.
Jordan and I met up in Sunday. We smoked and fucked and I spent the night. Then when I came home I texted him later in the afternoon how I could still feel him inside and other explicit things. He didn’t reply. 🙂
October 13, 2025 at 2:17 AM
Jordan and I met up in Sunday. We smoked and fucked and I spent the night. Then when I came home I texted him later in the afternoon how I could still feel him inside and other explicit things. He didn’t reply. 🙂
It’s me back again after another emotional break down and hunch happened b ‘cause I spiraled and messaged men I had no business messaging. I hate myself for doing that. I hate my desperation. I hate being lonely and feeling it. I hate I did all that as a reaction to a boy
October 13, 2025 at 2:16 AM
It’s me back again after another emotional break down and hunch happened b ‘cause I spiraled and messaged men I had no business messaging. I hate myself for doing that. I hate my desperation. I hate being lonely and feeling it. I hate I did all that as a reaction to a boy
I can’t fucking stand that.
August 12, 2025 at 6:25 PM
I can’t fucking stand that.
If you do something off putting to someone apologize. You’re not too grown to apologize. And she keeps getting away with being a terrible and shitty person.
August 12, 2025 at 6:25 PM
If you do something off putting to someone apologize. You’re not too grown to apologize. And she keeps getting away with being a terrible and shitty person.
Sometimes I feel bad but she really makes me feel bad about myself. She does things and says things to you and never apologize. Then acts like it never happened and expect you to do the same. I hate that ahut.
August 12, 2025 at 6:24 PM
Sometimes I feel bad but she really makes me feel bad about myself. She does things and says things to you and never apologize. Then acts like it never happened and expect you to do the same. I hate that ahut.
Simply said. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her.
August 12, 2025 at 6:23 PM
Simply said. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her.
And she gets away with it and I’m so fuxking irritated. This is not something I want to do
August 12, 2025 at 6:23 PM
And she gets away with it and I’m so fuxking irritated. This is not something I want to do
So now I’m even more angry because why are you taking my stuff and acting like I wouldn’t know. Now I have to ask you if you took it and why. And I’m not going to do that because I’m embarrassed. But I’m Andy even more because I’m in this situation where I don’t get a resolution
August 12, 2025 at 6:22 PM
So now I’m even more angry because why are you taking my stuff and acting like I wouldn’t know. Now I have to ask you if you took it and why. And I’m not going to do that because I’m embarrassed. But I’m Andy even more because I’m in this situation where I don’t get a resolution
And it’s been a couple weeks of me looking for this. Then today I realize my dildo is missing. Like WTF. NOW I’m looking for it and can’t remember the last time I saw it but I know that it was in this room.
August 12, 2025 at 6:21 PM
And it’s been a couple weeks of me looking for this. Then today I realize my dildo is missing. Like WTF. NOW I’m looking for it and can’t remember the last time I saw it but I know that it was in this room.
I don’t take those things out. And now I can’t find them. I looked in the car. And then her room still. And it’s driving me crazy because I feel like did I misplace it? I’m gaslighting myself but I know I didn’t. I know it was in the underwear dresser
August 12, 2025 at 6:19 PM
I don’t take those things out. And now I can’t find them. I looked in the car. And then her room still. And it’s driving me crazy because I feel like did I misplace it? I’m gaslighting myself but I know I didn’t. I know it was in the underwear dresser
I’ve been looking for a bag that had my vibrators in it. Looked every where. Center out my closet and dressers and still can’t find it. I’m convinced she too it.
August 12, 2025 at 6:18 PM
I’ve been looking for a bag that had my vibrators in it. Looked every where. Center out my closet and dressers and still can’t find it. I’m convinced she too it.
I’m feeling so angry and hurt right now. And I’m sure I hate my mom. She’s such a self centered person.
August 12, 2025 at 6:17 PM
I’m feeling so angry and hurt right now. And I’m sure I hate my mom. She’s such a self centered person.