I feel you 🫂🫂 stay warm and take care <3

and on top of all that, I know this sounds ridiculous but shoto has done wonders for my mental health. Now my mental state is much better than before, even though I'm still struggling.

it's like the tide ebbs temporarily. So before it comes back to attack me, I talk to myself repeatedly that if I die, it's all over, I won't be able to see, hear or touch my beloveds. I also quit my job and moved to the suburbs to get rid of the major source of stress

(Sorry it got too long, I have to split it.) When in a severe state of depression, you can't think straight or positive things at all, instead you just feel a lot of pain and suffering for nothing and then think "just end me, I don't wanna suffer anymore." But at least in my case,