I've been down this path before. I know where it ends

I, craving real connection and intimacy, jerk off to worse and worse things. Eventually ill be in such a bad head space and jerk off to something so mean that ill experience sub drop so bad I feel like shit for days

no one interacts with my nudes, no one interacts with my hinge, no one talks to me irl
maybe im just ugly

I think I'm just ugly, I hate seeing how much more attention people get when they're thinner, have a bigger dick, better balls, beefier body, hairier
There's nothing good about my body

i only have like 1-2 people who care

ill never be good enough, ill never be talented enough, ill never be rich enough, ill never be sexy enough, ill never be enough

I'm talking to someone I met on hinge and I just keep fumbling

Sometimes I think I'm too wierd to have anyone fall in love with me
How am I supposed to get someone to accept all this

God I'm such a fucking loser, I can only fill the void in self destructive ways, the only thing I'm good for is my money. That's the only reason my 3rd bf dated me
I want to fizzle away into nothingness

2/3 of the way through work I got hit with such an intense feeling of loneliness. It was hard to fake that smile today
God, I'm never finding love, am I?