Not to mention that I don’t know where I am and what I feel in my relationship.

I guess I am just a mess that bring destruction in other people’s life huh

I should be grateful for the (little) goods things that happened this year but I can’t even find an once of happiness in this.
My mind is absolutely blank for months now, life without creativity feels pointless

To be honest, I feel very tired of all of this.
What is the point of all of that. What the matter.
I am starting to be tired of trying.

2026 is hella terrifying to me

The truth is that, despite having some friends (that I can count on the fingers of one hand) and a boyfriend, I feel so alone.
So terribly alone. I don’t know what to do with all that emptiness and I feel like I will never be able to make some new connections and true friends.

I spent one hour crying at the therapist yesterday morning and I still don’t know what to think about it.
I am my own evil.
I am not sure medication would help as she suggested (and kinda scared to take some, to be honest)

This has been a terrible shitty year.
My mental health is really damaged but I can’t help to think that I still didn’t reach the bottom yet.

Never found my god damn place online or irl.
Would not make any difference if I was here or not, I sometimes think of deleting all my accounts. Who would care