god thats fucking hurt

i honestly dont like thinking about it. but its hard, its difficult and i think i should be mad at it. but idk man, feels like the only thing i can do is to pray for the bubble to burst right this instance.

Crazy idea: play the song in arcade mode, memorize the chart so i can play it in main story without visual 🤔

Also new tradition of having at least 1 or 2 top song being whatever i was learning that year lol its nice but it does feel like a waste of slots on the top songs charts.

Now those artists are my 'constants', but i also leave space for new stuff to slowly enter my life, had a few good months then add them as a new 'constants' to my rotation and keep searching for new stuff. I like it that way. Feels like my horizon really opened this year.

Honestly? I really proud of my listening habit this year. There was a time i only listen to like 20 people and the top spot is like artist-i-like + artist-i-like's-band (19-22 was saechi+popipa, 23-24 ringo + jihen).

Not suprise lol since i started to use LastFM this year, i did notice how much i streamed YONAKI back in April and yeah, hes still my top artist since

What i did not expect was Holy, Holy, that was before my lastFM phase. Holy shit i must have like that song quite a lot

But now i'm pretty sure the 'you' is 'myself', which probably obvious for anyone who know JP or can READ but I WAS A DUMB KID OKAY

my new fav is sleepwalker gazing on nirvana tho. the guitar intro is so simple but it made me like 😳☺️(have i ever mentioned that i'm easily impressed lol)

...the full thing just hits different. i love the darker songs he wrote for this one so much. like its so, so miserable, ultimately ended with a cry for help that is "I Do Not Love You".
When I was younger, I thought it was a song about someone who was hurted and couldnt love anyone anymore...