okay i guess it's fine if she saves up. i just hate the procedure of bringing expensive things back to my home country

I don't even have appetite

I should just disappear and die yep

it doesn't help that my surroundings are filled with this thing i wanted like the people the media so im just very envious i suppose 😭

that's why im so desperate to socialize and interact and do something because i literally don't want to be alone with my thoughts

i was told to be grateful of what i have and i ammm truly i love the people around me the things i can do and this and that but once im alone again im reminded of this thing i will never have

there's nothing I want to talk about with you anymore ❗❗

so it's like hey I fulfilled my task to you already let this be the last because I don't want to continue anymore dyou get me