Zaranaux Primitive.
@zaranaux.bsky.social
Taking a long mental health journey to avoid making the same mistakes again.
Be patient with me as that is all I ask.
Be patient with me as that is all I ask.
— as what we were doing as jokes. two friends joking about the most stupidest stuff. i thought it was harmless, but it is clear now that it was not. i should have not picked those traits up, not let things continue like that. i thought it was okay. i thought it was okay and i have no excuse.
January 27, 2026 at 2:55 AM
— as what we were doing as jokes. two friends joking about the most stupidest stuff. i thought it was harmless, but it is clear now that it was not. i should have not picked those traits up, not let things continue like that. i thought it was okay. i thought it was okay and i have no excuse.
— and for not seeking the help sooner than i’ve already had. it was foolish and only made things worse in the long run as they would only have built up more like a volcano. i am being as honest as i can be. it’s always been my nature to be as honest as with anyone as possible. i’ve only ever seen-
January 27, 2026 at 2:52 AM
— and for not seeking the help sooner than i’ve already had. it was foolish and only made things worse in the long run as they would only have built up more like a volcano. i am being as honest as i can be. it’s always been my nature to be as honest as with anyone as possible. i’ve only ever seen-
again, i see that i was wrong in thinking that too. as stuff like that is meant to be collaborative. to make sure that everybody was okay with where certain things went. i ignorantly ignored those. all of those. which was immature. i am immature. for having all my emotions all build up together-
January 27, 2026 at 2:50 AM
again, i see that i was wrong in thinking that too. as stuff like that is meant to be collaborative. to make sure that everybody was okay with where certain things went. i ignorantly ignored those. all of those. which was immature. i am immature. for having all my emotions all build up together-
- i am. that’s not what i am. i’ve also been known to have a habit of taking things seriously. even with stupid things like Roleplay. i’ve always, for as long as i remember, never had the opportunity to dictate where my life went. any real opportunity, and with Roleplay, it seemed like that i could.
January 27, 2026 at 2:46 AM
- i am. that’s not what i am. i’ve also been known to have a habit of taking things seriously. even with stupid things like Roleplay. i’ve always, for as long as i remember, never had the opportunity to dictate where my life went. any real opportunity, and with Roleplay, it seemed like that i could.
— lost the two most important people in my life in the matter of days. i am willing to do anything, *ANYTHING* to get them to trust me again. for us to be friends again. to work on that dream of mines again. i’ve never meant to be manipulative, i didn’t know i was being a “groomer.”
that’s not who-
that’s not who-
January 27, 2026 at 2:43 AM
— lost the two most important people in my life in the matter of days. i am willing to do anything, *ANYTHING* to get them to trust me again. for us to be friends again. to work on that dream of mines again. i’ve never meant to be manipulative, i didn’t know i was being a “groomer.”
that’s not who-
that’s not who-
— about r@pe and sexualization. and because of that, i thought that it was okay for me to do the same. i see that i was wrong. just wrong. wrong to think that any of what i’ve done was okay and i cannot take any of it back. no matter how much i wish that i could. because of what i’ve done, i have-
January 27, 2026 at 2:41 AM
— about r@pe and sexualization. and because of that, i thought that it was okay for me to do the same. i see that i was wrong. just wrong. wrong to think that any of what i’ve done was okay and i cannot take any of it back. no matter how much i wish that i could. because of what i’ve done, i have-
- anybody to take me seriously anymore. and i dont blame them if they don’t. i just feel like i owe you all a proper explanation. throughout a good part of my life, i was always under the assumption that what i’ve done was seen as okay. that they were alright, my brother always made jokes about-
January 27, 2026 at 2:38 AM
- anybody to take me seriously anymore. and i dont blame them if they don’t. i just feel like i owe you all a proper explanation. throughout a good part of my life, i was always under the assumption that what i’ve done was seen as okay. that they were alright, my brother always made jokes about-
you’ve all probably seen the documents, both of ours.. so you might already know the full story.
my name is crymstal, real name zander-ryan, i’ve been accused of grooming, sa roleplay, and manipulation tactics. all of which i have been severely regretting these past few days. i dont expect for-
my name is crymstal, real name zander-ryan, i’ve been accused of grooming, sa roleplay, and manipulation tactics. all of which i have been severely regretting these past few days. i dont expect for-
January 27, 2026 at 2:36 AM
you’ve all probably seen the documents, both of ours.. so you might already know the full story.
my name is crymstal, real name zander-ryan, i’ve been accused of grooming, sa roleplay, and manipulation tactics. all of which i have been severely regretting these past few days. i dont expect for-
my name is crymstal, real name zander-ryan, i’ve been accused of grooming, sa roleplay, and manipulation tactics. all of which i have been severely regretting these past few days. i dont expect for-
- account as an archive.
