금강/진주단

kooo thank youuuuu *hugs* your words are always so sweet 💕

so ✨️i hope✨️ to start sharing silly things this coming year.

(why is it that when i try to vent here, i end up in self-reflection?)

about myself, and one of those things is this feeling that if i publish a headcanon or make any move within the fandoms i'm in, i'll embarrass myself. it's a feeling i hope to get rid of soon.

and it's not that i want to be pitied or anything, i just want to let go of things i have in my chest that hurt, this is a tiny fraction of that.

new year's is in a few days (i don't really like these kinds of celebrations, but that's another topic), and with that, i hope to improve many things—

i know i should just throw myself into doing new things, even i have this thought of doing things whether i'm ready or not, but it's really hard.

this is one of the many internal struggles i'm having right now.

when i think about doing something, my mind sabotages me by saying something like, "no, you're cringe," and i end up not doing it. i even have this problem of comparing myself to others, which makes this feeling worse.

this happens to me both here and in real life!

too much has happened in my life lately, my heart is shattered, and i'm so tired.

i want to do my bit for my fandoms, but it's really hard for me!