It's literally just some white sweater i found laying around and decided to wear at home lmao

I just want to be freed, I just want to die

Even though I have a small amount of people around me who care and try their best to show me that I matter, that they care, I still feel so cold. So very cold. For as long as I'm being forced to live, I'll never let myself open up again, until the very end when I inevitably commit suicide

I'm still being bullied by people online AND irl? I'm a trans, emo, lolicon who's been bullied and treated like dirt all her life, thrown away like a used napkin time and time again and yet I keep being told to continue to live? Aaaahhhh, how cruel.. it hurts.

I don't think I'll ever be okay. Life isn't worth living but I'm still here. No matter how many times I try to better my life I still keep running into people who drag me down. How many years will I keep going till people still leaving me? Till I stop being bullied? Why am I almost 30 years old and

Nothing to help or comfort me was when I came to the realisation you stopped loving me. Sometimes I wonder if you ever really did love me. It hurt. It hurt. It hurt a lot. But still I held on. I still wonder if I was cheated on, but ill never know because to the very end you never let me help you

To me, I could handle it. I could bare the pain as long as I had you. Even when it came to comforting each other and things were one-sided I never blamed you for it because you were still here with me. I think i realised the day I told you my suicidal thoughts were creeping back up and you did

Never be the same person, my life will never be happy again. My life wasn't great but when you said you loved me I didn't want to believe you, but I slowly did. I thought I finally had a reason to live, I thought as long as I had you it would be okay. Life, no matter how painful and cruel it's been

Think about it some more

Magnum opus part 2