Ellis/Sand, Romantic Deviant
@asthouwill.bsky.social
free opinions and amateur art on main ✧ adult ✧ queer ✧ ae/aer ✧ Pro-self expression, anti-censorship and harassment ✧ dangerous media consumer ✧ fandom heretic ✧ occasional OC rambling ✧ I don't check follows/unfollows
you know, sometimes I'm like... maybe no-one will mourn me, but at least my legacy won't be so many lives wasted in the kind of cruel, hateful, violent ideology right wing ""political"" ""debaters"" sell. I'd rather be a net neutral than a net negative.
September 12, 2025 at 5:50 PM
you know, sometimes I'm like... maybe no-one will mourn me, but at least my legacy won't be so many lives wasted in the kind of cruel, hateful, violent ideology right wing ""political"" ""debaters"" sell. I'd rather be a net neutral than a net negative.
rather than teach kids that the information superhighway in dangerous and ways to navigate it safely or stay off it, some people have decided to let them play on the road and ban the cars instead.
What's your take on the moment we're living through in 50 words or less. [you able to quote post]
August 18, 2025 at 10:57 AM
rather than teach kids that the information superhighway in dangerous and ways to navigate it safely or stay off it, some people have decided to let them play on the road and ban the cars instead.
I got grass/foliage brushes for my birthday like 2 months ago and this is the first time I've really tested them out
August 15, 2025 at 6:54 PM
I got grass/foliage brushes for my birthday like 2 months ago and this is the first time I've really tested them out
been playing a game. it's probably not the *point* that I made my tarnished to my personal taste but hey, I think I'm allowed some personal taste, heterochromia and all
August 10, 2025 at 2:21 PM
been playing a game. it's probably not the *point* that I made my tarnished to my personal taste but hey, I think I'm allowed some personal taste, heterochromia and all
my dad's car has this built in system for like, GPS and all that, and every time it starts the Computerised Voice says "starting normal recording"
and all I can think is "this implies there is Abnormal recording", which always feels like the start of a horror game lmao
and all I can think is "this implies there is Abnormal recording", which always feels like the start of a horror game lmao
August 6, 2025 at 7:27 PM
my dad's car has this built in system for like, GPS and all that, and every time it starts the Computerised Voice says "starting normal recording"
and all I can think is "this implies there is Abnormal recording", which always feels like the start of a horror game lmao
and all I can think is "this implies there is Abnormal recording", which always feels like the start of a horror game lmao
yup, there's bsky asking me to verify I'm an adult, fuck that noise.
July 30, 2025 at 11:35 PM
yup, there's bsky asking me to verify I'm an adult, fuck that noise.
if this stupid ID law goes through I'm probably gonna vanish, I don't even use my real face on here what's it gonna prove if I give them a photo
July 16, 2025 at 5:11 AM
if this stupid ID law goes through I'm probably gonna vanish, I don't even use my real face on here what's it gonna prove if I give them a photo
one "what happens when I really don't wanna think about what I'm doing right now"and one technically fanart, kinda (but no references so it is more How Game Existed In My Head At Time of Painting)
July 11, 2025 at 2:10 AM
one "what happens when I really don't wanna think about what I'm doing right now"and one technically fanart, kinda (but no references so it is more How Game Existed In My Head At Time of Painting)
me over here like... if I cut it down to things I actively read and care/d about, I get to like 11. xxxholic, natsume yuujinchou, black butler, gosick, your lie in april, march comes in like a lion, Erased, promised neverland, JJK, In/Spectre, Apothecary Diaries, FMA.
Of course it's an incomplete list & missing most of the things I've watched or do watch, esp a lot of things pre-2006 but it is funny to see where my life picked up and anime viewing plummeted (also, I just genuinely have not been interested at all in the vast majority of most popular shows)
June 18, 2025 at 5:01 PM
me over here like... if I cut it down to things I actively read and care/d about, I get to like 11. xxxholic, natsume yuujinchou, black butler, gosick, your lie in april, march comes in like a lion, Erased, promised neverland, JJK, In/Spectre, Apothecary Diaries, FMA.
this one is taking a while, but WIP I guess.
June 1, 2025 at 6:25 PM
this one is taking a while, but WIP I guess.
I won a tiny online contest, which is as much as surprise to me as it probably is to everyone else- mostly did it to have a quick and relatively simple project with a solid end goal, and also because colouring in is the fun part for me
doesn't mean I can't be happy about it, though
doesn't mean I can't be happy about it, though
May 19, 2025 at 2:57 PM
I won a tiny online contest, which is as much as surprise to me as it probably is to everyone else- mostly did it to have a quick and relatively simple project with a solid end goal, and also because colouring in is the fun part for me
doesn't mean I can't be happy about it, though
doesn't mean I can't be happy about it, though
it's basic as hell but I finally stuck my 3d glade together. it's got a box frame to live in, but I left that off for the photo because glare.
also featuring the return of clay hedgehog, who currently lives in front of the frame
also featuring the return of clay hedgehog, who currently lives in front of the frame
May 16, 2025 at 3:17 PM
it's basic as hell but I finally stuck my 3d glade together. it's got a box frame to live in, but I left that off for the photo because glare.
also featuring the return of clay hedgehog, who currently lives in front of the frame
also featuring the return of clay hedgehog, who currently lives in front of the frame
and the most recent thing I did, which is a little weird but it was fun to try and make all the sea blocks slightly different blues
May 9, 2025 at 4:30 PM
and the most recent thing I did, which is a little weird but it was fun to try and make all the sea blocks slightly different blues
found one of the very first things I ever did with watercolour paints. it's... messy, but also I got to paint a Round, Grouchy Frog, so
May 9, 2025 at 4:23 PM
found one of the very first things I ever did with watercolour paints. it's... messy, but also I got to paint a Round, Grouchy Frog, so
apropos of nothing, image I made entirely with mouse. Still kinda fond of it, tbh, especially my shattered glass effects.