If you are all still willing to talk with me, I will provide you my Discord through DMS. Although, I wouldn’t want anybody to still talk with me. I don’t blame you all if you don’t wish to.
I am sorry.
If you are all still willing to talk with me, I will provide you my Discord through DMS. Although, I wouldn’t want anybody to still talk with me. I don’t blame you all if you don’t wish to.
I am sorry.
January 25, 2026 at 11:54 AM
- account as an archive.
If you are all still willing to talk with me, I will provide you my Discord through DMS. Although, I wouldn’t want anybody to still talk with me. I don’t blame you all if you don’t wish to.
I am sorry.
If you are all still willing to talk with me, I will provide you my Discord through DMS. Although, I wouldn’t want anybody to still talk with me. I don’t blame you all if you don’t wish to.
I am sorry.
— deleting this account in the next six to seven days. It should give people enough time to read through both sides of the situation. I recommend reading Bread’s first before looking at mine.
I will be leaving social media for a good long while to actually SEEK HELP.
maybe I should leave this-
I will be leaving social media for a good long while to actually SEEK HELP.
maybe I should leave this-
January 25, 2026 at 11:53 AM
— deleting this account in the next six to seven days. It should give people enough time to read through both sides of the situation. I recommend reading Bread’s first before looking at mine.
I will be leaving social media for a good long while to actually SEEK HELP.
maybe I should leave this-
I will be leaving social media for a good long while to actually SEEK HELP.
maybe I should leave this-
— that I’m sorry. I’m sorry for causing so much harm to someone who I’ve considered a friend for so many years.. even despite the rough start.
They’ve never deserved to go through any of the shit I’ve given them and I’ll have to carry that guilt till the day I die.
That’s all from me. I will be-
They’ve never deserved to go through any of the shit I’ve given them and I’ll have to carry that guilt till the day I die.
That’s all from me. I will be-
January 25, 2026 at 11:51 AM
— that I’m sorry. I’m sorry for causing so much harm to someone who I’ve considered a friend for so many years.. even despite the rough start.
They’ve never deserved to go through any of the shit I’ve given them and I’ll have to carry that guilt till the day I die.
That’s all from me. I will be-
They’ve never deserved to go through any of the shit I’ve given them and I’ll have to carry that guilt till the day I die.
That’s all from me. I will be-
— sexual topics.
This is about where I’m going to end it with my side of things. I mean what I’ve said, I want to change and be better. I want to leave this behind and start fresh again.
I don’t expect for my actions to be forgiven.
I don’t expect people to look at me the same again.
Just know-
This is about where I’m going to end it with my side of things. I mean what I’ve said, I want to change and be better. I want to leave this behind and start fresh again.
I don’t expect for my actions to be forgiven.
I don’t expect people to look at me the same again.
Just know-
January 25, 2026 at 11:49 AM
— sexual topics.
This is about where I’m going to end it with my side of things. I mean what I’ve said, I want to change and be better. I want to leave this behind and start fresh again.
I don’t expect for my actions to be forgiven.
I don’t expect people to look at me the same again.
Just know-
This is about where I’m going to end it with my side of things. I mean what I’ve said, I want to change and be better. I want to leave this behind and start fresh again.
I don’t expect for my actions to be forgiven.
I don’t expect people to look at me the same again.
Just know-
— manner. Like having her be smacked with a belt. Like a child being disciplined by its mother. Still a bad joke to be making, but I’ve just wanted to clear the air on that.
Most of messages were all meant to be jokes. Nothing but a form a bad comedy..
A style I have picked up from the time I was-
Most of messages were all meant to be jokes. Nothing but a form a bad comedy..
A style I have picked up from the time I was-
January 25, 2026 at 11:47 AM
— manner. Like having her be smacked with a belt. Like a child being disciplined by its mother. Still a bad joke to be making, but I’ve just wanted to clear the air on that.
Most of messages were all meant to be jokes. Nothing but a form a bad comedy..
A style I have picked up from the time I was-
Most of messages were all meant to be jokes. Nothing but a form a bad comedy..
A style I have picked up from the time I was-
— move on. And of which some occasions they have. I’ve seen one of my messages saying Nitro, Bread’s character, and Rocktro, a clone of Nitro that I have helped create spanking Nitro.
As surprising as it may seem, after all of this, that was not meant to be sexual. It was meant to be in a jokey—
As surprising as it may seem, after all of this, that was not meant to be sexual. It was meant to be in a jokey—
January 25, 2026 at 11:45 AM
— move on. And of which some occasions they have. I’ve seen one of my messages saying Nitro, Bread’s character, and Rocktro, a clone of Nitro that I have helped create spanking Nitro.
