anyways I kinda wanna try lean before I die

I dunno, these are just some thoughts I've been having that I wanted to just get out of my head

it's part of the reason why I want to make art: to leave some sort of mark on the world even after I'm long gone

and it's also why I want to start being healthier cuz I don't wanna end up in an early grave lol

I'm not you-know-what or anything like that, far from it

I just get existential dread from knowing that at one point everything will come to an end