need to pass FM and get out of the idiots league as my boss likes to tell me. can you believe this is the type of person i work for. whatever

so excited!!

i just feel like a failure. but everyone does i guess. and i have to get over it if i want to be anything

that makes me feel better actually. i’ve always been like this. i probably won’t change. so i shouldn’t be surprised. i just need to let the procrastination end sooner than it usually does

i don’t know why i’m freaking out. this is how i’ve always been.

i think after i had my stroke, then covid happened, i just got really really depressed and couldn’t hang out with people anymore. and in turn they probably didn’t like me anymore. some people tried to stay but i am very good at this. it’s a shame. i hope we reconnect one day when i’m different

i’m very good at that

maybe i shouldn’t have quite drum lessons. my head just feels all over the place

i have work tomorrow like what?

why is the poster for the new movie him and patrick doing the pose from Titanic😭

i’ve had three thoughts for the past two years. be an actuary, get top surgery, get a life. none have happened. patience

and i want top surgery and a million dollars. it must be dope to be rich