As surprising as it may seem, after all of this, that was not meant to be sexual. It was meant to be in a jokey—
As surprising as it may seem, after all of this, that was not meant to be sexual. It was meant to be in a jokey—
As for the times of asking Bread to draw.. that. They were a bad form of teasing. I’ve never actually wanted them do that or was expecting them to go through with it. I did call them a “Pussy” when they won’t go through with the teasing, but that’s where I was expecting the discussion to end and to-
January 25, 2026 at 11:41 AM
As for the times of asking Bread to draw.. that. They were a bad form of teasing. I’ve never actually wanted them do that or was expecting them to go through with it. I did call them a “Pussy” when they won’t go through with the teasing, but that’s where I was expecting the discussion to end and to-
— I didn’t write any of that stuff and showed it to Bread without their consent. The most I did was draw her characters as gifts. Normally with no exaggerated features. As, as shocking as it may seem, I did truly admire Bread’s character designs. Sad as it is, I still do.
January 25, 2026 at 11:38 AM
— I didn’t write any of that stuff and showed it to Bread without their consent. The most I did was draw her characters as gifts. Normally with no exaggerated features. As, as shocking as it may seem, I did truly admire Bread’s character designs. Sad as it is, I still do.
— graphic detail. This was something that I did not ask for when it came to the fan-fic. I wouldn’t even CALL it a fan fiction as that was written with nothing but HATE for my character Starlin. I once again thought that stuff in a similar vain was… OKAY. That it was acceptable. Before you ask, no-
January 25, 2026 at 11:36 AM
— graphic detail. This was something that I did not ask for when it came to the fan-fic. I wouldn’t even CALL it a fan fiction as that was written with nothing but HATE for my character Starlin. I once again thought that stuff in a similar vain was… OKAY. That it was acceptable. Before you ask, no-
— excuse my actions in the slightest.
About more of the sexual comments. I would like to point out that I’ve haven’t always had that tendency to do so. Following two different sex induced encounters, having a “fan fiction” written involving my characters and Tailspin’s character fucking in-
About more of the sexual comments. I would like to point out that I’ve haven’t always had that tendency to do so. Following two different sex induced encounters, having a “fan fiction” written involving my characters and Tailspin’s character fucking in-
January 25, 2026 at 11:33 AM
— excuse my actions in the slightest.
About more of the sexual comments. I would like to point out that I’ve haven’t always had that tendency to do so. Following two different sex induced encounters, having a “fan fiction” written involving my characters and Tailspin’s character fucking in-
About more of the sexual comments. I would like to point out that I’ve haven’t always had that tendency to do so. Following two different sex induced encounters, having a “fan fiction” written involving my characters and Tailspin’s character fucking in-
— hindsight. I would also have expressed feelings of inadequacy in other RP servers that WERE more story focused. While I have told my feelings to Bread, I would also tell Aqua about them. I can’t tell you where those feelings came from. Fear? Self-hate? Worthlessness? I do not know, but it does not
January 25, 2026 at 11:31 AM
— hindsight. I would also have expressed feelings of inadequacy in other RP servers that WERE more story focused. While I have told my feelings to Bread, I would also tell Aqua about them. I can’t tell you where those feelings came from. Fear? Self-hate? Worthlessness? I do not know, but it does not
— of which was a more story focused server that I’ve made to finally bury the hatchet between Tailspin, who does now go by Metro at the time, with Bread. The other four to five..? It was more or less the same smut filled journey that I’ve quickly begun to grow tired of. Which is… hypocritical in—
January 25, 2026 at 11:28 AM
— of which was a more story focused server that I’ve made to finally bury the hatchet between Tailspin, who does now go by Metro at the time, with Bread. The other four to five..? It was more or less the same smut filled journey that I’ve quickly begun to grow tired of. Which is… hypocritical in—
There have been some things that I’ve mistakenly left out making this document. Like how I would also make sexual jokes involving my own characters.. All I’ve really saw them as doing was as jokes and that there would have been four to five other servers following the previous shutdown. The first—
January 25, 2026 at 11:26 AM
There have been some things that I’ve mistakenly left out making this document. Like how I would also make sexual jokes involving my own characters.. All I’ve really saw them as doing was as jokes and that there would have been four to five other servers following the previous shutdown. The first—
I’m sorry if this as sloppy as it is.
I’ve never been good at explaining myself.
I’ve never been good at explaining myself.
January 24, 2026 at 8:22 PM
I’m sorry if this as sloppy as it is.
I’ve never been good at explaining myself.
I’ve never been good at explaining myself.