And also another addition to this. Last year I would've have even considered being honest about this online because I would have perceived that as a failure to appear professional and legitimate.

But being honest about it is just another way for me to grow from my past experiences

All this to say - this year has been healing in many ways and I hope with 2026 to take that even further. 💕

Forever thankful for those that have supported me all this time and excited to see what I can create next year

I didn't really ever stop loving it but for the longest time I associated it with struggle and stress. I needed the time to let go of that.

It's not been a quick fix but rather one that I'm still learning to overcome and building back the blocks of what my art and career will look like

The only time I was let go mid-project was back during that first year and STILL it was so hard to move on from. I blamed myself for the longest time for that.

This year has been about finally finding a better balance with everything and learning to love art again

Of course there are ALWAYS things to improve on in an artwork and my work will never be perfect. I'm always learning and growing in many ways as an artist, but that fear was ever present in ways that I felt truly stifled my art looking back.

For a long time after that I was absolutely terrified of any negative critique on my work from clients because what was the worst that could happen, right? Oh - I could actually be dropped.

So I constantly pushed further and further, struggling to deal with any imperfections in my work

This severely impacted my feeling of self-worth and my belief in my art. I mean, how could it not? To go from the utter joy at being hired to work with clients to devastation all within a few weeks and months.

Back when I first really started to actively pursue art I had a few bad experiences in a row of getting let go mid-project. Some were due to my skills not yet being up to par, and others things like miscommunication (things that I had little experience handling with clients at this stage)

This was not really the result of any one thing but moreso an accumulation of several years of driving myself to the point of exhaustion from an internal need to 'prove' that I was a legitimate artist (Not an uncommon thing for artists to feel unfortunately)

It racked up around 17k notes on tumblr and 16k likes on instagram.

that's okay! This particular character of mine was created for a campaign that ran before Mighty Nein was even a thing so any similarity is just coincidence!

I just watched this film for the first time recently and my god this poster is incredible!!

I so very rarely do personal pieces that aren't fanart and this was a wonderful return to an old D&D character of mine. Just a sketch but perfectly captured what I wanted from it!

truly appreciate the folks I know who learnt how to make graphics and art themselves instead of resorting to AI slop

really trying to hold myself to the goal of finishing it by the end of the year!

🌸Hi! 👋 I enjoy making monsters, OC's, and surreal things that lurk in dreams~ I move in-between comics, games, tabletop, and personal work! Love being a hypeman for my peers 💕

thanks! Should be finished soon I hope~