April 7, 2025 at 6:37 PM
apropos of nothing, image I made entirely with mouse. Still kinda fond of it, tbh, especially my shattered glass effects.
I can't explain why I love horror-themed hidden object games and their "also there's a dead guy here, who apparently no-one ever missed and no-one looked for in the last place his job sent him, and his Dying Letter" but I do, I just do.
February 21, 2025 at 1:31 AM
I can't explain why I love horror-themed hidden object games and their "also there's a dead guy here, who apparently no-one ever missed and no-one looked for in the last place his job sent him, and his Dying Letter" but I do, I just do.
what I actually planned to do did not work out this week so it was fun with Sketchy Watercolour Landscapes week and trying to get colours right. got my metallic golds in the one on the left again, though it doesn't show well in the upload, lmao
February 14, 2025 at 4:26 PM
what I actually planned to do did not work out this week so it was fun with Sketchy Watercolour Landscapes week and trying to get colours right. got my metallic golds in the one on the left again, though it doesn't show well in the upload, lmao
are they basic? yep. did I get to abuse my metallic paints and does that make me happy? yep :3
(the light glare is kinda bad with this paper, though, gotta start finding ways to take better pictures)
(the light glare is kinda bad with this paper, though, gotta start finding ways to take better pictures)
February 8, 2025 at 5:38 PM
are they basic? yep. did I get to abuse my metallic paints and does that make me happy? yep :3
(the light glare is kinda bad with this paper, though, gotta start finding ways to take better pictures)
(the light glare is kinda bad with this paper, though, gotta start finding ways to take better pictures)
Haven't been doing much art because mental health has been on top of me, but I did finally get around to doing this one and quite like it. weird mix of acrylic and watercolour, but it was fun
February 1, 2025 at 11:16 AM
Haven't been doing much art because mental health has been on top of me, but I did finally get around to doing this one and quite like it. weird mix of acrylic and watercolour, but it was fun
playing Dark Souls, because if you're going to exist in a hellscape of poor choices by the people in charge who just want to stay in power, might as well be one you can actually finish one day.
January 21, 2025 at 5:53 PM
playing Dark Souls, because if you're going to exist in a hellscape of poor choices by the people in charge who just want to stay in power, might as well be one you can actually finish one day.
been feeling a little off lately for an assortment of reasons, but here's a quick borb I did for my xmas cards
December 25, 2024 at 10:06 AM
been feeling a little off lately for an assortment of reasons, but here's a quick borb I did for my xmas cards
can't do spotify because I am old but I can do oldschool things, like. leave a like and I'll post whatever song the Next Track button and the Random Track option gives me on my 1345 MP3s on WinAMP :p
December 8, 2024 at 12:26 PM
can't do spotify because I am old but I can do oldschool things, like. leave a like and I'll post whatever song the Next Track button and the Random Track option gives me on my 1345 MP3s on WinAMP :p
that one person many years ago who would *not* stop arguing that even if you have contractual paid leave to use on it and you book it off in advance, taking time off work for your birthday is incredibly selfish and you should *only* ever use your paid leave for emergencies and family like she did.
What's the bizarre take by some internet rando that you saw years ago but still think about regularly because it was just so unhinged?
Mine is the Redditor who said that all cats hate to be touched by humans and what we interpret as affection and pleasure is actually an expression of their trauma.
Mine is the Redditor who said that all cats hate to be touched by humans and what we interpret as affection and pleasure is actually an expression of their trauma.
December 6, 2024 at 3:03 PM
that one person many years ago who would *not* stop arguing that even if you have contractual paid leave to use on it and you book it off in advance, taking time off work for your birthday is incredibly selfish and you should *only* ever use your paid leave for emergencies and family like she did.
fin fish watercolour :3
November 22, 2024 at 6:35 PM
fin fish watercolour :3
playing Control, absolutely everything in the game seems to be out of control :p
it's very deliberately SCP but without the amoured supercyborg army and a little less Biblical God hanging over it. which is fine, SCP can feel a little... too power fantasy for horror?
it's very deliberately SCP but without the amoured supercyborg army and a little less Biblical God hanging over it. which is fine, SCP can feel a little... too power fantasy for horror?
November 13, 2024 at 10:58 AM
playing Control, absolutely everything in the game seems to be out of control :p
it's very deliberately SCP but without the amoured supercyborg army and a little less Biblical God hanging over it. which is fine, SCP can feel a little... too power fantasy for horror?
it's very deliberately SCP but without the amoured supercyborg army and a little less Biblical God hanging over it. which is fine, SCP can feel a little... too power fantasy for horror?