it’s also the feeling of being a bother to everyone by just talking or being me and i feel people need a break from me so i think i should disappear for a bit even though this isn’t a good mindset to have i was doing good and then it feels i take ten steps back to feeling this way again

i just hate how i have dreams over stuff i overthink the most

i’m really tired of feeling this way. it makes me want to isolate myself and i feel annoying and a burden and i hate it.

and i feel so annoying for feeling this way

i really don’t know why my dad hates me i don’t know what’s so wrong with me that my parents treat me like a mistake and i know they think i am because they’ve told me multiple times

i just want to know what’s wrong with me and why i am like this and what to change about myself so i am not this way

and like some days i feel i am never going to heal from past trauma and feeling like i am worthy of love like it’s hard for me to believe and i wish i would and not second guess everything

i genuinely do not know what is wrong with me